ROUX
Hand of the King
Alec had headed straight for the bathroom first in fact, knowing that it'd take him a moment to figure out exactly where he'd put the drive anyway. His head was pounding relentlessly, and the diziness was seriousy beginning to distract him, so why not go for the painkillers? He'd avoided them at first for a reason, they were a bit strong and they clashed with his other medicine...sometimes the effects weren't worth the relif from discomfort. But this wasn't just discomfort, and he was sure he could deal with whatver weird side effects his body would throw at him, as long as they didn't get in the way of his work, and that was only to say if he didn't get at least a significant amount done in the window of time before the medicine did its work.
Of course, he still had to worry about Azazel - Alec hadn't seen him upon coming in, thank god. He figured either the man had simply come and gone, or maybe was in his room...and if the latter was correct, Alec would simply have to find his work as fast as humanly possible and avoid any kind of contact altogether. He didn't know what he would even have said if he had run into the other, what - that he was sorry? But then for what? Maybe sorry for pulling that stunt in front of the crowd - even if it's been done out of the best intention. Sorry for trying at all then, for trying to make him see how he felt, or that he even felt at all? That'd be a straight up lie, however, because Alec wasn't sorry for that, could never be sorry for that. But he had a feeling it might be exactly what Azazel would have wanted to hear, Alec apologizing...for falling in love with him. Because that's what he'd done and he felt ridiculous for it, but it had happened, and when he'd gotten hurt it had into act hurt more than he ever had been. Of course maybe that was due to the fact that he'd never so much as taken an interest in anyone with romantics in mind, let alone another man. Especially not another man. And of all the people, he didn't know why it had to be Azazel. It wasn't love at first sight, no, but definitely interest.
He swallowed the pills down, not bothering with any water and instead just taking it in hopes of getting to take its effect faster. He shut the glass cabinet, turning away from it and staring down to that spot where he'd spent the night in tears, before leaning down and tossing the bloody tissues into the trash bin, sighing and slowly straightening, careful not to hurt his head. He then left, pulling his hood down and hat off to reveal his more than disheveled head of hair, hand still against his head. There hadn't been bandages but there was gauze, and though it was already feeling damp under his fingers, it was holding the liquid better than just paper towel. He was in fact, still ignoring the sickening feelings, though that proved harder to do as he approached his room. At this point he might as well have been as white as a sheet, the slights been of sweat covering his forehead as he immediately felt the nausea creep up on him, along with the smell. Thank god he'd remembered where the drive was, just in his desk. He could grab it and go, and probably never set foot in that ugly reminder of a room again - or at least that's what he thought he would do. That's not what he got when he opened that door though, and he dropped the hat in his hand. He didn't blink, for fear of what he might have been seeing would disappear and then he'd have to wonder if he was going crazy, although maybe he would have been happier if they really weren't there - Aiden and Azazel that was. He couldn't even process what they were doing, let alone think about why they were here. And even though he couldn't process it, his mind surely tried. All those emotions, and the questions, and the pain, and now the fatigue - he felt it just before he went down, felt it dragging him down. Interestingly enough, the one thought he'd had before he eventually did drop to the floor hadn't been those 'why's either, no, something he was afraid of really. He wondered if Azazel would beat him now, as he'd done to so many others for lesser things...it wasn't as if he could stop the man. Maybe he deserved it...and maybe that was why there was a twisted feeling of sadness and pain as he felt his head this against the carpet - in that same bloody spot as well - before he finally slipped into unconsciousness.
Of course, he still had to worry about Azazel - Alec hadn't seen him upon coming in, thank god. He figured either the man had simply come and gone, or maybe was in his room...and if the latter was correct, Alec would simply have to find his work as fast as humanly possible and avoid any kind of contact altogether. He didn't know what he would even have said if he had run into the other, what - that he was sorry? But then for what? Maybe sorry for pulling that stunt in front of the crowd - even if it's been done out of the best intention. Sorry for trying at all then, for trying to make him see how he felt, or that he even felt at all? That'd be a straight up lie, however, because Alec wasn't sorry for that, could never be sorry for that. But he had a feeling it might be exactly what Azazel would have wanted to hear, Alec apologizing...for falling in love with him. Because that's what he'd done and he felt ridiculous for it, but it had happened, and when he'd gotten hurt it had into act hurt more than he ever had been. Of course maybe that was due to the fact that he'd never so much as taken an interest in anyone with romantics in mind, let alone another man. Especially not another man. And of all the people, he didn't know why it had to be Azazel. It wasn't love at first sight, no, but definitely interest.
He swallowed the pills down, not bothering with any water and instead just taking it in hopes of getting to take its effect faster. He shut the glass cabinet, turning away from it and staring down to that spot where he'd spent the night in tears, before leaning down and tossing the bloody tissues into the trash bin, sighing and slowly straightening, careful not to hurt his head. He then left, pulling his hood down and hat off to reveal his more than disheveled head of hair, hand still against his head. There hadn't been bandages but there was gauze, and though it was already feeling damp under his fingers, it was holding the liquid better than just paper towel. He was in fact, still ignoring the sickening feelings, though that proved harder to do as he approached his room. At this point he might as well have been as white as a sheet, the slights been of sweat covering his forehead as he immediately felt the nausea creep up on him, along with the smell. Thank god he'd remembered where the drive was, just in his desk. He could grab it and go, and probably never set foot in that ugly reminder of a room again - or at least that's what he thought he would do. That's not what he got when he opened that door though, and he dropped the hat in his hand. He didn't blink, for fear of what he might have been seeing would disappear and then he'd have to wonder if he was going crazy, although maybe he would have been happier if they really weren't there - Aiden and Azazel that was. He couldn't even process what they were doing, let alone think about why they were here. And even though he couldn't process it, his mind surely tried. All those emotions, and the questions, and the pain, and now the fatigue - he felt it just before he went down, felt it dragging him down. Interestingly enough, the one thought he'd had before he eventually did drop to the floor hadn't been those 'why's either, no, something he was afraid of really. He wondered if Azazel would beat him now, as he'd done to so many others for lesser things...it wasn't as if he could stop the man. Maybe he deserved it...and maybe that was why there was a twisted feeling of sadness and pain as he felt his head this against the carpet - in that same bloody spot as well - before he finally slipped into unconsciousness.