Faith Eliza Cord
Four Thousand Club
Sheena is paying no attention to Caroline and May at all anymore. It is Miyako and Hood outside that she is worried about, them that she is watching with growing alarm. Miyako is gone...but had she really called the police? They would come here and see the destroyed building, all the people missing, and Hood...they had to get out, and they had to get out NOW.
Abruptly she begins to struggle to make her way to the front of the van, somewhat roughly jostling May and Caroline in her attempt to scramble to the front seat without bothering to apologize. Starting up the van again, she yells out the window, "Hood, if you're coming, get in the car NOW!!!"
Turning to face Lewis, she glares, her tone still very hostile, and leaving no room for argument as she states, "There is no room for you in this car. Get out. Now. You might be able to get a head start or hide before the police come, you might not. But whatever ends up happening to you out there, I promise you'll like it better than whatever would happen if you come with us."
The look on Lewis's face told her he believed her. Opening the passenger door immediately, he hesitated, taking one last look at Caroline as he stepped out of the van.
"Sweetheart...I love you so much, I'm so sorry. I hope you'll understand one day...maybe one day, when you're older, we can-" he started, but Sheena, unable to take any more from him, nearly screamed, "GET OUT OF THE VAN AND DON'T TALK TO HER AGAIN!"
Lewis wastes no time in obeying, backing as far from Hood and the van as possible, but even as he backs away he is still staring towards Caroline's placement in the car with tears in his eyes.
Caroline is not sobbing quite as out of control as she had been before with May talking to her, and she attempts to listen to her, snuffling, though tears are still heavy and seem not about to stop any time soon. She shakes her head, trying to reason out her thoughts even as she's still crying.
"No...no, I'm...he made me Caroline...I can't...I can't be anyone else. It's my name...I can't...I don't know how to be anyone else. I don't want...I just want....I don't know. I want a new life...but that's...that's my name."
She knows she is making little sense speaking of it, but in her mind, she can follow this reasoning. She does not want to assign herself a new identity; Caroline and the name has become a large piece of who she is. She wants a new life, a new way of living, but she cannot erase her past or how she sees herself...now, she is Caroline. She is not born Caroline...but she has been made Caroline, and there is no going back to Maddie or Madeline. There is no going back to the way her life had been, either with her birth parents or with Lewis...she could only change her life in a new way, make it something else entirely.
She can change the details of her life, but somehow, she cannot change her name. It is too late for that.
"I don't know what to do...where am I supposed to go? I can't go home, I can't...I wanted to be with him. I wanted to be with him," she whispers, burying her face in May's shoulder. "I wanted to be with him."
Sheena is still not listening to any of the conversation as she yells out the window to Hood with increasing urgency. "GET IN THE CAR, we have to go NOW!"
Abruptly she begins to struggle to make her way to the front of the van, somewhat roughly jostling May and Caroline in her attempt to scramble to the front seat without bothering to apologize. Starting up the van again, she yells out the window, "Hood, if you're coming, get in the car NOW!!!"
Turning to face Lewis, she glares, her tone still very hostile, and leaving no room for argument as she states, "There is no room for you in this car. Get out. Now. You might be able to get a head start or hide before the police come, you might not. But whatever ends up happening to you out there, I promise you'll like it better than whatever would happen if you come with us."
The look on Lewis's face told her he believed her. Opening the passenger door immediately, he hesitated, taking one last look at Caroline as he stepped out of the van.
"Sweetheart...I love you so much, I'm so sorry. I hope you'll understand one day...maybe one day, when you're older, we can-" he started, but Sheena, unable to take any more from him, nearly screamed, "GET OUT OF THE VAN AND DON'T TALK TO HER AGAIN!"
Lewis wastes no time in obeying, backing as far from Hood and the van as possible, but even as he backs away he is still staring towards Caroline's placement in the car with tears in his eyes.
Caroline is not sobbing quite as out of control as she had been before with May talking to her, and she attempts to listen to her, snuffling, though tears are still heavy and seem not about to stop any time soon. She shakes her head, trying to reason out her thoughts even as she's still crying.
"No...no, I'm...he made me Caroline...I can't...I can't be anyone else. It's my name...I can't...I don't know how to be anyone else. I don't want...I just want....I don't know. I want a new life...but that's...that's my name."
She knows she is making little sense speaking of it, but in her mind, she can follow this reasoning. She does not want to assign herself a new identity; Caroline and the name has become a large piece of who she is. She wants a new life, a new way of living, but she cannot erase her past or how she sees herself...now, she is Caroline. She is not born Caroline...but she has been made Caroline, and there is no going back to Maddie or Madeline. There is no going back to the way her life had been, either with her birth parents or with Lewis...she could only change her life in a new way, make it something else entirely.
She can change the details of her life, but somehow, she cannot change her name. It is too late for that.
"I don't know what to do...where am I supposed to go? I can't go home, I can't...I wanted to be with him. I wanted to be with him," she whispers, burying her face in May's shoulder. "I wanted to be with him."
Sheena is still not listening to any of the conversation as she yells out the window to Hood with increasing urgency. "GET IN THE CAR, we have to go NOW!"