Realistic or Modern curdled ; a psych ward rp [OPEN]

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SKYE JENSEN
Location: Hallway -> Cafeteria
Mentions: TF81

Evan asked Skye why she was here. Her forehead still hurt, but she was beginning to calm down.
"Depression, anxiety, y'know." She shrugged like it wasn't a big deal. That's mostly what she told everyone. It was true, and while she longed to share the things that plagued her, the nightmares she had, she had been hurt too many times to trust anyone. You know, homeschool moms and sheltered friends and stuff. The worst source of unwanted judgement you could ever ask for. People who think that you can just try hard enough to get out of it. Skye tried her hardest. And she broke. That's why she was here now.
Evan sat down at a table and Skye went up to see what was to be eaten. She didn't feel confident enough to make anything much, so she grabbed some frosted flakes and was satisfied with that. She didn't have much of an appetite anyway.
Should she sit by herself? It looked like Evan was waiting for her. It would be rude to sit somewhere else. So she sat down across from him, and decided to get him talking to avoid being asked any questions, herself. He seemed nice, though. Not TOO scary.
"So," She began, stirring her cereal, "What about you? Why are you here?" She asked it, casually, like it was no big deal. It seemed the best way to do things, often.

 

[TF81]

Evan Parker
Location: Cafeteria
Mentions: Natural Flavour

"Well...uh...I'm here because of Depression & OCD. I have Social Anxiety Disorder, Depression & OCD. I was diagnosed at 4. You see, when I was 14, I had a band called Gemini. I was the lead guitarist & singer, Around that same time, I started dating my Childhood friend Emily. my band & I were in the middle of our first tour when I had gotten news that Emily got into a car crash with a drunk driver & died. So, I attempted suicide a third time. but was stopped by my bandmates & was admitted here." Evan explained, Trying to hold back the tears that were beginning to form in his eyes but failed miserably.

 

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SKYE JENSEN
Location: Cafeteria
Mentions: TF81

Skye was stunned by the complete honesty Evan had just expressed. Her jaw dropped, and then she remembered to be polite and put it back up where it belonged. Evan was crying. Skye wasn't sure if she had ever seen a teenaged boy cry before, but it triggered the back of her eyes to start stinging too. She managed to blink it off... barely. She found herself touching Evan's arm, in an attempt to be comforting.
"I... I've done that too." She rolled up her sleeve a little, revealing a long white line on her wrist. She then retracted her hand back into her sleeve for comfort. She blushed. "When I lose it... I lose it all the way. I won't let anyone stop me." She dropped her gaze, and stared at her hand, now shaking a bit.

 

[TF81]

Evan Parker
Location: Cafeteria
Mention: Natural Flavour

"My two previous attempts were because of my parents. I grew up an only child. A military brat, My mom was a soldier in the Iraq war. So we never really had a permanent home and because of that i never had friends really. What she saw were innocent people being killed & she had decided to apply for Conscientious Objector status which basically means "My beliefs on war have changed & I no longer want to fight or be a part of this war anymore." As a person waits to be approved, They go back to their base where their family stays & that person works Non-Combat jobs. As my mom was being taken back to the base. the helicopter was shot out of the sky & she died. After my dad found out. We moved to Champagne, Illinois & My dad was so sad by my mom's death that he started drinking. He died from Cirrhosis of the liver. I lived with My mom's parents in Chicago after my dad died & was so depressed by both of their deaths. I attempted suicide twice. the first time was overdosing on my meds, the second time was slicing my wrists & the third time was a handgun I stole from my grandpa that had a leg-holster. But the gun misfired." Evan explained while his hands shook from recalling those painful memories. He had constant nightmares about it because his OCD would guilt him into thinking he caused their deaths.

