david tennant
daydream believer
Rose’s eyes had clenched shut as she kneeled on the floor, her arms coming to gently cradle her own body while she tried her best to calm her breathing. Her sobs came out in gentle hiccups, though each one sounded more hoarse than the last. They were catching more and more in her throat while her panic only grew. Flashes of memories came forward in her mind, the situation at hand mirroring one she had experienced and remember far too well. Blaine had done the exact same thing to her, even though the context surrounding it wasn’t the same. She had insisted on going to visit her family for the first time since their wedding. She couldn’t recall just how sick she had been at the time, but the man had turned and yelled at her that she was to not leave the house under any circumstance protests had flown from her lips, that same anger swelling in her. It all fell upon deaf ears as she was locked inside. That was the first moment that solidified everything that continued to happen to her from that moment forward. It was something she never believed she would experience with Emory. At least, not until that point.
Her lips were parted as she struggled to get the air into her lungs. The gentle voicing of her name barely graced her ears, nor did she realize the steps he took to return to her side. Her body hadn’t stopped trembling as the tears stained her dress once more. She only realized that he kneeled in front of her once he carefully grasped her cheeks and forced her gaze up. Her eyes were still wide, green irises dull with exhaustion and the pain coursing through her. She could vaguely see the regret etching its way onto his expression. It normally would’ve brought her a sense of peace in knowing he realized his wrongdoings, but nothing could calm her in the moment. She worked so hard to push her trauma down to where it wouldn’t affect her, to put on her happy persona for everyone surrounding her. Each recent event only chipped away at that exterior, but this finally caused her to break.
She didn’t react to his apology as her chest continued to heave. She couldn’t feel the trembling of his own fingers since it matched the trembling of her own body. Sweat glistened on her forehead, her panic only making it worse. The tears didn’t stop carving the streams on her cheeks even with his best attempts to wipe them away. She hadn’t ever broken down in front of Emory like this before. Her face fell once more when he finally removed his hands from her cheeks. She forced herself to swallow, a soft whimper leaving her lips as she did. It was only then that she began to shake her head at him. She tried to think of the words to respond to what he was saying. All of her anger from before had vanished into the pool of panic that overwhelmed her. Her expression was twisted with the shock of the situation, eyebrows raised slightly. She opened her lips again to finally gasp out some words, knowing they wouldn’t solve any of what was now plaguing the both of them.
“I don’t—“ She broke off as she heaved in another breath. “I don’t know. I can’t—“ She broke off again, tilting her head back some. The morning light streamed through the windows directly on the two of them. Her skin was much paler than it normally was, fingers curling tightly into her palms once more. “I can’t breathe.” She managed to finish the statement as she slowly adjusted the way she was sitting on the ground, her muscles protesting every move. She lifted her arms to rest gently on the top of her own head in a desperate attempt to clear her lungs. Each one felt as if it weighed more than ten bricks as she forced them into the air. She desperately wanted to have a proper conversation about everything that just happened, to gain the clarity she knew she deserved. She just knew she wouldn’t be able to if she wasn’t able to calm down. She forced herself to begin to take deeper, slower breaths to combat the sobs that had now faded completely into hiccups. The tears were beginning to dry on her cheeks, eyes bloodshot from the amount she cried. The skin surrounding her eyes had swollen from the crying. It didn’t happen often, but she truly looked terrible in that moment.
Her lips were parted as she struggled to get the air into her lungs. The gentle voicing of her name barely graced her ears, nor did she realize the steps he took to return to her side. Her body hadn’t stopped trembling as the tears stained her dress once more. She only realized that he kneeled in front of her once he carefully grasped her cheeks and forced her gaze up. Her eyes were still wide, green irises dull with exhaustion and the pain coursing through her. She could vaguely see the regret etching its way onto his expression. It normally would’ve brought her a sense of peace in knowing he realized his wrongdoings, but nothing could calm her in the moment. She worked so hard to push her trauma down to where it wouldn’t affect her, to put on her happy persona for everyone surrounding her. Each recent event only chipped away at that exterior, but this finally caused her to break.
She didn’t react to his apology as her chest continued to heave. She couldn’t feel the trembling of his own fingers since it matched the trembling of her own body. Sweat glistened on her forehead, her panic only making it worse. The tears didn’t stop carving the streams on her cheeks even with his best attempts to wipe them away. She hadn’t ever broken down in front of Emory like this before. Her face fell once more when he finally removed his hands from her cheeks. She forced herself to swallow, a soft whimper leaving her lips as she did. It was only then that she began to shake her head at him. She tried to think of the words to respond to what he was saying. All of her anger from before had vanished into the pool of panic that overwhelmed her. Her expression was twisted with the shock of the situation, eyebrows raised slightly. She opened her lips again to finally gasp out some words, knowing they wouldn’t solve any of what was now plaguing the both of them.
“I don’t—“ She broke off as she heaved in another breath. “I don’t know. I can’t—“ She broke off again, tilting her head back some. The morning light streamed through the windows directly on the two of them. Her skin was much paler than it normally was, fingers curling tightly into her palms once more. “I can’t breathe.” She managed to finish the statement as she slowly adjusted the way she was sitting on the ground, her muscles protesting every move. She lifted her arms to rest gently on the top of her own head in a desperate attempt to clear her lungs. Each one felt as if it weighed more than ten bricks as she forced them into the air. She desperately wanted to have a proper conversation about everything that just happened, to gain the clarity she knew she deserved. She just knew she wouldn’t be able to if she wasn’t able to calm down. She forced herself to begin to take deeper, slower breaths to combat the sobs that had now faded completely into hiccups. The tears were beginning to dry on her cheeks, eyes bloodshot from the amount she cried. The skin surrounding her eyes had swollen from the crying. It didn’t happen often, but she truly looked terrible in that moment.