Nokumi

ITS MY BIRTHDAY!!! I’m 20!!!!

Hello helloooo ^^

Mother stressing me out. She asked me if I got the money she sent me yet NO I didn't YOU JUST SENT IT LIKE FREELZ "how's your social security going?" STILL A STRUGGLE CUZ YPU FREAKEN LOST IT 2 YEARS AGO NOT TO MENTION ALL MY IMPORTANT DOCUMENTS LIKE MY BIRTH CERTIFICATE AND MY W2 WHICH I GAVE NO PERMISSION TO FILL IT OUT. "Hmmmm you need that card" WELL NO SHIT SHERLOCK IM TRYING BUT YOU MADE MY LIFE A FREAKEN MESS AND HARD AND I CANT GET A SOCIAL SECURITY CARD WITHOUT AN ID NO BIRTH CERTIFICATE WITHOUT AN ID AND I CANT GET AN ID WITHOUT THOSE THINGS. SO HMMMMMM "i gave you your birth certifcate" ITS NOT A CERTIFIED COPY!!! "your dad should have the real one" He doesnt!!! WHY WOULD HE HAVE IT WHEN I DIDNT LIVE WITH HIM 90% OF MY LIFE!!! "Are you saying I have it" Yes!! YES ITS EXACTLY WHAT IM SAYING EITHER THAT OR YOU FREAKING LOST IT!!! *directs me to a website* "here use this to get an original copy and you and your dad need to try harder to get the copy" *me and my dad who literally went to a bank in person to get a copy certified "can I see an ID please??"* FINE ILL GIVE THIS SITE A FUCKING TRY BUT KNOWING MY LUCK IT WONT WORK *CHECKS SITE* I NEED A FUCKIMG ID CARD "have your dad do it... he can get it for you" IM A FUCKING ADULT NOW AND IM PRETTY SURE THEIR STILL GONNA ASK FOR ID BUT OK!! *ME AND MY DAD TRY FOR HALF AN HOUR TO GET BIRTH CERTIFICATE"ID OR PASSPORT PLEASE OR YOU CAN USE THESE OTHER DOCUMENTS" WHICH I LITERALLY DONT HAVE ANY OF THEM* WELP I TRIED!!!!


is how I wanted to conversation to go but the person in me was nice and kind about it and played into my mom's emotions just to keep her happy but everything I said she said was true. I FUCKING HATE MY LIFE MAN *POPS A ANXIETY PILL*

ITS 10 MINUTES TILL 5 AM AND I HAVENT SLEPT AT ALL!!!! YOU KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS!?


IM HIGH ON THE NIGHT SKY RUNNING A MILE HIGH WITH BILL NYE TELLING ME IM GONNA DIE WITH ZERO SLEEP TONIGHT!!!

*Mic drop* .... oh SHIT that Mic expensive *picks it up and checks it*

My dad just got back from the hospital. He arrived home with new medications for the symptoms of tingling in his arms and the pressure in his chest. Turns out he was have such severe acid reflex it was causing him to have heart burn and other symptoms.

I'm happy my dad is okay and healthy. This goes to show don't take your loved ones for granted. Because one day they may not have much longer. And then it'll be too late.

Tell your family you love them Every one!

My dad went to the hospital last night at around midnight. We didn’t get home till 3:30 AM went to bed around 4 AM… woke up at 10 today cuz my dad woke me up saying he was having symptoms of a heart attack again and he was gonna go to the hospital. But they keep saying nothings wrong. When something is clearly wrong. So he’s at the hospital right now and I was sleeping.

Woke up from a night terror panicking completely because I dreamt my dad went into cardiac arrest. But the doctors and nurses kept saying he’s fine and they couldn’t find anything. And I kept telling them his heart literally stopped but when I turned to my dad we weren’t in the hospital anymore but his grave and my abusive mom was standing there with a grin dragging me away…

hello

Scrambling to get a doctor to prescribe my medicine before I wind up in another loony bin- got dropped a while back and I managed to get some meds for a while after not having them for 2 months and now I’m about to not have em again. Cuz this month is the last month before I get canceled completely…

I’m gonna be a tired- paranoid- scared- forgetful- crying- violent- moody- dangerous- and crazy boy ones I’m off them because I have medicine for

Schizophrenia
Bipolar
Smiling Depression
Short term memory loss
Insomnia
Night terrors
Extreme anxiety
PTSD

And a few others I’m sure I’m forgetting until I look at the millions of bottles I have.

Hello brother.

Wow… You look scary…

You have something on your face.

I lost a entire rpnation family... Depression is kicking in. I may avoid talking to certain people. But if they contact me first I'll respond. I haven't been this sad since my dog died... Worst part is I know I won't be missed...

