Misty Gray
Pessimisty
Lorelei Costello's House
~ Dublin ~
Benjamin Reznik
~ Dublin ~
Benjamin Reznik
"I thought about bringing flowers or chocolates, but I decided against it. Gifts are aren't something I want to be associated with me apologising for stuff," he explained. "I am sorry, Lorelei," he assured her, letting out a sigh. "I know I shouldn't have shut you out, especially after you had to go through the same horror I did that night. I wish I had an explanation for why I acted the way I did. All I know is that Aidan was the second person in my life I'd found dead - the second parent or parent-figure. I've been thinking all kinds of things, like I must be cursed or that everyone I love is destined to end up like my mum and Aidan. I know that's not the case now, but last week I just... I couldn't get out of my own head. I'm sorry I wasn't here for you, Lorelei," he said. Although his eyes were filling with tears, he managed to fight them off this time.
Clasping his hands together on his lap, he took a moment to close his eyes and compose himself before he opened them again to continue speaking. "Right now, it feels like I'm stuck in limbo. The cops won't release Aidan's body yet and so we can't arrange the funeral. But... my dad came home a few days again," he said, now managing a smile as the positivity of Kurt's return was hard to supress. "Dad returning has been a big help and I guess has reminded me that not everything has to turn out bad, does it? I still have good things in my life and reasons to keep smiling," he said, sending Lorelei a warm smile now. "I should never have shut you out, not when you're the brightest light in my life."
Benjamin reached out to take Lorelei's hand and gave it a gentle squeeze. "I'm here now, if you still want me to be. What happened to Aidan and Conor was horrible, and you had to see that too. So, really, I should be asking are you okay? You can talk to me about it. We both understand what it was like and how it felt that night."
Bellz (Lorelei)