 

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SKYE JENSEN
Location: Cafeteria
Mentions: TF81

Skye was shaking. Suicide talk terrified her, but she was basically addicted to it. She responded, her voice emotionless and her eyes empty. But she shook, hard.
"Slitting my wrist was my first attempt. My second was hanging, last week." She moved her hair out of the way, revealing rope burns at the base of her skull. She chuckled, and commented, dryly, "Stupid parents have ears like rodents. They heard me kick the chair over." Shaking. Shaking. Her lip trembled too, but she kept her eyes cold and mean. "Next time I'll get it right."

 

[TF81]

Evan Parker
Location: Cafeteria
Mention: Natural Flavour

"Every night, I have nightmares of My mom, My dad, And My Girlfriend. I keep thinking about What i could've done to deserve losing them & how i could've saved them, All i have left of my mom & my girlfriend is a picture locket i keep hidden in my pocket. If i lose it or it gets confiscated, I break down because it's like forgetting they existed, And I don't want that to happen. In fact, I formed that band in honor of my mom & her beliefs. And i wanted to carry that torch in a way." Evan stated as he started to calm down.

 

[crossofjesus]

dan belle

"It's kinda boring, but thank you anyway." He smiles slightly, in reference to his name. His full name was Daniel, but he felt weird using that name to call himself by. So he just went with the shorter, and in his opinion, a nicer option. "Kyle is cool, I have a cousin with that name." He says, cutting pieces of bacon up into smaller pieces before eating them. At least the bacon wasn't so bad. Kyle then had brought up Dan being new him, which he chuckled to. "Is it that obvious?" He grinned.
"By the way, how long do I gotta wear this hospital grown made out of literal public school toilet paper? I feel like an old woman who smells like oil-cooked meat." He asked, mumbling the last bit. Part of him thought maybe his parents had to bring him some normal clothes, but if that were the case, wouldn't he have them by now?
Chimney Swift

/coded by allure/

 

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SKYE JENSEN
Location: Cafeteria
Mentions: TF81

Skye was shaking, still. Not so obvious, maybe. Her heart raced. She nodded to whatever Evan had said... she hadn't been listening. She had been imagining Evan's suicide attempts. Her wrists craved a knife. She repeated her last statement, again, probably looking for attention. She used to try and stop herself, but hey. Everyone else had given up on her, and so had she.
"Next time I'll get it right." Her eyes were stinging again. Stupid tears.

 

[TF81]

Evan Parker
Location: Cafeteria
Mention: Natural Flavour

"Heh, nice joke. Even if you try. the staff will stop you. Trust me, I've tried. They either sedate you with medication or manually restrain you." Evan admitted to Skye. It was true. He knew from personal experience, He tried a few weeks after he arrived. With tying his bed sheets together & around his neck. He was restrained & Sedated for a while.

 

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SKYE JENSEN
Location: Cafeteria
Mentions: TF81

Skye's eyes went wide. "Really? What did you do? Why didn't it work?" A freaky amount of interest coming from a little girl. Well, this was an insane asylum, was it not? A crazy people house? Skye didn't care if she sounded like a weirdo anymore.

 

[TF81]

Evan Parker
Location: Cafeteria
Mention: Natural Flavour

"I'm not telling, I might be suicidal but i won't let someone else die because of me." Evan told her with a bit of an angry tone. "Just trust me, it won't work. So don't even try." Evan said while massaging his forehead with his fingers. He sensed her reason for asking was connected to her repeated statement.

 

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SKYE JENSEN
Location: Cafeteria
Mentions: TF81

Sky sighed. "Okay... well.. then... you don't die either." She blushed.

 

[TF81]

Evan Parker
Location: Cafeteria
Mention: Natural Flavour

"If I can win this war in my mind, then i won't. What i do to distract myself from my thoughts is read & I write lyrics in my journal. I'd play guitar if they allowed me to have one, What about you. What do you like to do Skye?" Evan asked genuinely.

 

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SKYE JENSEN
Location: Cafeteria
Mentions: TF81

Skye thought about that for a moment. "I draw, sometimes. I play piano sometimes, too. I guess I can sing. I just haven't done very much of that lately."

