A Feather of Change

[Life.]

All Matthias could do at this point was just cry with her. Cry all the Lost memories he could've had. Cry away all the memories that are faded and unreachable. Cry for their broken bond. Never had he felt such pain yet happiness in his life. His arms wanted to stay wrapped around her. He wanted to keep embracing her perfect body that fit nicely into his. Matthias's wings even wrapped around her. He was in a bubble of bliss and peace. He knew though that it was not going to be the same, but that he won't give up hope to mend their bond. Matthias breathed her in to make sure it was reality.


She's here. With me. The girl I love.


He felt the moment pass slightly when Lexington, or Lexi, pulled a bit back to examine her wrist. His eyes looked towards the wrist. What he saw surprised him. The markings around her wrist were similar to those on his body. "When did you get these?" he asked as he gently grabbed her tiny wrist.

 

[Dark_Psycho]

Lexi stopped staring at him her delicate wrists in his hands."when you left burning sensation happened more and more frequently over the years. "She said. She was relaxed around him. She wiped her tears away with her other hand.She wasn't sure how there life would Change bow he was b ackm it felt so odd after all tgis time. She made him out to be dead, for her own personal gain. But he technically was. She gulped and sighed. "Honestly its nothing. "She said and went to pull her wrist back slowly.


Irish Ice Queen

 

[Life.]

Matthias knew it was not just nothing. The markings on the wrist were similar to those written on an angel's body. They were actually the same pattern as his on his chest. He saw that she didn't want to press on the subject and he didn't want to ruin the moment so he let her wrist go but not her. He gave a contented sigh and just grinned. But then he knew something had to be done first before he could do anything with her. He released her with much effort and took a few steps back.


Then he kneeled down to one knee and looked up at Lexi. He tucked back in his wings to get rid of any distractions. He then cleared his throat and said, "Lexington, I know I left suddenly on our 16th birthday without even saying goodbye or without a reason. I burden myself with your pain and mine together. I, Matthias, understand that my leaving caused the rift in our friendship. I wish the mend that rift and to hopefully win your hear- I mean trust back. Lexi, will you please forgive me?"


He lifted one hand up, pleading with not just with his words but his eyes.

 

[Dark_Psycho]

( sorry sorry was working )


Lexi looked up at him and sighed. She put her arms around him comforted at him just being there. When he pulled away she almost cryed. She had been hurt, betrayed, and lied to by him.yet she still couldn't get over him.She held her tounge and bit her bottom lip. He knelt, and she looked confused and almost stepped back. When he asked her to forgive him. She stopped and bit her bottom lip, all hardness and cold had melted away this was her Matt. He also had hurt her and she should be stronger, but she couldn't fight it."yes."She finally managed. She smiled down at him. It was beyond amazing to have him back.


Irish Ice Queen

 

[Life.]

He flashed her an award-worthy smile. A tear escaped his eye. "Oh look at that a tear," he teased as he examined the tear, "How very manly of me." He stood back up once again.


And once he was up he just was with her. He traced every detail of her. Her luminous brown eyes. Her wavy black hair that was always running wild like the mane of a lion. The sparkle in her eyes. Her distinct cheekbones and dimples. Her smooth skin. He just couldn't get enough of her.


Matthias gently placed a hand behind her head and moved her forehead against his, so that he can take more in of her. Just inches away were their mouths. He knew that it would be rude to kiss her right away but he just wanted to be closer to her. His green eyes looked into her brown eyes. His smile still on his face.


"I promise to never leave you again. And if you ever want to find me, just look down to your necklace and think of me," he whispered as he picked up the necklace that she wore on her neck grazing her skin a bit. "If you think of me hard enough an image of me, wherever I am, will pop up into the jewel," he explained. His eyes were still locked into hers though hoping to recapture the kindled fire they once had.

 

[Dark_Psycho]

Lexi smiles and laughed at his joke. He was still himself. When he got back up her eye's went over him. He had become toned and really amazing looking. She was beyond attracted to him. She didn't really think of him as just a friend any more.


