Fandom A Rose And A Thorn (Shadow x Amy)

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"I don't care who did it... I just want it to not have happened..." Amy began to sob, "But if I tell people... they'll be all... Amy, you have to... tell people... and then everybody will look at me... and say 'you got what you wanted with Sonic didn't you' and say I'm crazy and it'll all be in the papers and the courts and I just wanna forget the way he stopped me from screaming and the way... the way he laughed when you walked away from the door..."

Shadow realised then, that when he had called to check on Amy - Sonic had already started.

 

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"What?! He was already doing this to you when I left?!" Shadow's hands tightened into fists as Gus anger boiled more vigorously, "And do you think people will believe that? If Sonic raped you, then do you think others will look down on you?! No! They'll curse him to fiery depths and it'll scorn him because everyone hates him for what he did to you! There are more people in this world that care about you than you realize, Amy....they all want to help you."

 

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"Shadow, it's SONIC!" Amy shouted, "Who do you think they'll believe?! The stupid whore who's spent her life chasing him and being in love who threw her filthy body away on her first date with Sonic's greatest rival in an obvious attempt to make him jealous that clearly worked... and now she's just saying he raped her because he doesn't want to date her..."

Oh man, that really did sound like the kind of story somebody would pull if they wanted to defend themselves in court. And worse, it sounded feasible.

"Sonic has lots of friends too..." Amy covered her bruised face, "I don't feel angry... or sad... or scared... I don't know if I feel anything..."

 

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Shadow released the tension in his fists and he moved over to sit on the couch next to Amy, looking at the floor. "Damn him......" He muttered, "I should've checked earlier before he arrived.....or I should stayed at the door. Damn it! I'm sorry Amy....."

 

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"It's not your fault... it's mine..." Amy stared at her feet, hugging her knees and still shaking, "He just wanted me to admit I loved him again... if I had just said that, he wouldn't have had to start... touching me... and then... twice... and then he said he'd hurt you, so I told him he could..." she moistened her lips and swallowed, "It's all my fault... I came... I must have enjoyed it..."

 

[RedtheRoyalGuard]

"Who do you think is better? The mind or the body?" Shadow asked Amy, "Because if your mind said no even though your body said yes, you couldn't have enjoyed it.....Amy....look in yourself. Do you want to just stay here and mope about the what-happened....or do you want to look danger in the eye and stand up to it?"

 

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Amy struggled to look him in the eyes for even a few seconds. Then she hid her face in his chest fur, "I just want to forget..."

She'd been broken. The hammering heroine of Mobius had been broken by the very hedgehog whom she'd once loved and trusted. She couldn't do it; she'd been hurt so badly. A quick pep talk was not going to make all that pain and fear go away. It was cruel to pretend it would. She couldn't do it.

Not alone, anyway.

"Shadow, I'm so sorry... please don't leave me, I don't love him..." she sniffed, "I... I love you..."

Those were three words he'd badly wanted to hear. But spoken here, knowing what she'd just been through, they were like poison.

 

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Shadow wrapped his arms around Amy. "I...I love you, too Amy. I will never leave you...." He said to the pink hedgehog and pulled her closer.

 

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Amy flinched at his touch. That was how badly she had been hurt - she could barely stand physical contact right now. Everywhere he looked there was a bruise, violet and angry, there was no doubt that if he were to looked under her clothes he would find far more, and worse. She felt ashamed for something that there was only one person to be blamed for, and afraid of being comforted.

She managed to put her head on his chest, and her shaking hands on his shoulders. But she didn't close her eyes, because she didn't feel safe. And even though the tears welled up, they didn't run down her cheeks like they should. She was stiff and cold in his arms.

And if she could never let him kiss her again, it would be all Sonic's fault.

 

[RedtheRoyalGuard]

"Amy...I.....why don't you stay with me today? I don't like the feeling you have in your apartment...and I want to take that away from you. No tricks, no gimmicks...I want to be there for you." Shadow suggested.

 

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Amy hesitated. She didn't feel safe anywhere. She wasn't sure she ever would again. It had happened in her very own apartment, in her very own bedroom, which should be the safest place she could possibly be. She loved Shadow, yes, she did, but after Sonic had raped her so brutally, the very fact that he was male made her skin crawl. But she couldn't bear to be alone when she didn't know who would come through the door next... or what else she might do to try and get clean.

She nodded against him, whimpering slightly.

 

[RedtheRoyalGuard]

"I promise....that you'll be safe there. Sonic doesn't know where I live and I've kept it that way for the longest while. He won't find you again." Shadow told Amy and slowly stood up, holding her still as he did.

 

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"Blaze will be mad at you. She hasn't made up her mind yet," Amy pointed out as she walked with him. She was limping, trying to walk without her thighs chafing, "I... I'm not worth my friends fighting over me..."

She gave a choke of pain, stumbling. Shadow might not be able to see it, but despite the bleeding having stopped, Amy's hips, thighs and breasts were heavily bruised, and would only get worse over the next few hours. She could hardly even walk - the hours she'd spent 'cleaning' was just an indicator of how she'd been numbed briefly. It was an ugly thought, that the 'Fastest Thing Alive' had not held back on her.

