supermartinbros
❝My wings have broken off and I keep falling...❞
Esmeray Belladona Lenox
Nostaliga and fear
Dorm
Light brown sweater, black jeans, and knee high boots.
Ember, Lilith
Ruby and Lilith
Night. A time where it was her favorite time, she looked at her assignments and yawned. She checked the time and it was already past 4 AM, she rubbed her eyes softly, the sound of writing still audible. But soon the purple-haired lady dozed off, her head falling into her assignments.
Dreams rarely occurred to Ray, since they were always something she hated; something that would never happen. But this one felt different. Everywhere she walked was like cold ice, but everywhere she looked there was no light. She searched for something, however she flinched when her foot touched water. She wanted to yelp but no sound came out. She looked into the water, there was only a blurry reflection of herself. Chills ran up her spine when she heard footsteps behind her, she was too late to look at who it was as she pushed into the water head first. She screamed with every ounce of her body. Flailing helplessly against the dark water which felt as if it only wanted to strangle her throat.
When she opened her eyes again she was out of the water, somewhere else. Far away from where she was. It was the slums. A small little girl with messy dark hair appeared in front of her with rags for clothes and her glass blue eyes were hollow and dead. The girl passed right through Ray's body which made her flinch.
The girl looked at a beautiful woman with ruby red eyes and black hair just like night, she smiled at her and walked hand-in-hand. Before Ray could process anything she fell into the water again, this time it felt deeper more darker, her breath running out once again. She clutched her face, screaming. Even if she didn't hear it, she could feel her voice grow hoarse. She closed her eyes, wishing this was done. Wishing everything was over. She then felt the darkness go away, then the scene changed. A young lady... her. It was herself. It was like watching a mirror however she moved away just like a shadow. she looked at her hands, she didn't know when however when she looked in front of her again there was a mirror, and her hair grew longer, her clothes different.
Horror was all she felt. Who was she? This wasn't her. It wasn't. Just when she seemed to lose all understanding the lady from the last flashback appeared.
"I'm so sorry Lilith... I meant to tell you sooner, please. Don't go." she whispered, as her eyes glimmered with tears.
"You were the one who lied."
"You were the one who lied."
Ray instantly felt her voice match another woman's perhaps... the girl she was in. They had similar voices, however the girls was much more angrier. Words coming out which didn't belong in Ray's mouth flowed like a river, as if she had once said these exact words. But she had never seen either of the two ladies.
"I know... but I promise you, I will always, always love you." she sobbed. Her ruby eyes looking passionately into Ray's glassy eyes and somehow, she could truly relate with these words.
"You don't love me." she whispered, she was startled this time it was only her voice or maybe it was her imagination since they were too much in sync. The woman's image shattered and she took a step back and that's when she fell again.
She opened her eyes as fast as she could, and she gasped for air. She was still in the same place as yesterday, right asleep on her assignments. Sweat slicking her forehead. She felt a sudden wave of nausea overtake her. She ran to the bathroom, getting ready to vomit but nothing came out. She wanted to scream and cry. But she held it in. Her muscles felt weak.
She locked the bathroom. Holding back a sob. No one has ever mentioned love. She hated it. Hated it. She covered her mouth trying to make herself disappear in a ball. She wished she could be like a shadow. She could follow someone bright, but watch from afar. Maybe be loved... who knows. She was already like one but she pushed people away. Liars. She quickly got out of the bathroom. She changed her clothes a bit, but remained with her boots. She grabbed her pack and looked at the time she looked around for her roomate, Ember, before she left the room.