Midnight Peace
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We all go a little mad sometimes. Norman Bates
Who in the world am I? Ah, that's the great puzzle. Lewis Carroll
Name: Alice Langdon
Age: 18
Orientation: Pansexual
Siblings:
John ~ Oldest [brother] †
Ian ~ Second Oldest [brother]
Piper ~ Third Oldest [sister]
Tessa ~ Fifth Oldest [sister]
Marnie ~ Six Oldest [sister]
Sam ~ Youngest of them all [sister]
Dark as midnight sun, smoke as black as charcoal fills into our fragile lungs Cause when our demons come, dancing in the shadows, to a game that can't be won. Halsey
Alice is a beautiful young woman standing at about 5’ 2” in height and has a lithe frame. She has soft, delicate facial features with expressive olive green eyes framed with thick dark eyelashes, a small slender nose, and arched eyebrows on her heart-shaped face. Alice has light brown skin and dark brown hair that is usually long, but up until recently; she decided to get it cut about chin length.
Alice likes to wear more casual clothing, often preferring to wear t-shirts, stylish jackets, button down shirts, jeans, the occasional floral summer dresses, sweaters, etc. She takes pride in her appearance, and while she does not particularly like the clothes she is forced to wear provided by the institution, she makes sure they are always clean.
What are they in for?:
Borderline Personality Disorder is a pattern of marked impulsivity and instability of affects, interpersonal relationships, and self image. The pattern is present by early adulthood and occurs across a variety of situations and contexts. Other symptoms may include intense fears of abandonment and intense anger and irritability, the reason for which others have difficulty understanding. People with BPD often engage in idealization and devaluation of others, alternating between high positive regard and great disappointment.” Alice's Diagnosis
Little Alice fell d o w n the hole, bumped her head and bruised her soul Lewis Carroll
Alice was born to Marie and Nikolai on September 30th, 1998 in Blackwater, Missouri; she is the fourth oldest of seven siblings. Alice was born and raised into a strict Christian household. There was not a time where she was not seeing religious crosses lined the halls and each room in the modest house, bibles sitting on every available table in sight, Gospel music playing on constant everyday, going to Church and participating in the Sunday School lessons or even singing in the choir. Alice found her life a bore and was very much so disinterested in church after she realized that she didn’t just like boys and held no regard to gender or gender identity. Alice was so full of love and life and only wanted love, approval, and acceptance returned. She wanted this more especially from her parents but when they found out her sexual orientation by walking in on her kissing a girl at the back of the church , they began punishing her.
Filthy, filthy, filthy! The devil has his hold on your soul. We must make you clean again. I should have known that a demon had laid roots in my daughter. It's going to be alright, darling . Mama's going to save you.Marie Langdon to Alice
Alice was not the only one who suffered these punishments as many times over did her siblings get caught in mother's religious babble and tantrums. Their father was the one who would meet up with the children after their punishment and soothe them saying, " we only do this because we love you." The intense physical and emotional abuse they had all endured made Alice strived to be the perfect daughter that her parents wanted, although it caused her to be unhappy with herself majority of the time. She always was seeking their approval, but more often then not, she got little to no acknowledgment for it. The harsh years of abuse eventually took it's toll on her psyche and she became increasingly bitter and resented her parents.
Filling a tub of blessed water and placing their children underneath until the evil was released Punishment
One day, she suffered a mental breakdown at the age of 15. During one of her parents prayer session, all the siblings were gathered in the living room. Alice lingered back into the kitchen and slipped a knife under her sleeve. She walked into the living room and saw her parents and siblings kneeling on the floor facing the cross on the wall; their eyes were closed and hands were clasped together. It felt like a light switched had been flicked at the level of anger that surged forth, she rushed over to her parents and began stabbing her mother in the throat repeatedly.