 

[RedtheRoyalGuard]

"Amy? Do you want to just rest for now and get those bruises healed up? You know I want to help you get better." Shadow said to Amy, holding her back gently.

 

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"They won't heal," Amy told him dully. She had a point. It might be weeks before just the bruises were gone, "Do what you like."

If Shadow had been there, those words were a grim echo of something she'd said to Sonic.

 

[RedtheRoyalGuard]

Shadow sighed and nodded. "Hold onto me and I'll teleport us to my place." He said quietly.

 

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She did so. There was a flash of blue, the chill of the endless void, and then... they were in Shadow's apartment, presumably provided by GUN, whom he worked for. They would certainly be able to keep his location classified.

 

[RedtheRoyalGuard]

Shadow kept his arm around Amy and glanced over at her. "Here we are.....my home....I guess." He shrugged, "Not much but....GUN helps a lot."

 

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"Okay..."

It was rather bland. Certainly not as well decorated as Amy's apartment; it was a place for Shadow to sleep in between missions, not actually live in. There was a photograph of Maria, and Gerald, and a desktop computer. The other basics.

Amy looked around briefly. Then, right there in the living room, the pink hedgehog took all of her clothes off without a word and stood there naked, looking through Shadow vacantly.

Oh, that was not good. That could not in any way be a good thing. Amy actually thought that the only reason Shadow had brought her here was to have sex with her. Or just as bad, that this was the payment for him keeping her safe. And she wasn't even fighting. She was just falling in line. It was a thought more nauseating than the bright purple bruises on her chest that formed the shape of handprints.

Thanks to Sonic, in her eyes, he was now the bad guy. Because he was a guy.

"You don't need to get angry," she told him sadly, "I won't fight."

 

[RedtheRoyalGuard]

Shadow turned to Amy and shook his head. "Put your clothes back on....We're not doing that here. I just want to talk with you.....make you feel better. I know you feel confused and.....maybe not anything but we're not going to do that here. That I promise." He said to her.

 

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"No, no, it's okay, it's okay, I don't mind," Amy told him, a helpless look in her eyes.

Why wasn't he doing anything? Was she doing it wrong? He'd brought her here, and now he didn't want...

"Oh Chaos, I..." she dropped to her knees, her arms wrapped around herself, covering her face in humiliation, "I am so... so messed up right now... I'm sorry, Shadow... I'm sorry... I just thought... I thought..." She picked up her t-shirt and pulled it on, and then her knickers, and just sat there, and if she felt anything at all, it was a sense of being entirely lost.

 

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Shadow walked over to Amy and hugged her gently. "It's alright, Amy. It was just a misunderstanding. I wanted to bring you....to emotions again. I wanted to talk with you....mono e mono." He said.

 

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Amy flinched and rubbed her eyes, but smiled just a little bit, "That's the worst misuse of that phrase I've ever heard," she told Shadow, "We're not fighting, and we're certainly not on equal footing..." She didn't stand up, but let Shadow kneel next to her on the faded carpet. Her only reaction to Shadow''s hug was to start shivering violently.

"Even when I feel, I can't feel anything good," she told him, looking down, "I've lived in that apartment for six years. If I can't feel safe there, where can I feel safe? I've known Sonic since I was 8, and he was 10, when he saved my life. If I can't trust him, who can I trust? You... you're going to say there's lots of people I can trust, but I can't... All of my friends are Sonic's friends... Do you really think they'd want to believe me? Whoever they believed, they'd be so hurt... Can you imagine what Tails would say? Or even Knuckles?"

She continued to kneel there, staring at the floor.

"Sonic took everything we did and made it dirty... I can't scrub it out of my head, the way he kept acting as if I had a choice... He thought I enjoyed it... It would hurt so much less if I just agreed..."

 

[RedtheRoyalGuard]

"You've got Blaze, Silver, that Jackal, me...we are your friends...and we will listen to you in the way Sonic does not. You can trust the four of us.. Sonic will most likely keep everything to himself and maybe get nervous when people ask him about you. No one cannot undo what he did but it was his choice and they consequences.....I feel like a mom saying that last part." Shadow responded, letting go of Amy.

 

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"Sonic won't get nervous," Amy replied, "He'd only do that if he thinks he's done something wrong... He thinks I love him again... He's probably telling everybody right now, while I cower here..." Amy shuddered, "It only adds weight to his story, after all... When he left he was proud..."

She shivered again and hugged herself, resting her forehead against Shadow's chest, "I've read about rape. Nobody believes victims unless they already have a grudge against the rapist... because it's such a dreadful thing to do. I have to come up with the proof that I didn't want Sonic to have sex with me, and that he knew that..." she swallowed, "They'll need samples from you, too, Shadow... because you were the first person to have sex with me. And then you'll end up in the dock, asked about your opinion of Sonic and your relationship with him and me and how you walked by earlier and heard nothing and questions about your mental state..."

Yes. His testimony would be just as likely used against Amy as for her.

"I should have gone to the police straight away, but I stayed home and cleaned everything up and then you came and now it's too late... He found out about us and got mad and that's all..."

Just a minute... how had Sonic found out about them anyway?