fieldofclover
tis the damn season
tw: mention of abortion
now playing: the first cut is the deepest - sheryl crow
Who knew that being civil would pay off in the end? Nobody was yelling. Nobody was arguing. And, it didn't look like anyone was going to be crying again. It was incredibly unexpected, but yet, Owen somewhat knew that they would be alright tonight. This would be just one of many steps to both of their healing journeys. This wouldn't have been possible if he hadn't sobered up to the reality of their situation. In order for their baby to have the best possible life, both Owen and Emily would have to overcome their differences. Emily couldn't trust him, and he understood that. But maybe he could try to gain back some of that trust. He averted his eyes as Emily began to speak, feeling like the biggest piece of garbage that could have ever possibly existed right at that very moment.
"I know that I said the worst things to you before. I can't take them back, even if I tried to." He couldn't bring himself to look her in the eyes. What kind of monster would tell the mother of their unborn child to terminate the pregnancy? Owen, that's who. He had always gotten everything he had ever wanted. But when he had demanded that Emily get rid of "it", she had flat out refused. It was the kick in the pants that he needed, knowing that he would have a son or daughter out there who had an absentee father. He wasn't going to follow in his own father's footsteps. Hell, he didn't even know where his father was or if he was still alive. All he knew was his name. Jack Manning, last seen in Arizona twenty-two years ago. Owen could never imagine his child not knowing where he was for twenty-two years. He wasn't going to go through that with his and Emily's child.
"I wish I had treated you right. You deserve to be treated like the angel that you are, and I blew it...big time." Suddenly, he didn't feel very hungry anymore. He pushed his plate aside, putting his fork on top of his mostly uneaten casserole. "I don't know if we could ever get back to where we started." Would he even want them to get back to good? Could they ever get back to the way things were, back when he hadn't hurt her so badly? Owen finally brought his eyes up to Emily as she began to smile. He had missed that beautiful smile on that beautiful face. He had made her frown more times than he had made her smile over the past few months. He had sunk so low...too low. Owen never wanted to hurt her like that ever again.
He couldn't help but smile sheepishly at the thought of everyone thinking that something had happened to him when he deactivated all of his social media profiles. "I'm sorry about that. It was kind of like quitting cold turkey, but my therapist encouraged me to take a break for my mental health. He's really impressed by how fast I'm turning my life around." Owen shrugged as he rose to his feet in order to toss the remnants of his plate into the trash. "I just wish I had gotten this wake up call before I went postal on you." He had many regrets, and that was just one of them. But he stopped dead in his tracks at what Emily said next. He moved to stand directly in front of her, eyes locked on hers. "Hate you? Emily, I could never hate you. I never did, and I never will. God, I..." They were so close. Too close. If either one of them moved now...this could be dangerous.
now playing: the first cut is the deepest - sheryl crow
Who knew that being civil would pay off in the end? Nobody was yelling. Nobody was arguing. And, it didn't look like anyone was going to be crying again. It was incredibly unexpected, but yet, Owen somewhat knew that they would be alright tonight. This would be just one of many steps to both of their healing journeys. This wouldn't have been possible if he hadn't sobered up to the reality of their situation. In order for their baby to have the best possible life, both Owen and Emily would have to overcome their differences. Emily couldn't trust him, and he understood that. But maybe he could try to gain back some of that trust. He averted his eyes as Emily began to speak, feeling like the biggest piece of garbage that could have ever possibly existed right at that very moment.
"I know that I said the worst things to you before. I can't take them back, even if I tried to." He couldn't bring himself to look her in the eyes. What kind of monster would tell the mother of their unborn child to terminate the pregnancy? Owen, that's who. He had always gotten everything he had ever wanted. But when he had demanded that Emily get rid of "it", she had flat out refused. It was the kick in the pants that he needed, knowing that he would have a son or daughter out there who had an absentee father. He wasn't going to follow in his own father's footsteps. Hell, he didn't even know where his father was or if he was still alive. All he knew was his name. Jack Manning, last seen in Arizona twenty-two years ago. Owen could never imagine his child not knowing where he was for twenty-two years. He wasn't going to go through that with his and Emily's child.
"I wish I had treated you right. You deserve to be treated like the angel that you are, and I blew it...big time." Suddenly, he didn't feel very hungry anymore. He pushed his plate aside, putting his fork on top of his mostly uneaten casserole. "I don't know if we could ever get back to where we started." Would he even want them to get back to good? Could they ever get back to the way things were, back when he hadn't hurt her so badly? Owen finally brought his eyes up to Emily as she began to smile. He had missed that beautiful smile on that beautiful face. He had made her frown more times than he had made her smile over the past few months. He had sunk so low...too low. Owen never wanted to hurt her like that ever again.
He couldn't help but smile sheepishly at the thought of everyone thinking that something had happened to him when he deactivated all of his social media profiles. "I'm sorry about that. It was kind of like quitting cold turkey, but my therapist encouraged me to take a break for my mental health. He's really impressed by how fast I'm turning my life around." Owen shrugged as he rose to his feet in order to toss the remnants of his plate into the trash. "I just wish I had gotten this wake up call before I went postal on you." He had many regrets, and that was just one of them. But he stopped dead in his tracks at what Emily said next. He moved to stand directly in front of her, eyes locked on hers. "Hate you? Emily, I could never hate you. I never did, and I never will. God, I..." They were so close. Too close. If either one of them moved now...this could be dangerous.
owen manning.
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