Valentina Aeternum
~A Goddess of Story~
Celestia had been vaguely aware of what was going on around her, but she hadn't been able to focus and despite the state she found herself in her mind was anything but silent, sadly. She had prayed for blessed silence instead she got doubt chomping at the bit to rip her apart, taking those bits of broken heart and turning them to dust, See? I told you didn't I? Your friends abandon you consistently. You're mom and dad left you alone too, don't forget. Why are you still here? Why are you still alive? You should have died a long time ago. You can end it, you know? You have the means so do it. That wretched voice never shut up, but after all she had been through today it was particularly vicious, pushing her to wake up. When her two colored eyes opened blearily she was slow to sit up, those pretty eyes dark and unfocused and her heart...the dust that was left of it while she was crushed by her depression, her own dark thoughts, came blasting through her mind, the X upon her chest suddenly glowing softly in response to her own darkness. Why was she here? Where was here? Where could she get some privacy? She didn't seem to see Kazuo or Yamato but got up and slowly made her way to the restroom in the room she was in, closed it and locked it. How come...? Why? Doubt and depression were dangerous combinations and she knew that, but being depressed was never logical.
Finally alone her hand made an earthen dagger, all she had to do...she aimed the dagger at that softly glowing X, it marked her heart, she just had to steady her hands level the blade with that spot, and thrust, then she would bleed to death, or take that extra step, up the road not across the street, right? Her depression was running rampant inside her head, grounded? Ha yeah right! Celestia was the person furthest from the ground, Selfish...I know I know! What's more selfish though? Continuing to live and losing things over and over again? I don't like losing people, I hate it, I don't any to vanish. Damn her, damn this, just drive it in, and everything would fade, slowly but surely, hell with her magic she could bury herself so no one had to find her body, an earthen coffin, man that sounded nice. Why was she so broken, to the point this one stressor was pushing her this far, she had felt like this when Acus vanished suddenly too, she really hated losing people that wandered into her life, okay so maybe she had a few issues. She was in a hospital, oh yeah that's right. Kazuo and Yamato were outside, probably worried. How long had she been inside this space that was tempting her to stab her own heart? Her hands shook but she leveled the blade, one motion, that was all she needed.