Kylo scoffed. Anyone knew that they did not share much love for him. And likewise, most of the people in the First Order annoyed him. A few officers didn’t actually annoy him, but he suspected they didn’t share the same sentiment.
He didn’t lose sleep at night over it though. His nightmares were created by something worse.
“I’m sure there are many reasons.” Kylo wondered how many lies Armitage and Reveille spread about him that contributed to that hate. “One that I am aware of is my volatile nature. Whenever someone would upset me due to sheer incompetence,” or merely delivering bad news, “I would lash out in my anger.”
Kylo was aware of it. He always had been. It hadn’t been something he was easily able to control.
“News of my anger was quick to spread around the First Order, and so many grew to fear me before they even laid eyes on me.” A fact that Kylo didn’t know how to handle. Was he proud of it? Or was it a reason for his internal conflict?
“Also many already had their own preconceived notions of Force users, grown up to hate anyone with the Force.”
~~
Valo snorted. “Well, we were on this swamp-infested planet...”
Oola, who had swiveled in her chair to better face Reveille, noticed the woman nodded off. She elbowed Valo, motioning to the sleeping woman.
At that point, they had entered hyperdrive. Valo turned in his chair to look at what Oola wanted to show him, and he grinned at the sight. It was almost good enough to take a picture of.
In fact…
He drew out his datapad, capturing the moment of when Reveille didn’t scowl or express any negative emotion. She almost looked calm. Serene. With her head in her knees, she emanated a child-like appearance that was almost endearing.
When she woke up, they would be nearing Bespin, making their way to the temporary Resistance base on Cloud City, hidden from First Order view thanks to the efforts of Lando Calrissian.
~~
Lavinia let out a bark of laughter. “Of course not. I may enjoy the stories, but I know the emotional pain from such tragedies is not worth it.” And yet, she allowed herself to grow attached to Armitage in ways she knew shouldn’t have.
But she did. The day her truth was revealed, when he had visited her in her quarters, she found warmth in his embrace. Had they were able to remain like that for any longer, she may have given into her desire to see what his lips tasted like.
Lavinia didn’t though, and she may have spared them both from further pain as a result. She hated how she still desired it, even as Armitage wish to see her dead in his anger.
She couldn’t quell her feelings for him. In that moment, words her mother had bitterly remarked to her many years ago echoed in her mind. Love is for children. Do you think your father and I loved each other when we married?
Love had brought her nothing but pain. For once, maybe her mother had a point.
He didn’t lose sleep at night over it though. His nightmares were created by something worse.
“I’m sure there are many reasons.” Kylo wondered how many lies Armitage and Reveille spread about him that contributed to that hate. “One that I am aware of is my volatile nature. Whenever someone would upset me due to sheer incompetence,” or merely delivering bad news, “I would lash out in my anger.”
Kylo was aware of it. He always had been. It hadn’t been something he was easily able to control.
“News of my anger was quick to spread around the First Order, and so many grew to fear me before they even laid eyes on me.” A fact that Kylo didn’t know how to handle. Was he proud of it? Or was it a reason for his internal conflict?
“Also many already had their own preconceived notions of Force users, grown up to hate anyone with the Force.”
~~
Valo snorted. “Well, we were on this swamp-infested planet...”
Oola, who had swiveled in her chair to better face Reveille, noticed the woman nodded off. She elbowed Valo, motioning to the sleeping woman.
At that point, they had entered hyperdrive. Valo turned in his chair to look at what Oola wanted to show him, and he grinned at the sight. It was almost good enough to take a picture of.
In fact…
He drew out his datapad, capturing the moment of when Reveille didn’t scowl or express any negative emotion. She almost looked calm. Serene. With her head in her knees, she emanated a child-like appearance that was almost endearing.
When she woke up, they would be nearing Bespin, making their way to the temporary Resistance base on Cloud City, hidden from First Order view thanks to the efforts of Lando Calrissian.
~~
Lavinia let out a bark of laughter. “Of course not. I may enjoy the stories, but I know the emotional pain from such tragedies is not worth it.” And yet, she allowed herself to grow attached to Armitage in ways she knew shouldn’t have.
But she did. The day her truth was revealed, when he had visited her in her quarters, she found warmth in his embrace. Had they were able to remain like that for any longer, she may have given into her desire to see what his lips tasted like.
Lavinia didn’t though, and she may have spared them both from further pain as a result. She hated how she still desired it, even as Armitage wish to see her dead in his anger.
She couldn’t quell her feelings for him. In that moment, words her mother had bitterly remarked to her many years ago echoed in her mind. Love is for children. Do you think your father and I loved each other when we married?
Love had brought her nothing but pain. For once, maybe her mother had a point.