Murdergurl
will turn your insides into your outsides
So I had given up on 1x1 RPs a while back. This is for a variety of reasons. Primarily, it's because I don't like the aspect of the RP being consisted of just me and the other individual. It doesn't matter how many characters or NPC there are. In fact, I DON'T like to RP as a handful of characters. Having the entire RP hinge on the input of just another person and myself is a lot of creative responsibility to shoulder, and I just don't care for it. Another thing I don't like about 1x1, is that it makes me extremely anxious to be involved with just another player. This is for the former reasons stated, along with OOC chatter and just generally being too personal. I also don't like the fact that my turn to post will come up so frequently. If it's just the two of us, after I post it's theirs, and then me again. I don't like being pressured to return so quickly. Even if it is understood that their is no rush to post, I still can't help but feel pressured to get a response out asap. I'm sure I'm forgetting a couple other reasons, but surmise it to say that I just am really uncomfortable with 1x1 roleplays.
THAT BEING SAID...
It is seemingly impossible for me to find group RPs on here. RPN is by far the most active roleplay site I am on at the moment. Yet, since my joining back in July I have yet to get in on a successfully started and moving group RP. I love group RP in many of its dynamics. But OH MY GODS, is it difficult to get one going. It's hard enough for me to find topics that interest me. And whenever I do, they seem to die off very quickly or not even get started at all.
Some might feel that the obvious solution to this is to make my own roleplay. This is not just a no, but a HELL, NO! for me. I've tried to GM before. I've put tons of work and time into my settings and lore. And just like the group RPs I join, they also peter out and fail. So I'm not going to waste all that effort for nothing anymore. Another thing I should point out is that I just don't have the time to GM anything nowadays. I can write my own character in someone else's setting with little issue. But to be in charge of the entire setting is something I just don't have the time or patience for.
So, given all this. I'm just trying to figure out what to do with my time here. Should I attempt a 1x1 again, out of desperation? It's not really something I'm interested in, and I feel like I'd be doing both myself and the other party a disservice by even putting an ad out for it. But doing this thing, where I'm just constantly checking in and hoping that a a group RP that suits my interests pops up, is just really frustrating and discouraging. What I'm definitely tired of getting for advice, is that "I just gotta wait". Clearly, waiting around isn't working for me. I mean... 4 months and nothing? Really?
I really only have time for one or two RPs (probably just one, if I'm going to be completely realistic). Currently, I'm in none. So what I DO try to get myself involved in, can't just have a passing or half-hearted interest of mine. I need to really be into it, otherwise I will almost assuredly drop out. I know this, so I have become a bit particular about what I look for. I'm not just going to plop myself into whatever roleplay, afterall.
Anyways, sorry if this is a little rant-y. I really am trying to find a solution here. And I know I've posted something of similar feel to this before. But obviously, I'm still in the same boat. And I just really don't know what I'm supposed to do at this point besides give up, maybe?
Edit: Sometime last month, I had even attempted to gather other individuals that felt they were in the same situation. This was at the suggestion of one of the mods. Great advice. But ultimately, nothing came of it. The intent was to come up with a group RP idea, and get someone to GM it. However, the majority of the gathered party were silent the whole time, with only like one or two others contributing to the discussion. After about two weeks of dealing with this, I dropped out of the channel out of inevitable disinterest. I'm not one to push people into something they clearly aren't putting effort into.
THAT BEING SAID...
It is seemingly impossible for me to find group RPs on here. RPN is by far the most active roleplay site I am on at the moment. Yet, since my joining back in July I have yet to get in on a successfully started and moving group RP. I love group RP in many of its dynamics. But OH MY GODS, is it difficult to get one going. It's hard enough for me to find topics that interest me. And whenever I do, they seem to die off very quickly or not even get started at all.
Some might feel that the obvious solution to this is to make my own roleplay. This is not just a no, but a HELL, NO! for me. I've tried to GM before. I've put tons of work and time into my settings and lore. And just like the group RPs I join, they also peter out and fail. So I'm not going to waste all that effort for nothing anymore. Another thing I should point out is that I just don't have the time to GM anything nowadays. I can write my own character in someone else's setting with little issue. But to be in charge of the entire setting is something I just don't have the time or patience for.
So, given all this. I'm just trying to figure out what to do with my time here. Should I attempt a 1x1 again, out of desperation? It's not really something I'm interested in, and I feel like I'd be doing both myself and the other party a disservice by even putting an ad out for it. But doing this thing, where I'm just constantly checking in and hoping that a a group RP that suits my interests pops up, is just really frustrating and discouraging. What I'm definitely tired of getting for advice, is that "I just gotta wait". Clearly, waiting around isn't working for me. I mean... 4 months and nothing? Really?
I really only have time for one or two RPs (probably just one, if I'm going to be completely realistic). Currently, I'm in none. So what I DO try to get myself involved in, can't just have a passing or half-hearted interest of mine. I need to really be into it, otherwise I will almost assuredly drop out. I know this, so I have become a bit particular about what I look for. I'm not just going to plop myself into whatever roleplay, afterall.
Anyways, sorry if this is a little rant-y. I really am trying to find a solution here. And I know I've posted something of similar feel to this before. But obviously, I'm still in the same boat. And I just really don't know what I'm supposed to do at this point besides give up, maybe?
Edit: Sometime last month, I had even attempted to gather other individuals that felt they were in the same situation. This was at the suggestion of one of the mods. Great advice. But ultimately, nothing came of it. The intent was to come up with a group RP idea, and get someone to GM it. However, the majority of the gathered party were silent the whole time, with only like one or two others contributing to the discussion. After about two weeks of dealing with this, I dropped out of the channel out of inevitable disinterest. I'm not one to push people into something they clearly aren't putting effort into.
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