MysticWitch
Weaver of Worlds
I have had anxiety since I was in my preteens. Of course back then I didn't know what it was. More often than not I would stay awake most nights until I passed out. I would have frequent panic attacks and vivid imaginative scenarios in my head of random people breaking into our house. It was probably my most common delusion I had. Other times I would freak out at social situations, fear about going outside in general. It was hard trying to form a coping mechanism to deal with it. Medication really didn't help much and I hated who I became when I was on it. More or less every night I would imagine worlds in my head. I would go to my land and become a different person. I would play their story in my head. When I was rping, I would imagine where it would go and was excited to continue said RP the next day.
In a sense it did become part of my routine. As I have gotten older, I still use that if I get too panicked or overstressed. But I also make lists of things I have control of in my life. Things I want to accomplish. I'm trying to focus more on those things and it has helped a bit.
That being said, I'm still a lonely introvert who if you ask to venture to a random event alone will most likely reply with a "NO"
I'm still working on trying to make friends.
It's a process.
In a sense it did become part of my routine. As I have gotten older, I still use that if I get too panicked or overstressed. But I also make lists of things I have control of in my life. Things I want to accomplish. I'm trying to focus more on those things and it has helped a bit.
That being said, I'm still a lonely introvert who if you ask to venture to a random event alone will most likely reply with a "NO"
I'm still working on trying to make friends.
It's a process.