Lexi shook it of and was smiling as he pulled her to him. She rested her forehead on his. There lips were close, and her breath came in a short gasp. She watched him with her brown eyes. She smiled when he told her how she could contact him." I may not let you leave my side for a bit."She said and laughed. She sighed and but one hand on the back of his head and the other on his."cheek I will hold you yo never leaving me again."She said. She bit her lip and finally just gave in. She brushed her lips on his lightly.


Irish Ice Queen

 

[Life.]

Matthias should've expected this but he was still cut off guard. He never thought he would see the day where his lifelong crush has finally kissed him.


She's kissing me.


He too gave in and brought his lips closer to her. At that moment Matthias understood what they meant when they said fireworks and sparks flying. His wings once again unfurled from their tucked position.


He put his soul into that kiss, his pain, his confusion, and his burden. He wanted to share the same things with her. His hands moved down to the bottom of her back pulling her closer to him, his lips still busy reconnecting with Lexi, his one true love.

 

[Dark_Psycho]

Lexi didn't care they were in the middle of a damn cemetery, she needed him.She pulled herself closer and closed her eye's.


Lexi fell him suprised at her kissing him. She smiled and crushed her lips on his. They became more urgent. She just wanted him around her. Lexi finally sighed and pulled her lips from his. She kissed him gently once the twice. She sighed and opened her eye's.at that moment she knew she loved him and always would."I need to go home. I am on probation with the mother.actually maybe seeing you might make her ease up a bit. I mean you are kinda the reason I am on probation."She says and joked with him. She sighed."you have to hide those."She said. She didn't want to move away from him.


Irish Ice Queen

 

[Life.]

Every kiss he returned he could feel a piece of his misery fly off. So much happiness was inside of him he forgot what it felt to be happy. He felt so warm and light. Once Lexi pulled away he could feel himself inside of him crying out for more. But he kept quiet on the outside knowing they had to get going. As much as he wanted to stay here, Lexi had places to be.


"Probation? Oh you've turned into such a naughty girl," Matthias teased back. He was still holding on to her. His green eyes dancing with pure bliss.


When Lexi suggested that he sees her mom he once again felt guilt. "I've missed your mom too, she was basically my mom since my parents never really took care of me. Sure let's go see your mom but first I want to get her a present," Matthias said. He tucked back his wings as tightly as he could.

 

[Dark_Psycho]

Lexi gave him one of her looks to say really.She scrunched up her nose and rolled her eye's. When he talked about her probation.


" Hey you caused this, so no smart ass comments. I mean I guess I shouldn't have been so attached and childish, but I was so sue me."She says. She hit Matt in the arm playfully. She sighed and pulled away from him.


"Trust me, you be a god send in it's self for her."She said and stopped she laughed at her own joke. She wasn't ready to go home. She sighed and pulled out of his grip.


"Alright lets go Fallen boy."She says. She grabbed her bag and pack of cigarettes. She took one out and lit up. It was a bad habit, she could not break.She offered him one.Not sure of everything that had changed with him.


Irish Ice Queen

 

[Life.]

Matthias just gave a small laugh when she hit him playfully but the bliss in his eyes disappeared.


I know Lexi. It's all my fault.


A hidden frown grew inside of him. Of course what did he expect of Lexi once he returned after leaving her. She wasn't going to be the same. Inside he gave a sigh but on the outside he was still smiling.


Once she completely pulled away from him his smile on the outside fell. He let her lead. Matthias watched with disapproving eyes as Lexi pulled out a cigarette. When she turned to offer him one he shook his head, "Thanks for the offer but I'm good."


The last thing he wanted to see was Lexi smoking. He felt that if he denied it maybe she would reconsider smoking but he knew it wasn't going to instantaneously happen.


"So what do you think your mom would like?" Matthias asked. He walked close to her brushing his arm against hers to at least be sure this was still reality.

 

[Dark_Psycho]

Lexi lit up and shrugged. She exhaled and held his hand with her none smoking hand."hmm flowers. "She said as she walked for her car. She finished her cigarette before she reached it. she put it out and flicked the bud into the gravel.She opened her door and then his. She threw stuff in the back.


"sorry about the mess I have to clean out my car."She says and opened her Windows for fresh air.She sighed and turned on the car as she grabbed her sunglasses. She waited in him to join her in the car. She wasn't sure if he would.


