Winona
No, I don't have too many characters.
Ashton West
She was angry. She was pissed. She was confused. She was... she was... she was...
Hurt.
“Fuck you.” He said.
Her breath--
No, actually, her breath didn't catch in her throat. There was no shock, there was no surprise coming from her after he uttered those words. There was just a... a feeling of acceptance. No surprise, this was nothing new. It was just... Halloween all over again, all over the same issues.
He rambled from point to point, his words making like almost no sense to her as she listened to him speak.
Trevor made some good points -- but probably not for the point that he wanted to make. Through the slight glisten in her eyes, all Ash could think about was... was... what, red flags everywhere or something? The fact that half the shit he was saying was so fucked up, so fucked up, so fucked up and-- and--
He was placing words in her mouth again. Saying that she thought this or that, when she hadn't said anything of the sort, when she'd never thought anything of the sort. It was the same thing, over and over again -- Trevor thinking that she thought he was some kind of shitty person, Trevor angry about guys, and she just--
"Are you fucking serious?" Ash snapped, her lip drawn back into a look of disgust as she stepped forward, jabbing a finger into his chest because fuck him, fuck him, fuck him. "Just admit that you don't fucking trust me because you think I'm too fucking good for you."
She dropped her hand away from him, letting out a small laugh of disbelief. She couldn't fucking handle this. For the first time, she actually felt... defeated. Not that, just that... she felt done. She couldn't handle this continuous, this just... this continuous, just him, just him, just him.
Ash was done with him.
"So you just wanted me to just... just fucking wait for you? Just sit all by myself until you decided to fucking show up with your date, right?" There was still disbelieving laughter bubbling out of her chest, a disbelieving smile painted across her face that this all of... all of this was happening yet again. "I am so sorry that I didn't wait for my mess of a fucking boyfriend to show up tonight and had fun with guys who actually want to be seen with me instead."
“So I’m feckin’ drunk,” he said, his face unamused. He looked back at the ground. “Yeah, I’m fucking drunk, and yeah, I’m fucking high,” (at this, Ash let out a fake surprised gasp followed by a soft "nooo" as she brought a hand dramatically across her mouth) “just so I could forget about all of the shite that bothers me, just so I could feckin’ ask you to go public with me, not because I really want to, but because that’s what you feckin’ want to do, and I feckin’ care about you, so I feckin’ act like I don’t feckin’ feel anything. And that’s totally feckin’ normal, because I’m a fuckin’ van-drivin’ bottom-feeder and you’re hot and emotionally feckin’ damaged or some shite. I give a shit, Ash — and I fucking act like I don’t so you can be fucking happy with me, so you can be feckin’ happy with this feckin’ guy I’m pretending to be. So fuck you.”
She was speechless for a moment -- not because she didn't know what to say, not because she was necessarily hurt, just because she was... she was... there was too much that she wanted to say.
But then, some kind of saving grace came by, and her gaze broke from Trevor's as Cappie moved between the two of them. She blinked for a moment, and a hand reached out to lightly brush across his arm. Kind of as a little thank you so much for blocking him before I went to jail for murder.
“You need to walk away right now, S.T.,” Cappie said. “Walk away. Sit somewhere else and sober up before you make yourself more of a schmuck. Ash, let’s get back to the ball.”
"Oh, no, I can't go anywhere with you, Cap," Ash spat, glaring at Trevor from around Cappie's shoulder. "My amazing boyfriend who cares oh so much about me will just think you want to fuck me on the dancefloor. But he can go on fucking dates with girls he's actually fucked and I'm supposed to just smile and be perfectly okay with it, but I can't even like... you're seriously jealous over Newt?"
She didn't mention Lucky because well... the worry there at least had some kind of backing.
But Newt? Really?
"Maybe I should just, like, go actually kiss Newt or fuck Lucky since apparently you think I'm some kind of cheating whore and don't believe that I just want you, you fucking jackass."
Hurt.