 

[TF81]

Evan Parker
Location: Cafeteria
Mention: Natural Flavour

"My mom played the piano, She was really skilled at it too. I was taught guitar by an Army Officer while on a base in Germany. He also gave me my first guitar. An old Kalamazoo Archtop guitar that his dad's Grandfather, a soldier in World War 2 had given to him. He taught me how to play songs by people like Folk musicians like Bob Dylan & Woody Guthrie, And songs from old Delta blues musicians like Robert Johnson & Son House. How did you start with Piano & Singing Skye?" Evan asked with excitement in his voice. He was happy to find someone who not only understood him on a Mental level. But was also a Musician as well.

 

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SKYE JENSEN
Location: Cafeteria
Mentions: TF81

Skye furrowed her brow, thinking.
"Well, my mom taught me some stuff... I can read music to sing... not to play piano though. There's sort of a disconnect there. But I can chord. My mom said I just always had an ear for music."

 

[TF81]

Evan Parker
Location: Cafeteria
Mention: Natural Flavour

Evan just sat & listened with deep interest before he replied "Did your mom play Piano or Sing? Did she play any records in your house?" Evan asked while nostalgic memories flooded his mind. It was memories like those that calmed him during the panic that arose from the gory images that invaded his mind created by his OCD. And now that he had shared experiences with Skye, He felt calmer than ever.

 

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SKYE JENSEN
Location: Cafeteria
Mentions: TF81

Skye nodded, her mind far, far away. "Yeah... she lived the same dreams I had planned on, for a bit. She was a theatre arts student at the same school I wanted to go to, someday. She sang in choirs, played piano.... I grew up around it, I suppose."

 

[TF81]

Evan Parker
Location: Cafeteria
Mention: Natural Flavour

Skye's stories of her mother's journey into Theatre & Music made Evan recall some of his own stories of his family's interactions with music & the bands he first played in before forming his current band. "My mom was a Christian, She wasn't bigoted or anything but she sang in choirs growing up & I would sing along with her to the Classic rock albums she would play whenever she was home. When I lived with my mom's parents, My uncle gave me my first electric guitar. A 1978 3-Tone Sunburst Fender Mustang. I Joined a few bands. One, in particular, was this Midwestern Emo three-piece Band called Black Bird. We played a few shows & recorded one album before splitting up. we had a love of Indie Rock, Instrumental rock & Dark Ambient music, And we fused them together to make our own style."

 

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SKYE JENSEN
Location: Cafeteria
Mentions: TF81

Skye smiled, her eyes alight at a new idea. "Black Bird sounds AMAZING..... damn.... are there any instruments at Westhoven? You said they won't let you have a guitar.... what about a piano?"

 

[TF81]

Evan Parker
Location: Cafeteria
Mention: Natural Flavour

Evan thought about it for a few minutes, He never decided to ask if the ward did have any musical instruments. He thought maybe the ward had a piano. It seemed like a safe thing to use. Since it didn't have any string on it like a guitar did. "I....don't really know, to be honest. If there is i haven't seen or heard it."

 

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SKYE JENSEN
Location: Cafeteria
Mentions: TF81

"Hmm.." She rocked back and forth quietly. Mostly everyone had left the cafeteria by now. "Thanks for helping me out, Evan... it means a lot."

 

[TF81]

Evan Parker
Location: Cafeteria
Mention: Natural Flavour

Evan smiled at Skye's comment, even though he may be quiet & aloof. He was always there for someone who wanted or needed to talk to someone. "Anytime, Skye. If you ever need or want to talk to someone about anything. whether it be about Anxiety or Depression. just know that You're not alone if you don't want to be. I know that probably doesn't mean much coming from a person like me who wound up here because of Suicide."

 

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SKYE JENSEN
Location: Cafeteria ->
Mentions: TF81

Skye blushed, smiling. "Thankyou.." she said, getting up and pushing her chair in. "See ya around!" Then she left the cafeteria, and stood in the hallway. Now.. which way back to my room? That was okay. She had been her for a week, it was way past time to start exploring. She picked a direction and headed in it, chin up. Everything will be okay.

 

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