• When posting, please be aware that artistic nudity is still nudity and not allowed under RpNation rules. Please edit your pictures accordingly!

    Remember to credit artists when using work not your own.

Apologies to myself, my love, and my family

Darkness1001

Irl king of Hell
<p>


<span style="color:#cc99ff;"><strong>Some Background: </strong></span> <strong><span style="color:#a64dff;">Ok, this poem is a slightly darker one about the things I wish I hadn't done in my past. It is in the form of a list, one of apologies at that. I will apologize in advanced, as there are darker themes and such, so I encourage you to proceed with caution. </span></strong> <span style="font-size:36px;"><span style="color:#ff0000;"><strong>_______________________________________</strong></span></span><span style="font-size:36px;"><span style="color:#ff0000;"> </span></span><span style="font-size:36px;"><span style="color:#ff0000;"><strong>_______________________________________</strong></span></span><span style="font-size:36px;"><span style="color:#ff0000;"> </span></span><span style="font-size:36px;"><span style="color:#ff0000;"><strong>_______________________________________</strong></span></span> <span style="color:#ff0000;"><strong><span style="font-size:36px;">WARNING:</span></strong></span><span style="color:#ff0000;"><strong> </strong></span><span style="color:#ff0000;"><strong><span style="font-size:36px;">THIS POEM CONTAINS DARK AND POTENTIALLY TRIGGERING CONTENT. PLEASE CONTINUE READING AT YOUR OWN RISK.</span></strong></span><span style="color:#ff0000;"> </span><span style="color:#ff0000;"><strong><span style="font-size:36px;">_______________________________________</span></strong></span><span style="color:#ff0000;"> </span><span style="color:#ff0000;"><strong><span style="font-size:36px;">_______________________________________</span></strong></span><span style="color:#ff0000;"> </span><span style="color:#ff0000;"><strong><span style="font-size:36px;">_______________________________________</span></strong></span><span style="color:#ff0000;"> </span><span style="color:#ff0000;"><strong><span style="font-size:36px;">_______________________________________</span></strong></span> </p>


<div style="text-align:left;"><p><span style="font-family:'Courier New';"><span style="font-size:14px;"><span style="color:#000000;">Forgive me parents for not being the daughter you wanted. I apologize, but I will never be your little girl. To my body, I’m sorry I destroyed you so thoroughly. The blade was only supposed to tear my skin. My loves, pardon the way I never voice how I feel . I’m sorry for the way I never call. Pardon me, mind, for the way I think. I can’t help the constant sadness that brings this negativity. My voice doesn’t deserve to be used for the terrible things I say and have said. The problem is that I must always say something, as I am afraid of silence. For anyone who has taken me to dinner, I’m sorry for being unable to order food for myself. I should say sorry to my skin for biting and mutilating it when I’m stressed. Just know that me apologizing doesn’t mean I’ll stop. Blood, please understand that I left you on the towels and on the ground for a reason. It’s nothing personal, but I just couldn’t stand to keep you in my body anymore. To the scars on my body, I’m sorry you exist. I’m so sorry I created you. To everyone who hates me and who I think hate me, I’m sorry I exist. I wish I didn’t too, you know. Forgive me best friend for not being there when you needed me. I wish I had been but I have problems too. Forgive me Mother for being so damned weak. I know we’ve met one time, but you saw who was once your daughter become your sad son. I’m sorry to my headphones for how much I use you. I’m also sorry I finally lost you. Pardon me my friends, for asking so much of you. I never do anything for you in return, and I think you should just leave me. I apologize for everything I’ve ever done to hurt you, future self. Honestly though, I’m not even sure you’re going to exist. I’m sorry for always apologizing too much. I know this is a list of apologies, and I’m sorry for that too. I apologize for the facade, but I’m afraid you’ll tire of what I really am. I’m sorry I barely feel anything at all.</span></span></span></p></div>


<p>


</p>
 
Last edited by a moderator:
This made me teary-eyed. It will all be okay, my friend!! You're still trying to find yourself, ever-changing, and that's all right. Don't be sorry for not fitting the societal standards that try to dictate how you should behave. Stay strong <3. (And if you ever need to vent or want to talk or anything, you can come talk to me!).
 
Darkmaster006 said:
This made me teary-eyed. It will all be okay, my friend!! You're still trying to find yourself, ever-changing, and that's all right. Don't be sorry for not fitting the societal standards that try to dictate how you should behave. Stay strong <3. (And if you ever need to vent or want to talk or anything, you can come talk to me!).
I appreciate that, dear. I'm getting better though! Once more, thank you.
 
I started reading this, not expecting much, but in all honesty it affected me a little more than I expected.


Not majorly affected, I'm completely fine, but it still reminded me of a thing or two.


Anyway, not badly written, just a few minor grammar errors that most wouldn't notice and are barely worth mentioning.


+10 points for actually getting a reaction from me
 
TheDox said:
I started reading this, not expecting much, but in all honesty it affected me a little more than I expected.
Not majorly affected, I'm completely fine, but it still reminded me of a thing or two.


Anyway, not badly written, just a few minor grammar errors that most wouldn't notice and are barely worth mentioning.


+10 points for actually getting a reaction from me
Thank you so much!
 

Users who are viewing this thread

Back
Top