Her father, startled from his prayer by a loud squelch and screams of agony, turned to Alice and knocked her to the ground with a loud thud. The knife was still stuck in the mother's neck as she profusely bled out onto the floor, small shrieks of pain still erupting from her dying body. Nikolai pulled the knife out of Marie and began charging for Alice, who was still trying to recover from the sharp blow. The father began pulling Alice leg till she was closer within his reach and began to hunch over her body, placing the knife on her throat. A long shallow incision was placed on her neck and before he got the chance to push the knife in deeper, he was struck with harsh painful jabs. Nikolai hand relaxed around the knife as he tried to move away from the pain.
"Alice, move!" she heard her oldest brother, John, yell. She did so without any hesitation as she watched her brother mercilessly stab their father to death. The horrid stench of iron and the bright crimson red that was slowly becoming darker as it dried painted the room.
Not a few moments later, the authorities showed up after being called by concerned neighborhoods due to the screaming and loud banging. John protected Alice by taking the fall for the entire situation and received a first-degree murder charge. Ian ended up stepping up to take care of the remainder of the family, but with John gone and the images of their parents brutally murdered, it laid heavily in all their minds. Ian blamed Alice for her part in getting John sentenced and committing and act of murder.
Every day for two years she would visit John and talk to him about everything and anything for the limited time that had together. She would often apologize to John for getting him into this mess, but he would always interrupt her.
I would do this for anyone I care about. Don't ever think I regret doing this for you. John to Alice on the incident
When he could, he would call the house to check up on everyone and give Ian pointers as well as make playful jabs on his new status as care taker. They wrote letters back in forth until one day the letters just stopped, the phone calls were non existent, and he started rejecting all forms of contact from the family. It was three weeks later and they received news that John committed suicide by hanging himself in his cell. The family completely crumbled to pieces at the news.
Ian: You are so impulsive. You could not have waited a few more years? No, because you never think things through. We would have all made it out, we could have. Look... Look at what you have done to this family! Piper is trying to put up a brave front and Tessa and Marnie can barely talk because they are so traumatized. Sam has nightmares because of what happened. Hell... we all do! What happened to John is your fault. We can't be around you anymore without... thinking about that day and what it did. Here is some money and just please go. Don't come back. Ian to Alice on John's suicide
At the age of 17, she was living in cars she stole or in cheap motels that smelled of mold and decay. For an entire year, she survived by picking pockets and selling drugs like marijuana and cocaine to stay afloat. Alice used to suffer from insomnia and went to doctors asking for sleeping pills. When they would not allow her to get the pills because she needed to take a psych test, she flew off the handle and began shouting obscenities at them. She was held in the hospital for three days in which they conducted psych tests that proved she had Borderline Personality Disorder. Alice was then transported shortly to McCallister's Institution for the Young and Mentally Disturbed.
Where is my mind? Pixies
Personality:
Alice is a young woman who caught the short end of the stick. The years of physical/emotional abuse and the feeling of no one ever loving her makes her bitter. Her personality is described to be sadistic, careless, paranoid, reckless, impulsive, short-tempered, aggressive, volatile, unpredictable, slightly unreasonable, manipulative, jealous, obsessive and competitive. She has little regard towards other people feelings and only holds a couple people in the highest regards. This can prove to be harmful for those she deems in a positive light, because when they fail her, she becomes very angry and feels betrayed.
She has a very protective streak and is fiercely aggressive if anyone tries to harm them. It mostly comes from this selfish need to protect what is hers because it is hers. She often avoids contact with others until it is needed and suits her best interests. She is highly intelligent, always thinking at least three steps ahead (although most of the time she has to thrown those plans out the window), ill- mannered and arrogant.
Despite these negative traits, she shows remorse for those she has hurt and killed in her life, especially towards her family who want nothing to do with her. She has a deep seeded fear of dying and being alone. Alice wears these masks to hide her own inner turmoil. She has a more vulnerable side that rarely shows up. She hates when children are being mistreated or hurt and often times steps in to save them. She has a severe lack in trust of people, so whomever she does decide to trust is lucky.
If you show weakness to your enemies, then you deserve everything that's coming to you. Alice Langdon
