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a doggo
She watched him.
The light scattered unevenly across his face, catching in the marks before it could cross softly across his features. It reflected hard over the dense flesh of scars. Cast darker shadows in the depresses left in his skin.
She saw those things momentarily. She heard him, over everything.
None of her senses pressed her, pulled her, watched her lack of sentry. She was finally given a moment without wondering what was going on behind her back. Who could be watching and listening. She was in a space where she could allow herself to truly see him, whatever he chose to show her.
Her eyes trained steadily on him. Relaxed and careful.
He spoke of himself, something just bereft of pain when she asked of him. And never looked at her when he did. When he did turn to her, it was when he was proud to speak of other things. Say any words that did not truly focus on himself. She was quiet, digesting, letting his answers sit for a time.
"May'ap djou shall meet 'im again soon."
Her gaze was allowed down, her mouth moving in somewhat of a smile. One that did slightly strike her eyes. She couldn't imagine soon. Unless her luck was such it would attract a benevolent violence she couldn't comprehend to strike them anon.
The fire crackled, eating its wood. The curtains were thick and drawn, triple layered and having posts to the wall where they could be pinned to block most light from showing to the outside.
They drank.
It was odd. She felt as if they were more distant when they spoke apart. No matter how much attention she was focusing on him.
She knew it should not have been odd. That human history, psychology, told them all that touch was essential to most intimacy. Yet she had touched many people and felt nothing. Had only utility and intermittent disgust. Bonded with none, and nobody.
No one that she wished to be bonded to.
So perhaps it was for that she fought the notion of touch as intimacy. Touch was a procedure of one thing to the next.
Yet it was not, here.
They drained the pot in draughts at a time, even as it was cold.
She stood, slowly after a point.
"How's your wound?"
Her chair moved out behind her, and she slowly came near, aware of what she was doing, but feeling apart from what was happening. She left her shoes in the other room and walked across the hut in bare feet. She preferred it this way but hardly ever found the leisure to do as so. Her skin padded across the floorboards, sticking with the sweat and mild humidity. Dry, and dirty now, they padded more easily.
She knelt, then sat ungracefully by his side and lifted his tunic without modesty. It'd been a night since. The days had somewhat blurred together. The scab looked freshly cleaned, she could smell the animal soap over all the things he had accumulated for the last few days, and the smell of his skin. He was a lot of things, and if she didn't shut herself down, her brain would want to taste and dissect and see what he could do for her.
No.
So she breathed his scent as a musk and blurred it. Took candlelights from that time, reflecting off his teeth and into her hair, and breathing her. Tethered her thoughts to these moments made his scent an emotional corporeal.
Something she could not deconstruct. She would not allow him to become ingredients to her.
And she clung onto the comfort there that was barely tangible. Something she felt that the more she squeezed upon it, the more it slipped out through her fingers like water.
So she held it carefully.
"Hm." Panyin pressed the stab lines revealed to her. The wound was pink and white with healing. Red where it went more deeply and suckered as it tried to close into itself. Her fingers pressed it hard, feeling hard for its woundage below the surface. Its density of healing. He made a sound of discontent. The only part of exposed flesh was the center of the damage, but she had seen the belt on the counter, and reached over with an odd practiced quickness as if she had always done this. She worked her fingers into the powder and spread it over the center of the cuts.
The table jarred once, scraping the floor as he controlled himself. She stood again to wash her hands.
She stayed on this side of him as she came back, and slowly, and set herself against the edge of the table, tip toeing to sit more comfortably.
Her head tilted, curious at him. Observing him. It was not often she would get to see him from somewhat above.
She had so many questions. Her mind raced for them. But she saw none of them, and nothing but the man in front of her right. Her hand lifted. She caught the movement, her fingers going to rest on her collarbones, pressing lightly into her neck. Had she not, her fingers would have touched his face again.
"...Wy'Ziot..." As if she were trying the name again. Her cheek leaned on her hand. "...How old are you...?" She tried to frame it in the minor curiosity of no import. Which it was, truly, but she was aware of the juvenility of the question.
