I Ran Away and Now I'm Here

[iMeisaki]

Her jaw dropped not knowing what to say. Her tears started to fall and mix with the blood on her cheek. "I-I'm sorry.." She said. She got her back pack, filled it with more snacks and went outside through the back door.

 

[gogojojo331]

he looked at her.

 

[iMeisaki]

She saw a river not too far from her backyard so to calm her down, she went in. She didn't know that the lake was really deep so she came back up coughing but got used to it.

 

[gogojojo331]

H sighed, and looked at her.

 

[iMeisaki]

She got out of the lake and looked at all of her pills..She had the power to do what she wanted to do. She caused so much chaos..would she OD..?

 

[gogojojo331]

He came down, and looked at her, and the pills. "Pleasee...Dont go..." His eyes were like his fathers, a vestige of life behind broken, beaten eyes.

 

[iMeisaki]

"I'm so sorry, I never meant to do anything of this..It's all my fault. I don't even know why you have feelings for me after all I've done. My mother was right for once.." She said.

 

[gogojojo331]

He helped her up out of the water, and looked at her. He gave her one of the pills. "Its an antidepressant. Take one...."

 

[iMeisaki]

She looked down at the ground. She hesitated to do anything so she just laid down on the ground. She sighed.

 

[gogojojo331]

"I...I'm so tired..." He said to her. "I...Want to be with you...But you keep evading me..."

 

[iMeisaki]

"I'm sorry, I don't mean to. It's how I've lived Leland. You've never been locked up inside a house tortured for 17 years. I'm sorry, I have trust issues and I'm always afraid of everything and everyone. That's why I wanted to get that mountain house. It's quiet and no one is up there. All I want is for us to be happy or you to be happy or me. I can't take it anymore. I just wish I was never born cause I did all of this." She started getting upset. She didn't know what to feel anymore..

 

[gogojojo331]

"Start by trusting me.... "He said, hugging her

 

[iMeisaki]

"Okay. I'll start. Trust me too." She said crying on his shoulder.

 

[gogojojo331]

"I always have...." He smiled.

 

[iMeisaki]

"I'm sorry..I truly am." She was growing more tired by the second but she stayed awake.

 

[gogojojo331]

"Me too..." He said, smiling.

 

[iMeisaki]

"I want us to be happy..Not fighting." She stated.

 

[gogojojo331]

"I know..." He said

 

[iMeisaki]

She sighed and kept her head on his shoulder. They were sitting at the edge of the pond. "I want to live by your college and then we can go on from there." She said. She stopped crying.

 

[gogojojo331]

"Is that you truly want?" he said.

 

[iMeisaki]

"Yea, I just need the money. Okay?" She told him.

 

[gogojojo331]

"They..." He said, looking at her. "They wont try and corrupt you, will they?"

 

[iMeisaki]

"No. They can't once I'm eighteen, I can get it. I will be tomorrow so it will be easy. But if I wanted to start making money now I would...I would have to start modeling again. I never wanted to model again. I hate it so much. I don't know what to do." She sighed.

 

[gogojojo331]

"I dont either..."

 

[iMeisaki]

"All I know is that I need you. I just need you to be there for me and I'll be there for you." She said as her head was on his shoulders. Her arms were around him and she was sitting on top of him. She felt bad that she was getting him soaked.