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Jason Costello
It wasn't much just to hear the words - Jason knew how unreliable addicts could be - but he smiled all the same when Gwen shook and kissed his hand and agreed to keep fighting. Even if she couldn't keep her word, he would at least know that she had wanted to at some point in time. Heroin may have been higher than him on her list of priorities but he was still on that list somewhere, and he considered himself very fortunate for that.
Following her eyes as they fell to the trace marks on her arm, Jason didn't look for long. He had seen them on the arms of several of his fellow inmates during his time in prison, and one or two of the residents in his old apartment block in Dublin. It was like the mark of some sad club, one that he had never expected Gwen to end up a member of. She soon began to tell him a story of her beginnings in New York; from the moment she brought up Edward Bryant, Jason found himself looking out for any similarities between the man and himself just in case he was on track for breaking Gwen's heart again. However, it turned out not to be the point of the story at all, as she went on to reveal that Eddie had been the one to drug her without her consent, instantly getting her hooked on heroin.
Jason dropped his head down and closed his eyes, overcome with regret and resentment - both at the man who took away all control she had over her life, and at himself for ever leaving her in the first place. It got worse when she told him about Lorelei being born already addicted to heroin, and her husband beating her. Her descriptions were graphic and created horrific imagery in Jason's mind, spurring more self-loathing and immense heartache for what Gwen had gone through. It was terrible to imagine her experiencing it all whilst thousands of miles away from him, and he mentally beat himself up for ever parting ways with her. Now, he would do anything to protect her from harm.
She ended by telling him that Eddie had got what was coming to him, but Jason didn't want to know. He didn't care what had happened to the man, as long as he had in some way received his karmic punishment. Gwen looked like she needed to cry and Jason was still stunned by what she had told him, so he wrapped his arms around her and pulled her into his chest. The second she couldn't see his face, he felt a lump form in his throat and he had to take a moment to swallow it down. "Let me swear t'ye now, Gwen - I will never, ever be like that man," he murmured, his voice deepening as he fought to repress his own emotions. "I promise that you and Lorelei will be safe for as long as you're wit' me. You'll never go through anythin' like that again."
With his head resting on top of hers, Jason noticed the painful stillness of her room, having to focus on keeping his breathing normal in case she could hear it over the silence. His gaze settled somewhere between the walls ahead; all he could see were visions of Gwen being abused. It broke his heart - but the pain was deepened by the thought that all of this traced back to him. He was the first domino in a series of life-altering events, that had caused her immense trauma and cost her her freedom. The longer he thought about it, the looser his grip on her became until eventually he pulled away from the embrace entirely. When their eyes met, Jason automatically smiled, but he wasn't feeling in any way positive. "You know ye can always call me up, okay? I'll come for you day or night. Anythin' at all you want, I'll bring to you - anythin' I can do to help, I'll do. You've got me, too, Gwen. You've got me for good this time." He sent her another smile, this time ensuring it carried comfort and reassurance - but even though he really did want to support her in any way he could, he felt like he was acting.
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It wasn't much just to hear the words - Jason knew how unreliable addicts could be - but he smiled all the same when Gwen shook and kissed his hand and agreed to keep fighting. Even if she couldn't keep her word, he would at least know that she had wanted to at some point in time. Heroin may have been higher than him on her list of priorities but he was still on that list somewhere, and he considered himself very fortunate for that.
Following her eyes as they fell to the trace marks on her arm, Jason didn't look for long. He had seen them on the arms of several of his fellow inmates during his time in prison, and one or two of the residents in his old apartment block in Dublin. It was like the mark of some sad club, one that he had never expected Gwen to end up a member of. She soon began to tell him a story of her beginnings in New York; from the moment she brought up Edward Bryant, Jason found himself looking out for any similarities between the man and himself just in case he was on track for breaking Gwen's heart again. However, it turned out not to be the point of the story at all, as she went on to reveal that Eddie had been the one to drug her without her consent, instantly getting her hooked on heroin.
Jason dropped his head down and closed his eyes, overcome with regret and resentment - both at the man who took away all control she had over her life, and at himself for ever leaving her in the first place. It got worse when she told him about Lorelei being born already addicted to heroin, and her husband beating her. Her descriptions were graphic and created horrific imagery in Jason's mind, spurring more self-loathing and immense heartache for what Gwen had gone through. It was terrible to imagine her experiencing it all whilst thousands of miles away from him, and he mentally beat himself up for ever parting ways with her. Now, he would do anything to protect her from harm.
She ended by telling him that Eddie had got what was coming to him, but Jason didn't want to know. He didn't care what had happened to the man, as long as he had in some way received his karmic punishment. Gwen looked like she needed to cry and Jason was still stunned by what she had told him, so he wrapped his arms around her and pulled her into his chest. The second she couldn't see his face, he felt a lump form in his throat and he had to take a moment to swallow it down. "Let me swear t'ye now, Gwen - I will never, ever be like that man," he murmured, his voice deepening as he fought to repress his own emotions. "I promise that you and Lorelei will be safe for as long as you're wit' me. You'll never go through anythin' like that again."
With his head resting on top of hers, Jason noticed the painful stillness of her room, having to focus on keeping his breathing normal in case she could hear it over the silence. His gaze settled somewhere between the walls ahead; all he could see were visions of Gwen being abused. It broke his heart - but the pain was deepened by the thought that all of this traced back to him. He was the first domino in a series of life-altering events, that had caused her immense trauma and cost her her freedom. The longer he thought about it, the looser his grip on her became until eventually he pulled away from the embrace entirely. When their eyes met, Jason automatically smiled, but he wasn't feeling in any way positive. "You know ye can always call me up, okay? I'll come for you day or night. Anythin' at all you want, I'll bring to you - anythin' I can do to help, I'll do. You've got me, too, Gwen. You've got me for good this time." He sent her another smile, this time ensuring it carried comfort and reassurance - but even though he really did want to support her in any way he could, he felt like he was acting.
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Bellz Gwen