Apologies to myself, my love, and my family

[Darkness1001]

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<span style="color:#cc99ff;"><strong>Some Background: </strong></span> <strong><span style="color:#a64dff;">Ok, this poem is a slightly darker one about the things I wish I hadn't done in my past. It is in the form of a list, one of apologies at that. I will apologize in advanced, as there are darker themes and such, so I encourage you to proceed with caution. </span></strong> <span style="font-size:36px;"><span style="color:#ff0000;"><strong>_______________________________________</strong></span></span><span style="font-size:36px;"><span style="color:#ff0000;"> </span></span><span style="font-size:36px;"><span style="color:#ff0000;"><strong>_______________________________________</strong></span></span><span style="font-size:36px;"><span style="color:#ff0000;"> </span></span><span style="font-size:36px;"><span style="color:#ff0000;"><strong>_______________________________________</strong></span></span> <span style="color:#ff0000;"><strong><span style="font-size:36px;">WARNING:</span></strong></span><span style="color:#ff0000;"><strong> </strong></span><span style="color:#ff0000;"><strong><span style="font-size:36px;">THIS POEM CONTAINS DARK AND POTENTIALLY TRIGGERING CONTENT. PLEASE CONTINUE READING AT YOUR OWN RISK.</span></strong></span><span style="color:#ff0000;"> </span><span style="color:#ff0000;"><strong><span style="font-size:36px;">_______________________________________</span></strong></span><span style="color:#ff0000;"> </span><span style="color:#ff0000;"><strong><span style="font-size:36px;">_______________________________________</span></strong></span><span style="color:#ff0000;"> </span><span style="color:#ff0000;"><strong><span style="font-size:36px;">_______________________________________</span></strong></span><span style="color:#ff0000;"> </span><span style="color:#ff0000;"><strong><span style="font-size:36px;">_______________________________________</span></strong></span> </p>


<div style="text-align:left;"><p><span style="font-family:'Courier New';"><span style="font-size:14px;"><span style="color:#000000;">Forgive me parents for not being the daughter you wanted. I apologize, but I will never be your little girl. To my body, I’m sorry I destroyed you so thoroughly. The blade was only supposed to tear my skin. My loves, pardon the way I never voice how I feel . I’m sorry for the way I never call. Pardon me, mind, for the way I think. I can’t help the constant sadness that brings this negativity. My voice doesn’t deserve to be used for the terrible things I say and have said. The problem is that I must always say something, as I am afraid of silence. For anyone who has taken me to dinner, I’m sorry for being unable to order food for myself. I should say sorry to my skin for biting and mutilating it when I’m stressed. Just know that me apologizing doesn’t mean I’ll stop. Blood, please understand that I left you on the towels and on the ground for a reason. It’s nothing personal, but I just couldn’t stand to keep you in my body anymore. To the scars on my body, I’m sorry you exist. I’m so sorry I created you. To everyone who hates me and who I think hate me, I’m sorry I exist. I wish I didn’t too, you know. Forgive me best friend for not being there when you needed me. I wish I had been but I have problems too. Forgive me Mother for being so damned weak. I know we’ve met one time, but you saw who was once your daughter become your sad son. I’m sorry to my headphones for how much I use you. I’m also sorry I finally lost you. Pardon me my friends, for asking so much of you. I never do anything for you in return, and I think you should just leave me. I apologize for everything I’ve ever done to hurt you, future self. Honestly though, I’m not even sure you’re going to exist. I’m sorry for always apologizing too much. I know this is a list of apologies, and I’m sorry for that too. I apologize for the facade, but I’m afraid you’ll tire of what I really am. I’m sorry I barely feel anything at all.</span></span></span></p></div>


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[Darkmaster006]

This made me teary-eyed. It will all be okay, my friend!! You're still trying to find yourself, ever-changing, and that's all right. Don't be sorry for not fitting the societal standards that try to dictate how you should behave. Stay strong . (And if you ever need to vent or want to talk or anything, you can come talk to me!).

 

[Darkness1001]

This made me teary-eyed. It will all be okay, my friend!! You're still trying to find yourself, ever-changing, and that's all right. Don't be sorry for not fitting the societal standards that try to dictate how you should behave. Stay strong . (And if you ever need to vent or want to talk or anything, you can come talk to me!).

I appreciate that, dear. I'm getting better though! Once more, thank you.

 

[TheDox]

I started reading this, not expecting much, but in all honesty it affected me a little more than I expected.


Not majorly affected, I'm completely fine, but it still reminded me of a thing or two.


Anyway, not badly written, just a few minor grammar errors that most wouldn't notice and are barely worth mentioning.


+10 points for actually getting a reaction from me

 

[Darkness1001]

I started reading this, not expecting much, but in all honesty it affected me a little more than I expected.
Not majorly affected, I'm completely fine, but it still reminded me of a thing or two.


Anyway, not badly written, just a few minor grammar errors that most wouldn't notice and are barely worth mentioning.


+10 points for actually getting a reaction from me

Thank you so much!

 

[Kestrel]

I'm not crying, someone's just cutting onions in my room. I love how blunt and honest it is.

 

[Darkness1001]

I'm not crying, someone's just cutting onions in my room. I love how blunt and honest it is.

Thank you so much!