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It didn't take long for kids to sense weakness in Mei. She'd been at this place for less than a week, trying to keep to herself. But there were too many kids to have her own room, and the house was always noisy and cluttered. There was also no accommodating her, there were too many children to worry about to give her any specialized attention. They bathed, clothed and fed the kids like clockwork, and Mei was dissociating her way through a lot of it. The other kids had begun to notice her more. When they would talk to her, she would just stare at them, or do a small gesture: A nod, shrug or a shake of the head. She did have a little notebook, she used to to communicate with the adults. The one place that she could be in solitude she'd found in the house was in a little fenced in courtyard around the side. She's sit on the edge of the courtyard and watched the birds in the trees. She was there today. She had to pick her moments, like while the other kids were eating or playing inside. Today she had been the first out after eating, having wolfed down her food.

Mei sat at the end of the courtyard digging at the dirt absent-mindedly with a stick. She didn't see much hope in being adopted. All the adults in her life had made it quite clear to her what a burden she was. Breaking her train of thought came the feeling of a small pebble hitting her on the shoulder. Alarmed, Li Mei stood, looking around. A group of some of the bigger children were approaching, One of them, a boy she knew was called Jack, was at the front of the pack "What's wrong ching chong?" he called as he came nearer. Mei's heart started beating faster. In her mind she was trying to find an escape rout. But there were three of them, and her back was to a fence. "Why don't you say something, huh? Go on" He mockingly turned his head to the side and cupped his ear.

Li Mei glowered at the boy. She couldn’t find her words, threre was no way to run. All she had left was to fight. Mei’s little heads were shaking so she clenched them into fists. Instead of staying where she was she too a step forward. The boys just laughed at her, one of them shoved her hard and she stumbled and fell “What is wrong with her?” One of them asked,”How come she never says anything”

they were talking about her now “She’s Chinese or something, she probably doesn’t understand” They looked at her again. They turned to her “or she’s just an idiot.” Mei got up off the ground and tried to shove the boy back. He got caught of guard but quickly regained his balance and pushed her again. Down she went, into the grass “You can do all our chores for us Ching Chong or you’ll get worse than that!”

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Jordyn stared up at the sky just staring at the fluffy white clouds slowly moving across the bright blue sky, She practically jumped when she heard one of the workers yell. "JD! you better get off the ground now. What if a potential parent comes in and sees you like that!" She rolled her eyes as she pushed herself off the floor.

"I don't wanna get adopted anyway."

She muttered, She moved over to the worker and grabbed one of the flyers she held.

"We are having another adoption day again? Well, that sucks."

She said as she handed it back to the worker, only stopping when the worker called out to her again. "JD, go get the other children. We are going clothes shopping, Maybe you can pick a dress this time. So people can stop mistaking you for a little boy." Jordyn gave a deadpan look to the worker,

"I'll gather up the other kids. But I will not be getting a dress."

Jordyn moved throughout the group home property to notify other kids about the shopping trip, nodding at the other kids who called out "Hey JD!" She looked around the property to find the last batch of kids. While thinking about how easy it was for her to respond to JD now, once you are considered to be a long-term case, everyone gets their name shorted as short as possible.

She soon finds the last group of kids in the courtyard where she sees one of the bigger kids, Jack shove one of the new kids down. She couldn't hear what he said, But Jordyn could hear the loud laughter of the other kids. Before she knew it all she could see was red as she walked quickly over to them, as soon as passed the laughing idiots, She shoved Jack down to the ground.

"Why are you being a fucking cabrón?"

She said before turning to the Asian girl and offering her hand to the girl to pull her up.

"You can just ignore Jay and the rest of those pendejos."

She said while guiding the other girl out of the courtyard, She yelled over her shoulders.

"By the way pendejos! Everyone is going on a clothes shopping trip."

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the second push had been harder, but her landing was soft. She didn’t know what to do next, if this was going to keep happening what should she do? She thought briefly about throwing something at him when suddenly she heard another’s voice. It was another kid, but Mei could recognise that she held some authority amongst the kids. Suddenly Jack’s face was in the ground next to her and a hand was being offered to her. Mei took it and was hoisted upwards.

