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— NINTH CHILD OF THE DRAGON —
Upon hearing the words. "You must rest," it was as if the fighting high that she built up for herself had burnt up in smoke. Although-- as much as she would like to assist on the battlefield, she herself was on the edge. The impact of falling earlier was lessened by her resilient draconic body, but she definitely wasn't at top fighting form, she believed. Moreover, she was basically holding flaming wooden trash in her hands, and actually thought she was going to fight with it. Perhaps the hazy smoke made her believe such crazy things yet. . . something was nagging at the back of her mind that she could have been able to do it.
But-- she was a guest in their house. The common footsoldier. She wasn't even a full Soulbringer, just a plain, illiterate, above-average village girl that they so happened to save from tearing the Aselengardian countryside into pieces. Listening and asking for orders were just a common curtesy-- especially if it came down from the people who kept her fed and housed. Besides-- it didn't even pay back all the debts of gratitude, wishes, time, and effort they put in every day. A person like her, an outsider, a leech, a stranger, could never fathom such a struggle.
This rush of guilt and despair followed her before-- immediately after transforming into. . . that beast a few years back, only to heighten as she exited that transformation. However, something snapped her back this time-- her eyes widening as she looked up into the cloudy sky, and from her point of view, golden orange flames and smoke try to jump higher and higher surrounded that image-- but despite being in the center of a great fire, she only cared about imagining the white puffs parting ways for her to cast down its light-- accompanied by that voice. . . Who's was it? What even was that? How did it even know that much about her. . . and why was she so comfortable telling what it wants?
Her musings were interrupted by Hakon's movement--
Hákon Strickland said:"If we survive, I would like to see in helping you come to terms with your "nature". If you see it fit to do so."
What were they risking? Was it something worth dying over? What did they have that let them dethatch themselves from continuing to live? Unlike her who desperately wished to live another day based on. . . based on what? Was it her "nature"? Was it wrong of her to ask for another day--? Or perhaps they were waiting for her to join them in giving up their lives for some folly? And her. . . nature. . .? Is it innate? Is it given? But isn't that the same...? You're given traits by one's parents right--? But who did she have to call her own parents? She always had thought that she was just the daughter of those two small-time farmers. But-- she looked different compared to them. She didn't share their features... so that makes her different? Yet-- they looked past that. Why?
All these questions continued to swirl around her head like a hurricane-- all of which began as soon as she left the eye of the storm at the forest. This was the one aspect of hers she always hated-- inquisitive, reflective, introspective. . . yet she doesn't remember picking up a single day inside of a schoolhouse. So how does she know this? Was this what that voice meant by the "first seal?" That can't be... she had these thoughts well before today... but she can't figure out how. It was as if by instinct and feeling-- that she could continue to press forward.
It was by instinct that she learned to fight. Perhaps training was what helped her hone her senses, but before entering the Cathedral, she became an unbeatable warrior of the town all by just following what made sense to her. She spear she wielded then felt natural to her-- the footwork and motions all blended and flowed into one another like a poem or a song. The slicing of the air, the tensing of the muscles, the rush of excitement that comes from fighting to live-- all of it came from within her.
The first time she began to fully encompass each step was when she was locked up in solitary darkness. Staying up from dawn to dusk practicing with a spoon or a fork, she could actually visualize herself holding a spear. She could "see" its length relative to her room, she could adapt to the close-quarters by imagining herself break through the wall or snapping it in two to give her a second blade. Without any outside expectations, she could finally clear her thoughts and focus. Just as she imagined this smoldering stick, for the first time she could feel those tiny sparks that would create a flame actually ignite for once in the world around her.
. . .
Lost in her thoughts, she didn't even realize her own body was moving. She hoped she said some words of good regards to Hakon before ditching him to let him do what he needed too, but she probably just nodded and went away without telling them where she would walk off too next. Alternatively, she could be having an out-of-body experience fit for someone who has escaped death numerous times over. Or maybe, it was the fumes she inhaled playing tricks on her mind, accelerating her thinking to keep up with the previously looming threat of becoming ash.
Again--! Again she feels as if an invisible hand is guiding her movements. Her eyes darting around the wooded forests, the flames behind her lighting the way under sunless sky and illuminated clouds. She felt her eyes wander, looking for a place to rest. She could not possibly rest where she remains right now, the flames remain too close and will eventually jump out to meet her. She needed a place high-up and a perch that won't possibly be touched by flames. There. in the corner of her eye, something glimmered-- it was a plateau... no, perhaps bluffs of rocks? Didn't matter-- it was high and far away from the fighting that she could plant her feet and rest upon. But-- it was soo high up-- she couldn't see herself walking all the way out there.