( sorry short have to work again in a hour.)


Irish Ice Queen

 

[Life.]

((That's fine ))


Matthias didn't like to see Lexi smoking but it's not he can stop her. He watched as she flicked the bud away. They stopped in front of her car. She climbed into the car excusing her mess.


Matthias eyed the car warily. He had grown used to the freedom of his wings. He hesitated to enter the car since he knew he would be basically caged in. Slowly he approached the passenger side opening the door. He stuck one foot in then followed it along with the rest of his body. His wings shuffled in with his body trying to get comfortable. But however angle he tried to shuffle in, his wings were pinned down and uncomfortable.


He looked at Lexi and said, "Um...excuse my wings but I cannot ride in the vehicle...Perhaps I can just fly overhead and follow you?"

 

[Dark_Psycho]

Lexi shrugged.


"Up to you. I do have to go straight home so meet me there."She says and smiled at him. She let him get out. She backed out and drove out of the grave yard. She drove home blasting music and weaving in and out of traffic. once home she sighed turning off her car. She got out and decided to wait on him and clean out her car. She gathered the trash and papers. She put the trash in a bag and the papers in her back pack. She sprayed her car and clised it up. It was clean enough. She grabbed another cigarette and smoked it as she waited on him, it was a bad habit, she needed to stop.


Irish Ice Queen

 

[Life.]

Matthias waited until Lexi drove down the road before he flew up into the sky. "Flowers, eh? That shouldn't be a problem," Matthias spoke to himself. He flew over to city and into the woods located in the back. There he knew he would find some of the most beautiful flowers to exist, wildflowers. Matthias circled around seeking for a nice patch of flowers. Then by the lake shore did he find a plentiful amount of flowers. He swooped down, landing gently. As he tucked his wings in, he walked over to the patches and began plucking the flowers from the ground, making sure to take the roots with him so that she can plant them. Once Matthias gathered enough to make a bouquet he zoomed the skies to get back to Lexi as quick as possible.

 

[Dark_Psycho]

Lexi looked up. She had throne her garbage out and smoked three cigarettes. She put the bud out on her last when he finally landed.


"Well there you are.also cover those."She said and smiled pointing at his wings. When he covered them, She grabbed her keys.She walked to her door and unlocked it.Her mother was waiting with a mad look.


"where in the hell have you been? You were supposed to be home 30 mins ago. Your teachers called and said you ditched class. What am I going to do with you. You were at the cemetery again weren't you? You know that is just hurting you."She says. She was concerned for her daughter. Lexi rolled her eye's. "Mom chill, the other classes didn't have much going on and yes I was at the graveyard, but guess who I ran into." Lexi said and moved aside to show Matt. Her mom looked suprised.


"Oh Matt your back."She says with a slight tone. She wasn't happy how would he screw with her daughter this time and how long before he left again. Lexi was barely standing on solid ground as it was. Her mother forced a smile"your back, fir how long dear didn't even know you were back in town."lexi's mother said.


Irish Ice Queen

 

[Life.]

Matthias was nervous at first to visit Lexi's mom but once he saw her it all vanished. He clenched onto the flowers and tucked in his wings tighter. Although he knew that she was angry at him he didn't care. He walked up to her and placed the bouquet down on the counter and wrapped his arms around her. He grew some more over the two years so now instead of being shorter than her he was two heads higher. He hugged her with all the love he missed from her.


"I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry," Matthias quietly repeated. "I have missed you," he whispered. He could feel tears coming into his eyes. But he didn't care, the woman who practically raised him was here.

 

[Dark_Psycho]

She hugged him and pulled back."want something to eat?When did you get back? How long are you here?"she asked she had put in a smile and took the flowers putting them in a vase.She loved the boy but was worried about what this do to her daughter.


"I am happy to see you and all but I dont think its good you came around unless your staying. "She said. She watched him as she grabbed water for them.


Irish Ice Queen

 

[Life.]