She let herself be lead through the courtyard. She glanced back at the boys. This girl had clearly embarrassed Jack, he had an absolutely diabolical look on his mean little face and his friends were all smiles. The girl spoke again.

Clothes shopping

Mei gave a soft groan. She didn’t want new clothes. Most clothes were intolerable to her, she couldn’t stand scratchy fabrics or anything with a tight neckline.

Once they were inside, Mei pulled on the girls arm to get her attention. She put her pointer finger up in a gesture that meant ‘wait a minute’. She ran to the living room and grabbed her little backpack. Inside she produced a little black notebook with a pen strapped to the side. Back when her dad had been her guardian, she’d had a speech therapist who had helped her communicate with other methods. The notebook was her main one. She also had flash cards.

She ran back over to the girl and started writing.

“Thank you” she wrote, her handwriting was beautiful, and very neat. She showed it to her with a small smile and then wrote

“Lù lǐ méi
‘May’”
She wrote then pointed to herself. She wrote her full Chinese name in pinyin and then under it she wrote the name she’d adopted to the English spelling at school. Mei’s little heart was still beating quickly as she came down from the adrenaline of the situation she’d found herself in. She rocked a little on the spot, shifting her weight subtly from the balls of her feet to her heels. It was one of the things she did to self soothe.

Mei took up her Pen again. She did not usually talk this much but this girl felt safe.

“Why do these kids listen to you?”


She showed her the page and gave her a curious look. She hoped that was an ok question to ask. Her father towards the end, was very harsh, calling her a bad mannered child, telling her she was loud and brash. Criticising her tone, often telling her to drop the bad attitude that she didn’t have.

Overtime she’d just said less and less, until talking became a huge trigger of hers and she stopped entirely.

Mei peered at the girl as she waited for her reply’s.

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She ran her fingers through her short hair as she watched the other girl looking for her bag. She moved to sit on the couch while letting her mind wander a bit till she realized the other girl finished the task that she had set out to do, she couldn’t help but admire May’s handwriting. She smiled at the other girl and tapped her notebook.

“So you do know english.”

She said softly.

Jordyn looked at May’s face to get a better look at her, she couldn’t help thinking May was quite cute and that Jack was an idiot once more. Especially since to her May looked younger than herself.

“It’s nice to meet you May, My name is Jordyn. But everyone calls me JD here.”

She leaned closer to read the next sentence.

She couldn’t help but snort as she thought about the last year she had been there and all the arguments and fights that she had gotten into with some of the other kids.She tapped May’s notebook,

“Answering this question is a little hard. I think it’s mostly because I’ve been through alot with them.”

She nodded her head after thinking for a moment,

“also winning fights tend to help make the others avoid causing problems for you.”

She smiled at the other girl, looking at her curiously.

“So how do you like the group home so far?”

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So you do know English Mei just nodded in response. Her English was near perfect. She could read, write, speak in two languages. She used to take pride in it. Jordyn stared at her, so May stared back. This girl was around her age, but she looked strong. Mei had not long came from a home where her father had only fed her as an afterthought, or fed her things he knew she didn’t like. She hadn’t been eating properly for a good month at least. As a result, May looked younger than she was because she was so frail.

As Jordyn explained, May began to understand. This girl must have been here a while. When she mentioned fighting Li Mei remembered her pathetic little push that had barely unbalanced the larger boy and dismayed. If fighting is the key to respect, I might be doomed. She thought dismally. Jordyn spoke again so May looked over at her.

Her initial answer was very negative, but then she thought about where she had come from. In the end she shrugged, she wasn’t sure what to say.

Finally she turned to a new page and wrote.

“It’s too crowded, and it’s too loud.” She paused, the pen hovered above the page and she pursed her lips. Was she going to offend Jordy, did she like this place? She seemed very comfortable here. No, Jordyn had asked her a question, she should be honest.

“there’s no where to hide. And I fell like I stand out” she finished. She was very nervous about showing the girl this but she held out the page. After Jordyn had read it she took the paper back. She was going to ask another question when a lot of kids started coming into the living room all at once. Some of the staff also came into the room. Clothes shopping. She remembered.

