starboob
lover / leaver
If only the consequence of choosing her own salvation was a marred reputation. A marred reputation she could handle—at the very least, she could live through the worst of it. It’s as Juliet said, it would not be the end of the world. And if only it were just a reputation that she risks. Were that the case, she would have made this choice before she ever became the hollow woman, the gone girl, the unrecognizable mistake that stares back in the reflection. If only, if only, if only.
This is not to say that Dorothea is ungrateful for the heroine’s words. They do help. They do give her something new to ponder—a dangerous new fantasy that is hers to grasp if only she asks. (And with Willow and Juliet, perhaps she can finally get ahead in this game and escape while keeping everyone safe. She has almost enough daring to actually consider this. As it is, she's already caused them enough trouble.) And yet she knows what really is at risk. It’s impossible for her to say that her escape is worth another’s life. She twists her hands, lowering her gaze away from the archer.
“I suppose,” she sighs and glides back over to the couch while Juliet finishes up her look. She really is stunning, especially in red. If she lets herself remember the look of her scars, her toned muscles that let everyone know hers aren’t just for vanity… Her heart trips over the memory, stuttering. Yes, so maybe she shouldn't think about that. Not when she’s promised to another and not when Willow is so clearly interested. Willow deserves someone like Juliet; someone who is kind and brave. If only one of them can have a happily ever after, she wants that for her old friend. “I suppose,” she repeats, sounding a bit dreamy without meaning to. She clears her throat, bringing herself back to this You York hotel suite. “It’s something to think about. I don’t know that leaving is for me, though.” Dorothea hardly sounds convinced of that. More than anything she has always yearned to leave and the price is just not one she can pay. (But maybe—no. She has caused them enough trouble.)
Her hand falls over her chest, over her heart. Jovi is beside her on the couch, curled up and sleeping. Those gray spots covering her fur tug at Dorothea, knowing it’s her fault her companion is suffering alongside her. Even if she could leave Evermore, what good would that do for Jovi? It might give them both reprieve from the effects of her outbursts, but if her condition is never resolved then she is only prolonging their mutual ruination. Though no other healer has been able to work out her condition, she believes Juliet when she says that her and Willow have figured it out.
And of course Willow James has. She should have been the first to know about her condition from the onset. To be fair, she tried to tell her. Many times, but after a certain number of unanswered messages and waiting around their old rendezvous, Dorothea took the hint, much to her own heartbreak. She supposes she earned it for how things ended.
“I don’t know how much longer I’ll have my independence…” Eyes linger everywhere trying to find her. Top Ten will only be safe for so much longer before it clicks that she chose to hide in plain sight. “And before this small freedom ends, I think I’d like it if you and Willow could try? It’s worth at least trying, right?” Her brow puckers, sounding uncharacteristically unsure, like a little girl who is not used to making decisions for herself. “It won’t… It won’t hurt, will it?”
“Gods.” Kinsley pinches the bridge of her nose, squeezing her eyes shut as she takes a measured breath. The vein in her forehead bulges with all the effort it takes to not blow up. Eventually, the micromanager finds her peace (Kinsley’s Version). “She looks like some pervert’s fantasy of Little Red Riding Hood. You seriously approved of this look?”
The women are riding in the backseat of a black armored vehicle with windows that are so tinted, it makes the summer afternoon look like midnight. Meredith, who has never traveled in such luxury, occupies herself by trying to figure out what each of the buttons on the car door do, amusing herself with the air conditioning controls that are aimed perfectly at Kinsley. She cranks AC to full blast, causing Kinsley’s hair to fly out of place. She whips around, unamused, and slaps Meredith’s hand away from the controls. “Are you a fucking child?”
Meredith hisses. Kinsley recoils, wrinkling her nose. “Keep acting like that and they’ll definitely put a leash on you, feral.”
Ordinarily, such a statement would incite (righteous) violence. In fact, Meredith is about to launch herself at Kinsley, but Dorothea casts a sheer, glimmering barrier between them. “Step off it, Kinsley. That was uncalled for and you know it. And, honestly? I’m not going to keep coming between you two.” By this she also means that she won’t come between her and Juliet either. It wouldn’t surprise her to learn that the archer might also be tempted to rip out Kinsley’s raven hair. “So if you don’t want your nose broken, maybe don’t. Jules also looks very nice.” She nods, turning the other way and offering the Folklorian an encouraging look. “Don’t you think, Willow? …Willow?”
Willow James is currently hunched over and clutching her stomach. She really should have known better than to drink three cups of coffee on an empty stomach and now she suffers for her dastardly ways. “I’m good.” She holds out her thumb, halfway listening to the conversation. “Jules—Juliet always looks good.” Weakly, she lifts her head, eyes immediately finding her companion's red lips. Her stomach flips. She gulps. “Y-yeah. Very good. The red lips. Nice.”