"Sure I'll love anything you have. I've missed your food by the way," Matthias said. He took a seat at one of the bar chairs in the kitchen so as to not sit far away from Ms. Cunningham. "And I am staying here from now on. I promised Lexi. And if I ever go anywhere then I'll like to take Lexi with me, that is if you are okay with it?" Matthias asked. And he felt a bit hurt once Ms. Cunningham said that it would be best for him not to be here unless he stayed. Matthias wished at the moment why he left in the first place but all he knew was that is had something to do with his wings.

 

[Dark_Psycho]

Lexis nother started cooking as she listened to him and nods."okay well as long as your staying your welcome in this housemate how ever Lexi is on probation and cant go anywhere other then home and school, till she proves she can do better m maybe you can help her."Lexi's mother says. She gave Lexi a look. Lexi shot one back.She was playing with her pack."for god sakes Lexi put those out side abd stop smoking its going to kill you "she says" no don't go out there and smoke one either missy."She says. Lexi sighed and took it outside. She however started one up any way.Her nother sighed. "Its been a trial on her with out you here."She said to Matthais.


Irish Ice Queen

 

[Life.]

Matthias sighed feeling the burden inside of him growing heavier. He watched as Lexi walked outside and against her mom's will began smoking. A tear escaped from one of his eyes.


This is all your fault.


This is all your fault.


This is all your fault.


This is all your fault.


He was imagining tiny elvish angels dancing around him and chanting that it was all his fault. Matthias placed his head on his hands and wanted to scream but instead he just rested there waiting for Lexi to come back and for the food to be done. His wings wanted to unfurl badly but he knew he had to resist. He sighed once again taking in his burden and pain and keeping on a strong demeanor.

 

[Dark_Psycho]

Lexi's mother walked over."dont blame your self. She has had two years. Trust me she will be okay especially bow that your back will just look forward. Now eat up. I will go make up a room for you to stay."Lexi's mother says. She hugged him."glad your back."She says and walked upstairs. Lexi walked back in after a bit and sat at the table she picked at her food. She wasn't to hungry. She drank her water."where did my mom go?"she asks


Irish Ice Queen

 

[Life.]

Matthias felt a bit comforted from Ms. Concord's words. He looked down at the food and began chowing down. A fee minutes into his eating session Lexi joins him.


"Your mom? Oh she went to go prepare a room for me," Matthias answered not looking up from the food as it continued entering his mouth. Soon after he was done he looked up and noticed Lexi not eating. He raised an eyebrow and asked, "Not hungry Lexi?" Concern grew inside of him.


Is she also anorexic?! Oh dear how much damage has my leaving dealt on the love of my life?!

 

[Dark_Psycho]

Lexi shook her head."my mom knows I dont eat stuff like that anymore. "She said. She went to the kitchen made a salad with fresh fruit and vegetables. She laid grilled chicken on top and put on low fat dressing. She walked back and sat down. The plate held a small amount of salad. She ate slowly, and looked at him.She cleared her throat."so my mom is letting you stay. Thats awesome. "She said. Lexi had finished half her plate and went to box up the rest. She didn't eat much any more, she had list her appetite since she started smoking.


Her mom walks down and sighed. "Salad again at least Lexi please."She said.Lexi nos s I did its in the fridge for tomorrow. Her mother nods and gave her small look. "Okay go shower. "She said. Lexi shrugged and went up to shower off the day. Her mother sat with Matthias it is good your back. I been sob lost what to do with her. She eats little to nothing. Works out a lot and smokes like a fiend. Maybe having you back she will get back to herself. "Lexi's mother said.


Irish Ice Queen

 

[Life.]

Matthias watched in dismay as Lexi began eating salads. What happened to the girl who used to eat more ice cream sundaes than me? He did not say anything to Lexi as she pitifully ate her food then was dismissed to shower.


Matthias heard how glad Lexi's mom was that he was here but all he can think at the moment was.


Am I too late? Can she be saved? Does she want to be saved?


Matthias finished up his food and even helped himself to Lexi's serving. Afterwards he cleaned up the dishes and walked over to his room but not without saying to Ms. Concord, "Thank you for the food and shelter. I will be sure to take care of your daughter." As soon as he entered his makeshift room he took off his top and unfurled his wings. He stretched his wings from their stiffness.


Matthias looked out through his window and out into the world, lost in thought about his guilt and Lexi.