The noise in the room suddenly felt overwhelming. Kids laughing, talking, arguing all at once. So many faces, so many voices. Someone turned on the radio, she heard a tap open in the kitchen, outside someone had started an engine. She felt surrounded, suffocated.May felt panic rising, her chest hurt, her breathing was fast. She looked like a deer in headlights in that room. Her eyes found Jordyn, and as quickly as she could she planted herself on that couch and gripped her arm. She didn’t realise but she dropped her notebook and someone had kicked it accidentally and sent it skidding off somewhere.

An adult noticed her, she must have been very obvious in her distress. Immediately the staff was at her side, but Li Mei couldn’t focus on whatever she was saying. She let go of Jordyn and put her hands over her ears, trying to block everything out. She shut her eyes tightly too.

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“there’s no where to hide. And I fell like I stand out” Jordyn couldn’t help but wiggle her nose, a twitch she had when she felt really concerned or thinking hard about something. Before she could get a chance to say a thing to May, The room exploded with raucous kids and workers, She had forgotten all about the shopping trip for a moment. She had let her attention stray from May to wander around the room to see where Jack and the rest of his friends might be, She finally spotted them near the kitchen.

Her attention was returned to May when she felt May’s nails pressing into her arm. When she looked down, she looked like she was panicking. Before she could say or do anything one of the workers approached them and started to ask May a bunch of questions while trying to touch the other girl. But all it seemed to was make her panic more.

Jordyn looked back and forth between the worker and May, she hopped off the couch and stepped between the worker and May.

“You need to stop can’t you see she is having a panic attack.”

She couldn’t help the tick of annoyance when she saw the worker roll her eyes. She scowled at the worker, Jordyn knew that the worker was a volunteer and was probably only doing it for credit for school or to look like a good person. She met a lot of people like that, they rarely really cared about the kids.

Jordyn looked around the room till she finally spotted The group home director, She quickly walked up to her and pulled on her sleeve to get her attention.

“Mrs. Wilson?”

She said as she looked up at the director. “Yes JD.” Jordyn gestured over to May,

“Is it okay, If May and I stay here?”

She bit her bottom lip nervously, she could see the concerned look on Mrs.Wilson’s face.

“She started to panic 'cause it got loud and crowded real fast!”

She said quickly as she tried to provide a reason why May shouldn’t go.

“Okay, but why do you need to stay?” Mrs. Wilson asked her curiously.

“Umm… Well, she seemed like she was okay when it was just us…. Plus don’t wanna leave her alone.”

She said softly.

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Finally all the volunteers had begun to heard the children outside. Li Mei stayed firmly where she was, but managed to open her eyes and look around again. The twisting anxious feeling was still in her chest, and she was still breathing short, shallow breaths, but she could focus on the world again. Jordyn was gone. Frantic eyes darted around the emptying room to eventually lock onto her new friend talking to the foster carer who seemed to be in charge, Ms Wilson. Slowly she let her hands fall from her ears. She felt exhausted. It just took so much out of her when she had a meltdown like that. Her mind was starting to clear up and process her surroundings properly again. She stared over at Ms Wilson, trying to figure out if she was in trouble or not. She felt rooted to the spot with fear. She felt ashamed of herself as well. She wished she could disappear.

As her heart rate slowly began to slow, and her breathing became normal, she realised she didn't have her notebook. Her eyes began looking around rapidly, trying to find the little black square notebook. Oh no... where... She finally got up from the chair. Her mind was on nothing but that note book. She didn't want another kid finding it. Help... She thought and timidly crept up to Ms Wilson and Jordyn. Looking pale in the face she tapped the adult on the arm and once she had her attention, mimed writing on her hand as if it were paper. She continued to look around. There were pens and paper everywhere, but she wanted her book. She felt close to tears. In that book she had answered very personal questions when the social worker had brought her here. She couldn't have another kid find it. SHE had to find it. She wrung her hands and then flitted over to various chairs and cupboards, looking underneath them.