Here's a poem I made... For those who struggle

Pain is short but life is for ever.
Yet pain can scar deeper yet deeper
The scarlet red of blood that drips from the results
But they go unseen by those who turn a blind eye
It sometimes seems hopeless as you lay awake at night
Your silent screams and your unheard Cry's.
Doubts filling the void of your mind.
You feel perhaps its better you say nothing
That you joke about your troubles and laugh at your pain
But in truth it is something
And will take your life one day
So I urge you don't hold it in
Say something like I ones did
Before it takes your life like it did to my friend
Your void of life will make others suffer
If you ask for help it will get better

Heya.

*Looks around*
The domain of a dear friend… It’s beautiful..

HAPPY HALLOWEEN EVERYONE!!

*does the skele dance as music plays in background and starts to sing*

Spooky, scary skeletons
Send shivers down your spine
Shrieking skulls will shock your soul
Seal your doom tonight!

*salutes and falls backwards*

Anyone else notice things are slow lately? Like NO ONE is responding despite your usual 12 pm notifications when you wake up and 14 other notifications in the bell icon? Just me?

you hate me *jumps off 8 story building*

World's collide and hearts get broken,
I want to live like I know I'm dying,
Take up my cross, not be afraid

[Chorus:]
Is it true what they say, that words are weapons?
And if it is, then everybody best stop steppin',
Cause I got ten in my pocket that'll bend ya locket,
I'm tired of all these rockers sayin' come with me,
Wait, it's just about to break, its more than I can take,
Everything's about to change,
I feel it in my veins, its not going away,
Everything's about to change.

[Solo:]
It creeps in like a thief in the night,
Without a sign, without a warning,
But we are ready and prepared to fight,
Raise up your swords, don't be afraid,

[Chorus:]
Is it true what they say, that words are weapons?
And if it is, then everybody best stop steppin',
Cause I got ten in my pocket that'll bend ya locket,
I'm tired of all these rockers sayin' come with me,
Wait, it's just about to break, its more than I can take,
Everything's about to change,
I feel it in my veins, its not going away,
Everything's about to change.

[Solo:]
This is a warning, like it or not,
I break down, like a record spinning,
Gotta get up,
So back off,
This is a warning, like it or not,
I'm tired of listenin', I'm warning you, don't try to get up,

[Bridge:]
There's a war going on inside of me tonight,
(Don't be afraid) [x2]
There's a war going on inside of me tonight.

[Outro:]
Wait, it's just about to break, its more than I can take,
Everything's about to change,
I feel it in my veins, its not going away,
Everything's about to change,
It's just about to break, its more than I can take,
Everything's about to change,
I feel it in my veins, its not going away,
Everything's about to change.

My dog died last night... In his sleep... I'm not feeling up to rp... Despite knowing this time was near and despite the fact if he didn't fall asleep permanently by the end of the week we were going to put him down... Its still hard...it hurts my heart. I will be absent the rest of the day..... My apology for the unconvince

Changing name by adding a second character into my user name! Don't worry! I'm keeping surgess! I can never replace surgess....

Next was a "trust fall" they sat me on a bed and told me that the goggled I had on had a cap to make it pitch black and blind me but the cameras would still watch my eyes. They put the cap on and I could not see. They made me keep looking to the left while they told me to just drop backwards. I did which was horrifying and I got dizzi. Only to hafto do it again but looking to the right! Then came the final and worst test!!! They had me lay down and pump water into my right ear with high pressure. The room spun out of controle even though I couldn't see anything and it was pitch black with the cap on I could still feel everything spin!! I was crying at this point! When they did this they were telling me to talk while everything was spinning and I just choked on words and couldn't think of what to say I just stuttered! Then they did the same with the other ear after the spinning stopped so I was yet again sent spiraling into outer space from dizziness! Again couldn't speak! And crying! Finally the test was over! My dad had to help walk me to the car because of how sick and dizzi and Nausea's I felt! Then it lasted that way until I got home which is a hour drive! I was still unstable! So I notified I was back on my profile as you can see. Then rested for several hours! So ya that's how that went.

Here's what happened during the test! They first attached pad stickers with wires attached to a computer onto my for head, face, neck and chest then had me move my eyes and lift my head while laying down. Super hard by the way I got a total neck work out! Next they strapped these weird goggles to my head that had cameras attached to it and had me fallow objects with my eyes. The next thing was with those same goggles but they had me watch one object while they grabbed my head and jolted it in quick but short movements. I felt like they were gonna snap my neck it was weird. And I got dizzi. Next they put me in this dome room with a spin chair they call of the rotary chair. And strapped me down with tons of straps! Two going across my chest in a X shape a third going across my waist. On going over my feet and another holding my head down with new goggles that also had cameras watching my eyes. And a strap on each arm. I felt like some lab rat prisoner! They first had me in pitch black fallowing a red dot with my eyes and after I was in even more pitch black but the chair was spinning in all sorts of directions!!! I got super sick and dizzi! All the while I was spinning they were trying to get me to talk which was super hard! I couldn't focus!