BittyBobcat
Llama hand
- One on One
- Group
- Dice
All Farmers Are Bastards (AFAB)
They were no stranger to aches and pains—the dull sting of plucked feathers, the stiff burn that would sit on your wings if you didn't stretch them enough, the slipping of a needle through their neck and the following drop into those same-as-the-last-and-the-one-before memories. Even the tight-chested maybe, maybe was as familiar as the chipped stone which made up their small world.
But this. This was different. New.
This was a crackling, sparking flame that leapt as high as the torches in the hall when they were replaced and relit. This was a long-burning suffering that bit and stung at their throat until they were afraid they would scream their secrets to the farmers before the time came for them to be told. It was every odd, unbelievable story they had ever heard whispered on the lips of phoenixes who knew they would never see the the beautiful places they spoke so longingly about again.
Outside, there were supposed to be things like books, and flying, and sunsets, and so many lovely distractions to choose from that could take their mind from this, but here? Here they had stone and only stone.
There were marks on those stone walls. They put most of them there themself, save for the scratches that had already been tucked away in the corner when they'd been moved to this cell. It felt wrong to run their marks too close to those ones, like interrupting one of the old phoenixes stories. Instead, they kept their records higher-up and off to the side, grouped into 'weeks'.
They weren't weeks. Not really. Weeks were made up of seven days. These weren't days. Every scratch they'd made in the stone was one moment—the only moment that mattered here—one pluck, one cut, one life. They were a blazing reminder of all they never had the chance to lose, and yet it felt so nice to put them into 'weeks'. It felt important. Warm. It felt like a maybe, and as much as they wanted to hate maybes—those lying, aching maybes—they couldn't find it in themself to sort the marks in any other way.
And maybe, just maybe, this was the 'day' that their patience would finally amount to something because, 'today', they could fight.
In their previous 'day', the farmers had come in with their shears and gloves and white-hooded clothes too thick to burn through as always, but this time there was a change. Somehow, in the struggle that always came along with harvests, a small piece of cloth had been clipped apart from its parent-clothes and fell to the ground, where they found it with neat, blood-soaked edges when they woke up.
And then they learned that it wasn't too thick to burn. It took time, and effort, and patience, but with their blue-flames they were able to feel the heat prickling on the other side in only a few seconds of close-up fire; pain came in a couple more. Sure, they would burn in the struggle as well. but it was such a small price for a maybe.
So when finally—finally—that horribly familiar thump, thump, thump of slow bootsteps down the hall came, they felt that leaping energy in their chest spring to life in their chest again. With practiced quickness, they beat it down and slumped back against the wall with a dead look in their eye that matched the mute terror of most long-staying phoenixes on the farm.
And they waited.
They were no stranger to aches and pains—the dull sting of plucked feathers, the stiff burn that would sit on your wings if you didn't stretch them enough, the slipping of a needle through their neck and the following drop into those same-as-the-last-and-the-one-before memories. Even the tight-chested maybe, maybe was as familiar as the chipped stone which made up their small world.
But this. This was different. New.
This was a crackling, sparking flame that leapt as high as the torches in the hall when they were replaced and relit. This was a long-burning suffering that bit and stung at their throat until they were afraid they would scream their secrets to the farmers before the time came for them to be told. It was every odd, unbelievable story they had ever heard whispered on the lips of phoenixes who knew they would never see the the beautiful places they spoke so longingly about again.
Outside, there were supposed to be things like books, and flying, and sunsets, and so many lovely distractions to choose from that could take their mind from this, but here? Here they had stone and only stone.
There were marks on those stone walls. They put most of them there themself, save for the scratches that had already been tucked away in the corner when they'd been moved to this cell. It felt wrong to run their marks too close to those ones, like interrupting one of the old phoenixes stories. Instead, they kept their records higher-up and off to the side, grouped into 'weeks'.
They weren't weeks. Not really. Weeks were made up of seven days. These weren't days. Every scratch they'd made in the stone was one moment—the only moment that mattered here—one pluck, one cut, one life. They were a blazing reminder of all they never had the chance to lose, and yet it felt so nice to put them into 'weeks'. It felt important. Warm. It felt like a maybe, and as much as they wanted to hate maybes—those lying, aching maybes—they couldn't find it in themself to sort the marks in any other way.
And maybe, just maybe, this was the 'day' that their patience would finally amount to something because, 'today', they could fight.
In their previous 'day', the farmers had come in with their shears and gloves and white-hooded clothes too thick to burn through as always, but this time there was a change. Somehow, in the struggle that always came along with harvests, a small piece of cloth had been clipped apart from its parent-clothes and fell to the ground, where they found it with neat, blood-soaked edges when they woke up.
And then they learned that it wasn't too thick to burn. It took time, and effort, and patience, but with their blue-flames they were able to feel the heat prickling on the other side in only a few seconds of close-up fire; pain came in a couple more. Sure, they would burn in the struggle as well. but it was such a small price for a maybe.
So when finally—finally—that horribly familiar thump, thump, thump of slow bootsteps down the hall came, they felt that leaping energy in their chest spring to life in their chest again. With practiced quickness, they beat it down and slumped back against the wall with a dead look in their eye that matched the mute terror of most long-staying phoenixes on the farm.
And they waited.
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