"Come on May! Everyone is in the bus already" It was that volunteer from before. She felt a hand grab at her wrist and try to pull her up. Anger she felt it strongly. With new strength she whipped around and clawed at the offending hand, trying to get it off her quite aggressively. The hand retreated with a yell. She could hear Ms Wilson approach and tell the volunteer to wait in the bus. She followed the direction but not before giving Mei the nastiest look "This one's going to be here forever." She muttered venomously under her breath. Finally, as the staff left, she caught sight of the thing she was looking for. It had only skidded under the coffee table. She snatched it gratefully. She stood up again, and picked up a pencil from the table. She imagined she'd be getting a talking to, if not for anything else, but for lashing out at that staff member. She peered at Ms Wilson, sheepishly, waiting for the punishment she was sure to receive.

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Jordyn watched the volunteer and Mei interact as she waited for Mrs. Wilson to make a decision. When Mrs. Wilson approached Mei, Jordyn flipped off the volunteer and stuck her tongue out at the woman. She ignored the woman's glare and skipped over to Mrs.Wilson and Mei.

Jordyn tugged on Mrs. Wilson’s arm,

“So can we please stay?”

She glanced over to Mei.

“Also May can move into my room. Angie got adopted remember, so I got the room to myself.”

She said as moved to stand closer to Mei. Mrs. Wilson looked at the two girls and sighed. “Alright…. You two can stay here… Also you can move May into your room.., But you better be on your best behavior on adoption day Jordyn Russo. You hear me? I don’t want you pulling your usual shenanigans.”

Jordyn looked away sheepishly glancing at Mei, before giving her attention back to Mrs. Wilson.

“Yes Ma’am.”

She said cheerfully linking arms with Mei, She patted Mei’s arm before leading her to the door to follow after Mrs. Wilson.

“Bye Mrs. Wilson, See ya later”

She grinned, as she closed the door after Mrs. Wilson got into one of the home’s vans.

“So May, were is your room?”

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No punishment came. The teacher just looked at her with an expression of sympathy, and spoke to her new friend. Mei felt her body relax, the tension slipping away from her little face. The house had become empty except for the two little girls. And now, she was going to be sharing a room with Jordyn? The girl in her room basically ignored her, but made her distaste known when Mei had first moved in. Mei's face lit up with happiness.

She heard Ms Wilson mention adoption day and was glad when Jordyn linked arms with her. The thought of adults coming through and looking at them wasn't exactly a pleasant one. She would have to ask Jordyn exactly what adoption day entailed. At least if she knew what to expect she could feel somewhat prepared. Jordyn started leading het to the bedrooms and asked her which was her room. Li Mei nodded and started walking towards her room towards the end of the hall. She opened up the door and ushered her friend inside. Her bed she had made neatly, all her possessions were neatly stacked in her side of the bookshelf in the middle of her room. Each child had a little desk in order to complete their school curriculum from home. On the desk she had various stationary that was grouped by colour and not by what the items actually were. Not a thing looked out of place.

Mei headed over to her little bookshelf, and grabbed a little pink wooden box, gesturing for her friend to wait. She reached inside and found what she was looking for. Smiling broadly she presented Jordyn with a little pair of bracelets. They each had a small gold pendant one was a flower and one was a bee. She offered the flower bracelet to Jordyn, if she didn't take it right away, she would gently place it into the palm of her hand, and point to Jordyn to signify this was a gift. She then got out her pen again.

"This was originally for my little sister. But she told me I was silly. She said that it's a friendship bracelet and to save it for a 'bestie'" Li Mei said with a nervous smile "So... That's why I want to give it to you." She felt the sting as she remembered her little sister fondly. This was the first time she had mentioned her sister to anyone. She simply had not been allowed to talk about her sister or her mother to her father. She put her bracelet back and placed the box neatly back on the shelf. With that Mei grabbed a little rucksack of hers and began to place some things from the shelf into it so that she could take it to her new room. Together, the girls would pack and move Mei's small amount of possessions. Mei wanted to stack them exactly how they had been in her last room, and was pretty oblivious to it if Jordyn was getting impatient or bored. It just had to be right. Sometimes Jordyn, trying to help, would attempt to but something away instead of just handing it to Mei. Mei would immediately move it to it's correct location.

When they were finally finished, Mei looked satisfied. No longer occupied with a task, she turned to Jordyn. Kind of sheepishly she smiled, subtly trying to judge her friends reaction after this long being around her... differences.

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