This is not to say that Dorothea is ungrateful for the heroine’s words. They do help. They do give her something new to ponder—a dangerous new fantasy that is hers to grasp if only she asks. (And with Willow and Juliet, perhaps she can finally get ahead in this game and escape while keeping everyone safe. She has almost enough daring to actually consider this. As it is, she's already caused them enough trouble.) And yet she knows what really is at risk. It’s impossible for her to say that her escape is worth another’s life. She twists her hands, lowering her gaze away from the archer.
“I suppose,” she sighs and glides back over to the couch while Juliet finishes up her look. She really is stunning, especially in red. If she lets herself remember the look of her scars, her toned muscles that let everyone know hers aren’t just for vanity… Her heart trips over the memory, stuttering. Yes, so maybe she shouldn't think about that. Not when she’s promised to another and not when Willow is so clearly interested. Willow deserves someone like Juliet; someone who is kind and brave. If only one of them can have a happily ever after, she wants that for her old friend. “I suppose,” she repeats, sounding a bit dreamy without meaning to. She clears her throat, bringing herself back to this You York hotel suite. “It’s something to think about. I don’t know that leaving is for me, though.” Dorothea hardly sounds convinced of that. More than anything she has always yearned to leave and the price is just not one she can pay. (But maybe—no. She has caused them enough trouble.)
Her hand falls over her chest, over her heart. Jovi is beside her on the couch, curled up and sleeping. Those gray spots covering her fur tug at Dorothea, knowing it’s her fault her companion is suffering alongside her. Even if she could leave Evermore, what good would that do for Jovi? It might give them both reprieve from the effects of her outbursts, but if her condition is never resolved then she is only prolonging their mutual ruination. Though no other healer has been able to work out her condition, she believes Juliet when she says that her and Willow have figured it out.
And of course Willow James has. She should have been the first to know about her condition from the onset. To be fair, she tried to tell her. Many times, but after a certain number of unanswered messages and waiting around their old rendezvous, Dorothea took the hint, much to her own heartbreak. She supposes she earned it for how things ended.
“I don’t know how much longer I’ll have my independence…” Eyes linger everywhere trying to find her. Top Ten will only be safe for so much longer before it clicks that she chose to hide in plain sight. “And before this small freedom ends, I think I’d like it if you and Willow could try? It’s worth at least trying, right?” Her brow puckers, sounding uncharacteristically unsure, like a little girl who is not used to making decisions for herself. “It won’t… It won’t hurt, will it?”
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“Gods.” Kinsley pinches the bridge of her nose, squeezing her eyes shut as she takes a measured breath. The vein in her forehead bulges with all the effort it takes to not blow up. Eventually, the micromanager finds her peace (Kinsley’s Version). “She looks like some pervert’s fantasy of Little Red Riding Hood. You seriously approved of this look?”
The women are riding in the backseat of a black armored vehicle with windows that are so tinted, it makes the summer afternoon look like midnight. Meredith, who has never traveled in such luxury, occupies herself by trying to figure out what each of the buttons on the car door do, amusing herself with the air conditioning controls that are aimed perfectly at Kinsley. She cranks AC to full blast, causing Kinsley’s hair to fly out of place. She whips around, unamused, and slaps Meredith’s hand away from the controls. “Are you a fucking child?”
Meredith hisses. Kinsley recoils, wrinkling her nose. “Keep acting like that and they’ll definitely put a leash on you, feral.”
Ordinarily, such a statement would incite (righteous) violence. In fact, Meredith is about to launch herself at Kinsley, but Dorothea casts a sheer, glimmering barrier between them. “Step off it, Kinsley. That was uncalled for and you know it. And, honestly? I’m not going to keep coming between you two.” By this she also means that she won’t come between her and Juliet either. It wouldn’t surprise her to learn that the archer might also be tempted to rip out Kinsley’s raven hair. “So if you don’t want your nose broken, maybe don’t. Jules also looks very nice.” She nods, turning the other way and offering the Folklorian an encouraging look. “Don’t you think, Willow? …Willow?”
Willow James is currently hunched over and clutching her stomach. She really should have known better than to drink three cups of coffee on an empty stomach and now she suffers for her dastardly ways. “I’m good.” She holds out her thumb, halfway listening to the conversation. “Jules—Juliet always looks good.” Weakly, she lifts her head, eyes immediately finding her companion's red lips. Her stomach flips. She gulps. “Y-yeah. Very good. The red lips. Nice.”