Arnou Sylvain, The Wolf in the West
Agonos Isles, Atychía
GROUP 1 ( Corn Orc Vandal Goonfire Tool SilverFlight )
Arnou regarded Annik's full entrance with naught but a sideward glance as he maintained his position by the window. For a brief moment, he could feel the clean, salty sting of the sea air against his face and lungs; it was a blade that could cut through the ever-present stink of the island. It was a lie, however, a crutch that he leaned on from time to time when things got a little too desperate for him here. Its effects were temporary and the holes it slashed were quickly stitched over by some new, sickening sight that he hadn't seen before. By now, it was less the shock of a new discovery and more of the veteran weight of life on the island that tore at his insides. Relief was a task that would leave him sitting in this window sill at all times only to catch a tease of it.
He began to feel once more like himself--light returning to his eyes even if only as embers to a diminishing flame.
First, Annik's speech roused him from his internal thoughts. It was good, valuable information, but not something he hadn't heard before; it was just from the mouths of people he neither trust nor count on the soundness of mind from. The Woman's discoveries brought a perk of interest to his brow and certainly drew attention, yet he couldn't bring himself to feel anything other than deeper despair at the full extent of the Conclaves preparedness. From his military perspective, walls were still walls and they were but a collection of the desperate and dying even if they could stoke the flame in the crowds. Arnou drew apart his lips to interrupt, but his silence was harden when The Northern Woman declared a story of hope, of salvation, of a Hero; She desired to be a Hero. The Exiled Lord could almost feel the bile begin to pool in the back of his mouth--not at her hopes, but the thoughts that rushed to his head soon after.
He could envision himself among throngs of starved hopefuls charging at the gates of the Conclave-- Arnou's sword would be one of the few as many people were either bare-fisted or wielded farm tools. The wild beat of his heart as he felt the shock of the impact from his feet on the stone street shoot up his spine, a defiant cry tearing through hollowed houses, and then the arrows would start raining from a place they would never see. Worse even... spells. Balls of fire would engulf entire families, bolts of lightning would streak through homes leaving ash in their wake. It would be a massacre. Blood would spill down the streets like a harsh summers rain and the sheer quantity of gore would plug the gutters. Arnou would drown in it.
All of that, for the sake of being a hero.
Arnou's eyes were wide with disbelief as she finished her declaration, but he was practically floored when Sheraga actively ignored both of their gut feelings and joined in with a cry that could levy an army. Their determination filled the room with a light--realistically cast by The Paladin's white flames, he hadn't seen on this island in his years of residence. It was freeing, hopeful... foolish. The Bitter Man shrunk back toward the window as they resolved to fight the ultimate battle for the sake of the island. Pfft, yeah, that's what the Nurities thought when they came, and now they were little more than a wounded animal hiding away in their little sect house god-knows-where, a battle-hardened company of crusaders brought low by plague and starving beggars. Well, he was only their guide and he'd already provided his ignored opinion so, "Well, do what you will--I won't stop you. If you need anything, you're welcome to stay here for now and I'll guide you to whatever else you need--as promised."
It was more diplomatic to not outright object. After all, whether he died with them soon, a month down the line to that Swashbuckler's gang, or years from now to some sickness--he would die. These days, that's one of the few things he dreamed about, that moment when he would take his final breath. It was a fear-inducing thought but it brought him some solace. There was something alluring to him about that final release and freedom.
Then, Dunan came with the questions as he presented his sleeping roll to him. The Wolf's Head scrambled his heart with a simple flattery but also a deep woe that shone through his eyes, "Uh, thank you, it's a symbol from my homeland."
Little did he know how smoothly that brought them into the Man's next line of questioning. Arnou paused as he was asked his reasons, and the bewilderment was clear on his face. There may have been a long time ago where a younger, hopeful knight paced these floors in a torrent of self-talk as he imagined how he would explain his circumstances to whomever asked. Yet, nobody ever had. Everyone on this island was facing their own problems and had no sympathy to spare for another, "I... was banished here by my father to die. Blame was never really a part of the question, but... it was more of a mistake than anything else. I was a leader, I made a tactical mistake, and people paid for it. That's all."
That was all he felt like sharing, at least. Arnou cast his glance downward to avoid eye-contact as the rotting scent of swamp invaded his nose once more. There he was again, drowning. Drowning in those dark swamps and all he could hear were the screams of people who trusted him. Arnou, in truth, wasn't disgusted by Annik or Sheraga or anyone who had tried to improve the island's situation before. He was scared. He had given up. He was ready to die.
Arnou was jealous of the resolve they had that he lacked. They had gotten back up on their feet or merely stumbled, and he had laid in the dirt for years.
"You're all going to die tonight. If you think you're going to change something, you're fools."
Then, without warning, Dunan fled the scene. Confusion flooded Arnou's body as he wondered whether he had driven him off with his negativity and something about him fleeing just after the first time he had opened up stung him.