MyrtenRose
Knight of Rebellion
The irony of Raven's statement became apparent before she was even finished speaking it. His trademark flask had been loaded with water, just as it had out in the Solitas tundras that night with Clover, the last thing he remembered before any of this; a night that had either been a few moments or a lifetime ago, or was years from ever happening at all, depending on whether you asked his eyes, soul, or brain.
The glass of choice bourbon poured straight-up he was gesturing to, on the other hand, very much wasn't, nor for that matter was the bottle of it sitting on Salem's desk.
"Yeah, well, it's now too. You know me, sis... Always happy to play to type." There was a sense of ruefulness to his words as his gaze slipped down to the glass, more bitter than the burnished gold liquid within. "Oz, Salem, Remnant One, Remnant Two... guess when you're a lying, ageless sack of crap, instincts are to keep your hooch in the third drawer down on the left. Glad there are still some universal constants."
"...Damn. Suppose I should've put some actual money on that." She was only half sarcastic as she looked over at her brother with concern. All that work to go clean, and now here they were. Not to mention it wasn't that hard to pick up on the bitterness in his voice and his body language. Any idiot could have seen that much. She didn't say anything about that though, didn't press the subject. It was his choice, and frankly she could hardly blame him. "Yeah. Ugly truths, beautiful lies...some things don't change across universes." Raven agreed, though she abstained from the bourbon for now.
"God..."
Instead he went back to his earlier point, but lower this time, quieter, so far under his breath it was more magma than gravel. Even for all the years they'd spent estranged, the countenance of Raven's twin was no great mystery to her, and yet as she joined him at the window the haggard, faraway look in his eye was one she couldn't profess to having seen before. His fist tightened where it gripped one of the room's support struts, aura shimmering and metal starting to creak and warp, the small indentations forming around his thumbs and fingers the sole indicator to be had of what was to come as his mind raced back over recent—or was it future?—events with a sharper clarity than the others could lay claim to.
An eyebrow raised as she studied his face. He was right next to her, but he looked...so far away. That didn't inspire any reassuring feelings, that was for certain.
"...god damn it."
His breath hitched, and the sentence had a much quieter end than its beginning, his free hand shooting to pinch the bridge of his nose, then scrub at his eyes, wiping away more than simple frustration.
"Raven, I... I think I really screwed up this time."
It was a quiet, broken admission, one so uncharacteristic of everything Qrow Branwen had ever presented as Raven might've wondered if she were even talking to her sibling at all. Inside was another story. He screwed up, but what else was new? His whole life, beginning to end, could've been construed as one long, monumental screw-up. It was all he was ever good for. It was the only thing he ever was.
"What...what do you mean? Screwed up what?"
He finally looked at her, and though there was a tremulous aspect to his voice and uneven quality to his breathing he still managed to conjure up a small, wan smile for his twin, if one entirely offset by the sadness keeping it afloat.
"I did it for them, OK? Ruby and Yang. Whatever happens now, however this shakes out, just—Just remember that. Ozpin, Salem, this world... I stopped giving a crap about any of it a while back. I just, I just wanna get them home to their dad. For all I know the only reason they're even in this hellhole is..." He exhaled, leaving that thought unfinished. Waste of breath, and he didn't know how many he had left. But he had never been able to shake the thought that every bad thing that happened in their lives was something to do with him, with the sick joke of a semblance whichever asshole was paying attention up there stuck him with.
It wasn't clear to her what he had done, it seemed he was annoyingly, purposefully, being vague as hell about it. What was clear was that it seemed to be tearing him up inside, and that it was something huge. That he'd done it for them, and was blaming himself for it. What a load of garbage. "Hey, moron. Cut that crap out. You're not responsible for this. I don't care what you think you did, whatever happens, it's not on--"
Something about his palm appeared to catch his eye, and it was a deeply disturbed look he gave its various creases and callouses.
"He said a few minutes. Hnh. More lies."
He quickly downed the rest of the whiskey, using the burn in his chest to power through the rest of what he wanted to say. Were Raven paying attention to anything more than his frantic state at this point she might've started to notice something terribly, deeply wrong; the lack of any kind of color in his face, muted crimson flicker beginning to appear around the edges of his aura, as if it were being eaten through by cold on a timescale multiplied by a million. He couldn't keep his eyes off his palm, nor could he keep hiding what had him so transfixed; it wasn't just his aura peeling away, it was his skin, flakes beginning to dry up, break off and flutter away like ashes over a burning village.
"--what the hell?" That's not where her sentence had been going originally. Her eyes widened even as she asked, it wasn't even just his aura simply starting to flicker. His skin, it was coming undone. It drew her eye almost immediately, and she didn't know what to say after that. Damn it...he literally was tearing apart inside.
"Guess that tracks. All I've ever done is swallow lies, buy into whatever story I wanted to hear. I spent so many years hating you, telling myself you were too much of a coward to fight the good fight, when the truth all along was you just got a clue before anyone else did. We could've worked it out. I should've seen it then too, when Summer... when she..."
She wanted to refute him, to say she had been too much of a coward, that she had been with Summer on that day, that she'd.......but she couldn't. She didn't. The words simply stuck in her throat. That's how stricken speechless she was, by what was happening right before her eyes. What made it worse was that she had no clue what was happening, and no idea how to stop it. One of the best to graduate from Beacon, and a maiden now too, and yet....she'd never felt so...powerless. Unable to act, unable to do any fucking thing at all.
Some of his usual grit returned, and it was with a firmer, more resolute tone that he finally brought his eyes back up to meet his sister's, doing his best to establish a small, reassuring smirk for her benefit (and hers alone, since he was pretty much crapping his pants by now).
"Getting through to you was the only worthwhile thing I've done in years, Raven. And it wasn't even hard. I'm sorry I never tried harder to do it sooner; I'm sorry I treated you that way. Truth is, you were never my bad luck charm."
"I was yours.—*"
She still said nothing, even as she recognized that lie and wanted to throw it back in his face...hadn't done anything else worthwile in years...what an absurd lie. Yet she did nothing but stand there, petrified, watching in silence as he deteriorated in real time right before her eyes. It was only after he was gone, as she stared at the last signs of him drifting away with the wind, that she managed to speak again at last. A pained whisper in the lonely silence.
"Qrow, you idiot...no. No, brother. I'm sorry.....................for everything."
She stood there motionless a few seconds longer before she strode over to grab the whole bottle, not bothering with any glasses as she began to drink directly from it. She took a long sip before she pulled it away from her mouth and poured a bit of it onto the floor, thinking he'd appreciate the gesture. Man, that really had been a hideous carpet back then. She slowly lowered herself until she was sitting down on the floor herself, some of his last words echoing in her head.
"Qrow, you idiot...no. No, brother. I'm sorry.....................for everything."
She stood there motionless a few seconds longer before she strode over to grab the whole bottle, not bothering with any glasses as she began to drink directly from it. She took a long sip before she pulled it away from her mouth and poured a bit of it onto the floor, thinking he'd appreciate the gesture. Man, that really had been a hideous carpet back then. She slowly lowered herself until she was sitting down on the floor herself, some of his last words echoing in her head.
"What that says about me, I dunno. But those two—They can be so much better than we turned out, Ray. They already are. I know you see it too."
"Yeah. They really are." She raised the bottle back to her lips.