“Fuck you.” He said.
Her breath--
No, actually, her breath didn't catch in her throat. There was no shock, there was no surprise coming from her after he uttered those words. There was just a... a feeling of acceptance. No surprise, this was nothing new. It was just... Halloween all over again, all over the same issues.
He rambled from point to point, his words making like almost no sense to her as she listened to him speak.
Trevor made some good points -- but probably not for the point that he wanted to make. Through the slight glisten in her eyes, all Ash could think about was... was... what, red flags everywhere or something? The fact that half the shit he was saying was so fucked up, so fucked up, so fucked up and-- and--
He was placing words in her mouth again. Saying that she thought this or that, when she hadn't said anything of the sort, when she'd never thought anything of the sort. It was the same thing, over and over again -- Trevor thinking that she thought he was some kind of shitty person, Trevor angry about guys, and she just--
"Are you fucking serious?" Ash snapped, her lip drawn back into a look of disgust as she stepped forward, jabbing a finger into his chest because fuck him, fuck him, fuck him. "Just admit that you don't fucking trust me because you think I'm too fucking good for you."
She dropped her hand away from him, letting out a small laugh of disbelief. She couldn't fucking handle this. For the first time, she actually felt... defeated. Not that, just that... she felt done. She couldn't handle this continuous, this just... this continuous, just him, just him, just him.
Ash was done with him.
"So you just wanted me to just... just fucking wait for you? Just sit all by myself until you decided to fucking show up with your date, right?" There was still disbelieving laughter bubbling out of her chest, a disbelieving smile painted across her face that this all of... all of this was happening yet again. "I am so sorry that I didn't wait for my mess of a fucking boyfriend to show up tonight and had fun with guys who actually want to be seen with me instead."
“So I’m feckin’ drunk,” he said, his face unamused. He looked back at the ground. “Yeah, I’m fucking drunk, and yeah, I’m fucking high,” (at this, Ash let out a fake surprised gasp followed by a soft "nooo" as she brought a hand dramatically across her mouth) “just so I could forget about all of the shite that bothers me, just so I could feckin’ ask you to go public with me, not because I really want to, but because that’s what you feckin’ want to do, and I feckin’ care about you, so I feckin’ act like I don’t feckin’ feel anything. And that’s totally feckin’ normal, because I’m a fuckin’ van-drivin’ bottom-feeder and you’re hot and emotionally feckin’ damaged or some shite. I give a shit, Ash — and I fucking act like I don’t so you can be fucking happy with me, so you can be feckin’ happy with this feckin’ guy I’m pretending to be. So fuck you.”
She was speechless for a moment -- not because she didn't know what to say, not because she was necessarily hurt, just because she was... she was... there was too much that she wanted to say.
But then, some kind of saving grace came by, and her gaze broke from Trevor's as Cappie moved between the two of them. She blinked for a moment, and a hand reached out to lightly brush across his arm. Kind of as a little thank you so much for blocking him before I went to jail for murder.
“You need to walk away right now, S.T.,” Cappie said. “Walk away. Sit somewhere else and sober up before you make yourself more of a schmuck. Ash, let’s get back to the ball.”
"Oh, no, I can't go anywhere with you, Cap," Ash spat, glaring at Trevor from around Cappie's shoulder. "My amazing boyfriend who cares oh so much about me will just think you want to fuck me on the dancefloor. But he can go on fucking dates with girls he's actually fucked and I'm supposed to just smile and be perfectly okay with it, but I can't even like... you're seriously jealous over Newt?"
She didn't mention Lucky because well... the worry there at least had some kind of backing.
But Newt? Really?
"Maybe I should just, like, go actually kiss Newt or fuck Lucky since apparently you think I'm some kind of cheating whore and don't believe that I just want you, you fucking jackass."
mood
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location
the Ball
outfit
purple
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location
the Ball
outfit
purple
playing...
Boys Ain't Shit
Boys Ain't Shit
by saygrace