Yet, this continuing sensation of being on auto-pilot never failed her, as she could feel a gust of wind lifting her off high off the ground. Wings once again sprouted from her back, flapping downwards to give her some vertical height, and then she dived down to soar over the battlefield. She could spot three Soulbringers she could recognize-- Zeviene, Sariavyn, and Siara. All of them fighting their hardest for... the mission? The cause of the Soulbringers? What even was that--? Did she even stop to pay attention to listen? This was Regalia territory, but what does that even mean? Did Hakon just drop her information they expected her to know out of nowhere? Could they trust her with that? Or perhaps it was his way of looping her in now that his head could be on the chopping block?
She knew who the Soulbringers were. Maybe. In her eyes, they were the elite force that was united under the princess of Aselengard. She knew their warriors, and dreamed of sparring with them-- but she always thought they would easily outclass someone like her, and would never ask to spar with them. Right? Right? Right? It was as if this moment was breaking down all the fundamental things she took for granted. In her self-absorbed quest to remain alive, she never put herself out in front of others, hiding behind a cold, disciplined, and indifferent exterior. Yet-- it was putting into practice her ideas of fighting to live that she truly becomes alive. Her shock at Hakon coming to save a wretch like her, the disgust she had for herself when Siara even bothered to visit her down in solitary confinement, only to be an outward mess, the cries and pleadings she made, begging for her own life at the hands of others, as if she needed their permission to live.
Landing upon the shiny landing pad that she picked out for herself, she remained standing, observant of the battlefield below-- she witnessed waves of people fighting for something of their own volition. They were a people who had come to their own conclusions about life and what it means to continue of living. They were fighting for land, for pride, for glory, or revenge-- all base emotions and feelings that make one alive. She wanted so badly, then, to take part of that kind of feeling. Yet-- she always found herself spared from the fighting, put aside for later like a child waiting to receive punishment.
No— she thought to herself, there was no way she was going to lay down and continue to remain dormant. She wanted to prove she was alive, right? So what will she do—? A sign, right— people usually leave their marks upon the world one way or another. It had to be something that everyone could see— she already created a wildfire, but people stayed away from that. She needed to make something that would make her valuable, indisposable.
She could finally regain hold of her own mind and body. She recovered enough to no longer require a support to simply remain standing. Ironically though— what was going to come next was definitely going to push her over the edge. If she were to perish thereafter, she would die with a smile, finally content with herself... right?
Manifesting her armor once more, she fully realized in her mind her preferred weapon, the crescent blade that she treasured so— using the one she was given at birth as a focus— she began to wince in pain, the her body aching from forcing a second transformation back-to-back, but she took on the Herculean effort to struggle against her own body. Planting the spear into the rock— a brilliant light covered her, to protect her dignity as her limbs transformed, amassing in size, the same scales that tried to take her over before now consuming her entirely. The red armor that protected her falling to the ground, disintegrating into ashes, all that was revealed underneath was a towering red dragon who looked up to the sky.
“Scream. Scream into the heavens so that they remember your name.”
Damnit— that voice again. Was it that being who was guiding her on autopilot? Did her out-of-body experiences originate from them? It didn’t matter either way— as she felt two distinct sound waves reverberate from her mouth, the ripple visible to the naked eye as it traveled through all that her eyes could see. It even reached the clouds above, those gray, stormy masses, parting them aside to reveal the sun’s rays. They began to extend down to the Earth, highlighting the three Soulbringer combatants who were facing the main enemy force. It’s brilliance shining for a brief moment, as the following phrase was delivered to them— as if she were telling them directly in their heads—
“You have heard my Lament— with it, you encumber my wish. Your hands are infused with mine fiery will. Your blows with mark targets with a great flame which will errupt shortly thereafter— and the Mandate invoked demands your continued survival.
May my flame’s warmth fuel your actions and it’s wisps clean off your minor wounds from your flesh.”
Finally— she got that all off her chest. Decompressing back into her human form, she clung onto the spear that she planted into the ground, she knelt down and collapsed face-first onto the rock. Perhaps that single magic spell would be insignificant in the long run— but it was proof of her existence nonetheless. Embracing the oblivion that came with unconsciousness, a smile forms on her face as she closes her eyes.
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