Lizy
Lobsters will play no significant role in my life
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mood :
ready to get lit (a healthy amount of lit though)location :
his apartmentoutfit :
Holt
;; Julian
Julian glanced away, letting out a soft huff of a laugh as Naomi talked about it taking two for a friendship to work. He knew her heart was in the right place, but he knew the friend he had in mind was already putting in way more effort than him. Blair was the best friend he'd ever had, he was putting in the effort, it was Julian that needed to step up and be there.
But, as much as Julian would like to believe things could change, deep down he knew it was unlikely. He was flimsy, unreliable, and likely to flee when things got hard. Maybe he'd try for a little bit, but once it sunk in that actually pulling his weight in the relationship meant hard work, things would go back to how they'd always been.
His mind didn't linger on that though, instead it immediately hooked on to Naomi saying she believed in him. He was unsure if it was true, or if it was just something she was saying to be polite. Either way, the thought that it might be genuine made his heart flutter. Not many believed in him. Pitied? Maybe. But genuine belief in him being able to do something better with himself was rare.
Julian shifted in his seat as she spoke, unable to hide the smile that spread across his face. He was glad she was here too. Even if his history with her friend Ivy complicated things, he was determined to make it a non issue. At this point, he regretted getting involved with Ivy, he didn't realize that some random fling would cause annoyances for this long. But, what was done was done, he just had to get past it.
He felt a pang of disappointment at the mention of them not being involved, at least not in that way. He knew that Naomi wanted nothing more than a friend, and he'd finally felt he'd accepted that, at least to a certain degree, but he couldn't help but feel a bit bad about it. Still, she'd chosen to spend her evening here, and that's what mattered to him.
"I'm glad you came," he let out a huff of a laugh. He wanted to say something about Ivy, but chose to just brush past it. He feared dismissing her as a quick fling that meant nothing would only make things worse, since Naomi was her best friend. "Hey, I'm no stranger to drunk, stupid decisions. I can't promise anything, but I'll try my best to keep you out of too much trouble."
Julian shot her a grin before taking a sip of his drink. He realized how much was left and was pleasantly surprised. Even after taking one shot, he would have usually finished a drink quicker than how long this one was taking. But, talking to Naomi had him a little distracted, and right now getting buzzed was not his sole focus.
But, as much as Julian would like to believe things could change, deep down he knew it was unlikely. He was flimsy, unreliable, and likely to flee when things got hard. Maybe he'd try for a little bit, but once it sunk in that actually pulling his weight in the relationship meant hard work, things would go back to how they'd always been.
His mind didn't linger on that though, instead it immediately hooked on to Naomi saying she believed in him. He was unsure if it was true, or if it was just something she was saying to be polite. Either way, the thought that it might be genuine made his heart flutter. Not many believed in him. Pitied? Maybe. But genuine belief in him being able to do something better with himself was rare.
Julian shifted in his seat as she spoke, unable to hide the smile that spread across his face. He was glad she was here too. Even if his history with her friend Ivy complicated things, he was determined to make it a non issue. At this point, he regretted getting involved with Ivy, he didn't realize that some random fling would cause annoyances for this long. But, what was done was done, he just had to get past it.
He felt a pang of disappointment at the mention of them not being involved, at least not in that way. He knew that Naomi wanted nothing more than a friend, and he'd finally felt he'd accepted that, at least to a certain degree, but he couldn't help but feel a bit bad about it. Still, she'd chosen to spend her evening here, and that's what mattered to him.
"I'm glad you came," he let out a huff of a laugh. He wanted to say something about Ivy, but chose to just brush past it. He feared dismissing her as a quick fling that meant nothing would only make things worse, since Naomi was her best friend. "Hey, I'm no stranger to drunk, stupid decisions. I can't promise anything, but I'll try my best to keep you out of too much trouble."
Julian shot her a grin before taking a sip of his drink. He realized how much was left and was pleasantly surprised. Even after taking one shot, he would have usually finished a drink quicker than how long this one was taking. But, talking to Naomi had him a little distracted, and right now getting buzzed was not his sole focus.
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