The light scattered unevenly across his face, catching in the marks before it could cross softly across his features. It reflected hard over the dense flesh of scars. Cast darker shadows in the depresses left in his skin.
She saw those things momentarily. She heard him, over everything.
None of her senses pressed her, pulled her, watched her lack of sentry. She was finally given a moment without wondering what was going on behind her back. Who could be watching and listening. She was in a space where she could allow herself to truly see him, whatever he chose to show her.
Her eyes trained steadily on him. Relaxed and careful.
He spoke of himself, something just bereft of pain when she asked of him. And never looked at her when he did. When he did turn to her, it was when he was proud to speak of other things. Say any words that did not truly focus on himself. She was quiet, digesting, letting his answers sit for a time.
"May'ap djou shall meet 'im again soon."
Her gaze was allowed down, her mouth moving in somewhat of a smile. One that did slightly strike her eyes. She couldn't imagine soon. Unless her luck was such it would attract a benevolent violence she couldn't comprehend to strike them anon.
The fire crackled, eating its wood. The curtains were thick and drawn, triple layered and having posts to the wall where they could be pinned to block most light from showing to the outside.
They drank.
It was odd. She felt as if they were more distant when they spoke apart. No matter how much attention she was focusing on him.
She knew it should not have been odd. That human history, psychology, told them all that touch was essential to most intimacy. Yet she had touched many people and felt nothing. Had only utility and intermittent disgust. Bonded with none, and nobody.
No one that she wished to be bonded to.
So perhaps it was for that she fought the notion of touch as intimacy. Touch was a procedure of one thing to the next.
Yet it was not, here.
They drained the pot in draughts at a time, even as it was cold.
She stood, slowly after a point.
"How's your wound?"
Her chair moved out behind her, and she slowly came near, aware of what she was doing, but feeling apart from what was happening. She left her shoes in the other room and walked across the hut in bare feet. She preferred it this way but hardly ever found the leisure to do as so. Her skin padded across the floorboards, sticking with the sweat and mild humidity. Dry, and dirty now, they padded more easily.
She knelt, then sat ungracefully by his side and lifted his tunic without modesty. It'd been a night since. The days had somewhat blurred together. The scab looked freshly cleaned, she could smell the animal soap over all the things he had accumulated for the last few days, and the smell of his skin. He was a lot of things, and if she didn't shut herself down, her brain would want to taste and dissect and see what he could do for her.
No.
So she breathed his scent as a musk and blurred it. Took candlelights from that time, reflecting off his teeth and into her hair, and breathing her. Tethered her thoughts to these moments made his scent an emotional corporeal.
Something she could not deconstruct. She would not allow him to become ingredients to her.
And she clung onto the comfort there that was barely tangible. Something she felt that the more she squeezed upon it, the more it slipped out through her fingers like water.
So she held it carefully.
"Hm." Panyin pressed the stab lines revealed to her. The wound was pink and white with healing. Red where it went more deeply and suckered as it tried to close into itself. Her fingers pressed it hard, feeling hard for its woundage below the surface. Its density of healing. He made a sound of discontent. The only part of exposed flesh was the center of the damage, but she had seen the belt on the counter, and reached over with an odd practiced quickness as if she had always done this. She worked her fingers into the powder and spread it over the center of the cuts.
The table jarred once, scraping the floor as he controlled himself. She stood again to wash her hands.
She stayed on this side of him as she came back, and slowly, and set herself against the edge of the table, tip toeing to sit more comfortably.
Her head tilted, curious at him. Observing him. It was not often she would get to see him from somewhat above.
She had so many questions. Her mind raced for them. But she saw none of them, and nothing but the man in front of her right. Her hand lifted. She caught the movement, her fingers going to rest on her collarbones, pressing lightly into her neck. Had she not, her fingers would have touched his face again.
"...Wy'Ziot..." As if she were trying the name again. Her cheek leaned on her hand. "...How old are you...?" She tried to frame it in the minor curiosity of no import. Which it was, truly, but she was aware of the juvenility of the question.
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