FloatingAroundSpace
Three Thousand Club
Hardeep Passi
Orien shuffled closer to the door, though he kept his eyes on Hardeep, who didn't seem stable enough to potentially carry on a conversation with the woman without stabbing something.
When Hardeep's mother had died, he'd gone numb, curled up in his room and stared at the floor for hours on end, waiting for something to happen. For the sky to open up and drown Nuru. For the ground to crack and swallow up the city. For his father to storm in, raging against the gods themselves, for them to descend from the heavens and give him an explanation.
None of these things happened.
Instead, the impossible did.
Hardeep had heard his father crying at one point, hunched over his mother's shrine in their room, his shoulders shaking. It had felt like a dream, an illusion, a trick. His father did not cry. His mother did not die.
He'd crawled over to Balin that night, curled up next to him and cried with him, staring at the small painting of the woman that had been his mother, with her soft curls and her kind smile and a glimmer in her eye that had faded too soon, too early to be fair.
This time, he was alone to mourn his father.
No matter how much the slaves grieved, no matter how much they intended to kill the guilty, they would never understand what it was like to be raised by Balin, to be the only thing that linked them to the house, to be the one that was supposed to guide him. Hardeep was supposed to look after Balin, care for him when he got older, show him the grandchildren he was supposed to create and make sure his back didn't ache so much from flying. Balin was supposed to tend to Malliah until the dragon grew to be an adult, to watch her find a mate and care for eggs that would birth dragons for the rest of the family.
But he was dead instead, gone within a moment, a moment that Hardeep had not borne witness to.
He was not sure which of his parent's deaths was worse; the one he saw, or the one he did not.
He hadn't even said goodbye when Balin left that morning.
"Perhaps it would do you good to see him?" Orien asked quietly from where he stood, somehow outside the bathhouse.
Hardeep lowered his sword and turned towards his old friend.
He hadn't noticed that his face had gotten wet and when Orien took his arm carefully and began leading him away, he did not consider anything but the thought that his father was gone.
"Sir," a guard said timidly, when he had walked only a few feet away.
"What?" Hardeep said, exhausted by his outburst earlier.
"What do we do with the newcomer?"
He was silent.
"Take her to the cell. Get someone to take care of her wounds. Leave her there."
"Yes sir," the guard responded.
He walked the rest of the way to his home silently, with Orien holding his elbow carefully.
"Someone shot him," the slave said slowly, "in the side of the head. The white robes confirmed it. They believe that it was not the slave because--"
"I don't care what they believe," Hardeep said, his voice rough. "I just want to see him."
Orien fell silent and led him slowly through the house, up the steps, and to the room. Hardeep finally turned to glance at the other slave and notice the blood.
"You are hurt," he murmured, touching Orien's cheek and turning his face slightly to examine the oozing wounds.
"The slaves are grieving," was his response.
"As you should be, too. Leave me. Go get your wounds tended to."
"Thank you, sir."
"Don't thank me. Not for what has happened."
There was dead silence for a moment between the two of them.
There was a lot of things that had happened between them.
Orien bowed and left a moment later and Hardeep stared at the blood on his back and wondered how he was supposed to run a household that was already tearing itself to shreds. Pushing the thought out of his mind, he stepped into his father's chambers and approached the bed where he lay. The white robed were standing on the side, their hands folded and clasped and incense was burning to mask the scent of the dead. He walked slowly towards the white sheet that hid his father's corpse and lifted it up to examine his face.
He looked like he could be sleeping.
Hardeep allowed himself to cry then, to sob in great heaving bouts and let his knees give out from underneath him.
His father was dead.
When Hardeep's mother had died, he'd gone numb, curled up in his room and stared at the floor for hours on end, waiting for something to happen. For the sky to open up and drown Nuru. For the ground to crack and swallow up the city. For his father to storm in, raging against the gods themselves, for them to descend from the heavens and give him an explanation.
None of these things happened.
Instead, the impossible did.
Hardeep had heard his father crying at one point, hunched over his mother's shrine in their room, his shoulders shaking. It had felt like a dream, an illusion, a trick. His father did not cry. His mother did not die.
He'd crawled over to Balin that night, curled up next to him and cried with him, staring at the small painting of the woman that had been his mother, with her soft curls and her kind smile and a glimmer in her eye that had faded too soon, too early to be fair.
This time, he was alone to mourn his father.
No matter how much the slaves grieved, no matter how much they intended to kill the guilty, they would never understand what it was like to be raised by Balin, to be the only thing that linked them to the house, to be the one that was supposed to guide him. Hardeep was supposed to look after Balin, care for him when he got older, show him the grandchildren he was supposed to create and make sure his back didn't ache so much from flying. Balin was supposed to tend to Malliah until the dragon grew to be an adult, to watch her find a mate and care for eggs that would birth dragons for the rest of the family.
But he was dead instead, gone within a moment, a moment that Hardeep had not borne witness to.
He was not sure which of his parent's deaths was worse; the one he saw, or the one he did not.
He hadn't even said goodbye when Balin left that morning.
"Perhaps it would do you good to see him?" Orien asked quietly from where he stood, somehow outside the bathhouse.
Hardeep lowered his sword and turned towards his old friend.
He hadn't noticed that his face had gotten wet and when Orien took his arm carefully and began leading him away, he did not consider anything but the thought that his father was gone.
"Sir," a guard said timidly, when he had walked only a few feet away.
"What?" Hardeep said, exhausted by his outburst earlier.
"What do we do with the newcomer?"
He was silent.
"Take her to the cell. Get someone to take care of her wounds. Leave her there."
"Yes sir," the guard responded.
He walked the rest of the way to his home silently, with Orien holding his elbow carefully.
"Someone shot him," the slave said slowly, "in the side of the head. The white robes confirmed it. They believe that it was not the slave because--"
"I don't care what they believe," Hardeep said, his voice rough. "I just want to see him."
Orien fell silent and led him slowly through the house, up the steps, and to the room. Hardeep finally turned to glance at the other slave and notice the blood.
"You are hurt," he murmured, touching Orien's cheek and turning his face slightly to examine the oozing wounds.
"The slaves are grieving," was his response.
"As you should be, too. Leave me. Go get your wounds tended to."
"Thank you, sir."
"Don't thank me. Not for what has happened."
There was dead silence for a moment between the two of them.
There was a lot of things that had happened between them.
Orien bowed and left a moment later and Hardeep stared at the blood on his back and wondered how he was supposed to run a household that was already tearing itself to shreds. Pushing the thought out of his mind, he stepped into his father's chambers and approached the bed where he lay. The white robed were standing on the side, their hands folded and clasped and incense was burning to mask the scent of the dead. He walked slowly towards the white sheet that hid his father's corpse and lifted it up to examine his face.
He looked like he could be sleeping.
Hardeep allowed himself to cry then, to sob in great heaving bouts and let his knees give out from underneath him.
His father was dead.