neverbackdown
To live would be an awfully big adventure
The Walker Residence
- Edgbaston, Birmingham, England -
Thomas Walker
- Edgbaston, Birmingham, England -
Thomas Walker

His breath hitched violently as sobs shuddered through his body, raw and ragged “She c-can’t—” he choked, shaking his head against Robert’s shoulder. This isn’t happening. This isn’t happening. She's with Alfie and she's going to come through that door laughing any minute. She has too. This can't happen. Not her. His mother was always there. Even when he fucked up, even when he made things difficult, even when he felt like his mind was going a hundred miles an hour and no one could keep up—she always did. She got him. And now she was just gone? He couldn't, he wouldn't accept the new reality.
Then his father pulled back just enough to meet his gaze, hands firm on his shoulders, and Thomas felt like he was floating, like none of this was real. But then Robert spoke again, his voice heavy with grief, and the words she was so proud of you knocked the breath from Thomas’s lungs like a punch to the gut. He blinked rapidly, his mind latching onto every little thing—his father’s lip quivering, the weight of Richard’s silent grief, the way his own heartbeat pounded against his ribs, too fast, too much.
His hands found his hair, gripping tightly as if trying to physically hold himself together. “No,” he mumbled, shaking his head again. “No, no, no, I—I didn’t—I wasn’t—” His breathing stuttered, his thoughts colliding too fast to form a coherent sentence. His chest ached, his body was on fire with restless energy, and the overwhelming urge to run clawed at his mind. But where could he go? There was no escape from this. No matter how fast or far he ran this heartbreak was now apart of him for the rest of his life.
His fingers dug into his scalp, his voice barely above a whisper now. “I—I didn’t get to say goodbye…”
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