Across the Tracks, Right?

[tamaracorine]

She looked down as he patted her head, biting her lip to silence herself. The time to say whatever came to her mind wasn't this one. She shrugged, taking a step back to put distance between herself and Quin. "I'll go." she told him quietly. "I'll find... something to do for the night.. something helpful... and then when you've decided whatever it is you need to decide, come find me... or don't... or... whatever." she shrugged, then looked up at him, frowning, "Quin, I don't know if you love me or you don't. I feel like you can't decide if it's all a trick, or if it's real, and... it's scary. I'm in a vulnerable position with you... and I guess I'd just like to know where I stand. Let me know." she turned, ready to leave.

 

[Sero]

"Wait." Quin struggled with words, wondering how to explain it. He wasn't really good at this. He pretended. He was good at pretending. "Jamie. Do you want to know? My feelings...these....strange contridictions running around my head? I'll tell you. I don't mind telling you. You deserve to know by now." He tried, already hoping to form reasons and speculations on his own behavior.


"Illl tell you."

 

[tamaracorine]

"I want to know." Jamie told him quietly, moving away from him and sitting on the floor by the window, the last of the day's sunshine coming in and warming her back. She looked up at Quin expectantly, her knees pulled to her chest and her head resting on the edge of her knees. "But don't screw with me... please."

 

[Sero]

"Ouch." He tried, cracking a smile even though it didn't really look like one. "My feelings...for you are complicated I guess. I'm not the best at this but please...er, try. I'll try too." He shifted, attempting you forge the right words. "You're uniques, like...a special brand of tea I guess...god this is sonding bad already. I feel...really protective of you for some reason and...the idea of someone else having you makes me cringe. However, I guess I'm uncertain as to whether what I'm getting back is real. You're like...first love and me, being the..moron I am, can't figure out if I'm doing anything right. I mean, I don't pick up well on cues either do I?" Well... what else.


"How to say, when I see you I get this constricting feeling in my chest and feel kind of nervous, and you make me feel kind of like a fool too, not in a bad way I guess. I kind of like it because I'm forced to look at your side of the fence. God, um, to sum it up, even though Im curious about the other side of that fence, the whole side would seem like a void without you. I feel kind of...lonely. Like, I think I've always been lonely but didn't notice it until you filled me up." He coughed avertedly. "Sorry, I...don't even know that's...that's just what I think."

 

[tamaracorine]

Jamie's eyes remained glued to Quin as he spoke, blinking very rarely. Her lips curled into a smile every now and then, then settled back to a neutral position. "Here's the thing, Quin... Love and trust go hand in hand, and... you need to trust that I'm not doing something wrong, and that I'm not going to walk away from you... Please. Do you trust me?"

 

[Sero]

"Well, by now, I'll...I'll trust you." God he was embarressed as hell and wanted to die and hide his body under the bed. He hated it. "I'll trust you so, please trust me. Everything I do is to protect you. I promise. Even if it sounds crazy right now I'll prove it to you. So wait for it okay?"

 

[tamaracorine]

"Okay." She smiled, standing up and moving over to the bed, sitting beside him. "I trust you. And you trust me. We can do this... We can." Jamie leaned slightly to the side, her shoulder against Quin's. Her knees were pulled to her chest again, indicating that she wasn't sure of herself just yet. "Quin, I'm sorry for being so... sensitive. I don't mean to be."

 

[Sero]

Quin swallowed, trhing tokfigure out his feelings abouyt this. "Well, yes. Yes we can do this so...dnt worry about being sensitive, I mean I'm just as bad right? Sowhat can I say?" He asked in a hopeful tone. He was going to stop moping. "We will be totally fine."

 

[tamaracorine]

Jamie nodded and smiled, turning her head to pull him into a slow, comfortable kiss. She closed her eyes as they kissed and then sighed, "Want to talk about what we'll do about your father, or do you want to relax? I'm happy to just lay here with you, if you like."