LowkeyLovingLoki
heartbeat on the high line
ALL MY FRIENDS SEE STARS PUT ME IN THE LIGHT AGAIN COME ON PUT ME IN THE LIGHT AGAIN THOUGH ALL THINGS FALL THEY DON'T FALL THIS FAR I'M REACHING FOR THAT HIGHER GROUND I KEEP LOSING IN THE MOST ALARMING WAYS SO YOU CAN FIND ME IN THE POND TANGLES IN THE LILY PADS HELD UP BY A PUPPET STRING AND YOU CAN DRAG YOU CAN DRAG ME OUT AND LEAVE ME IN SOME GARDEN WITH THE BRANCHES GROWING OVER ME NOW THAT I'M BACK HOME IN ETERNITY BUT HOW CAN I LEAVE HERE AND LIVE IN THE SOIL WHEN ALL THINGS THAT WARMED ME ARE HERE WITH THESE MORTALS
Full Name: Sebastian Osario
Age: 18
Sexuality: Homosexual
Gender: Male
Ethnicity: Caucasian
Department: Music
Face Claim: Evans Nikopoulos
Voice Claim: Roland Faunte
General Appearance: Seb is pretty tall, standing at 6'2. He's lean but slightly muscular, enjoying a bit of sport and exercise, even if not as much as he used to. He has blue eyes and slightly tan skin, and he keeps his chestnut brown hair fairly short at the back and sides, but a little bit longer at the top.
Clothing Style: When he feels up to trying, jeans, sneakers and a sweatshirt. When he doesn't feel up to trying, sweatshirt, sweatpants and slides and socks.
Body Modifications: None
Distinguishing Features: His height is his only distinguishing feature, honestly.
Personality: Despite the fact that Sebastian does struggle with depression, you wouldn't guess it from not being close with him. Even if he doesn't always have a smile on his face, he is always as friendly as can be, even if sometimes he seems a little tired. He's a massive softie; he feels things really deeply and he cares about people deeply, too. He's a sweetheart to the core and would do absolutely anything for those he cares about, and would easily sacrifice himself for the benefit of another. As friendly as he is, it's a quiet friendliness. He keeps to himself mostly, and in a group situation it's hard to even tell that he's there. He's more comfortable interacting with one person at a time than with a lot of people.
When he does have a depressive episode, Seb is just really exhausted. He doesn't leave his house, or his bed really, and doesn't talk to anyone on the phone or even in person much. He can get in a really self-hating headspace. He tries to just wait the episodes out because he would absolutely hate to bother anyone else with problems that, as far as he's concerned, are just in his head.
Likes: Sport, piano, songwriting, poetry, snow, noodles
Dislikes: Himself (sometimes), dancing, noisiness, being rushed, driving
Vices: Struggles with mental health, self-sacrificing, gets emotional easily even if he can hide it
Vitures: Kindhearted, friendly, undramatic, easy to talk to, great listener
History: (TW - Cancer and Depression/Suicide)
Sebastian was born to a two loving parents, and he has an older sister. His family was middle-class, and he lived an average, white-picket-fence life until he was 12. His mother lost a long battle with cancer, and his family was left heartbroken. It was only him, his father, and Seb's older sister. His older sister left to study abroad when she was 21 and Seb was 15, unable to stay in the place that reminded her of her mother. Seb himself got worse every day, finding himself enjoying his hobbies less and less than he used to. He used to love sport - particularly running, but even that felt like a chore now.
His sister leaving only worsened Seb's condition. His father became protective and tried to encourage Seb to do the things he used to enjoy, but Seb couldn't find any energy for it. He started having dangerous thoughts, and he found himself starting to really dislike himself, seemingly for no reason. He refused to understand why he was alive when his mother was dead. When Seb was 16, his father bought him a piano, desperate to get Seb to feel better and find something to enjoy. Surprisingly, Seb found that he actually really loved the piano. His father was all too happy to pay for lessons and Seb learned incredibly quickly.
Seb discovered he could actually sing, as well, and used YouTube to hone both his piano and singing skills until he didn't need it or lessons anymore. He didn't really have friends at his old school anymore, after essentially pushing everybody away, so after finding Hollywood Arts, his father was happy to pay for him to attend. He is not famous at all but he was able to get in on talent. He still suffers from depression and has often contemplated suicide, but he hasn't been diagnosed and neither he nor his father have really realised the extent of his issues. In all honesty, Seb knows nothing about depression and just thinks he's crazy and messed up. However, he uses music to try and get rid of some of those thoughts and that energy, and he's taking everything one day at a time.
..................................................BE FINE
SEBASTIAN
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