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My puns are so bad, even the Devil wouldn't laugh at them! *Rim shot* *Many, many crickets chirping* 

Whenever I watch a hellish anime like "Dance with Devils" or even the 1970s' anime "Devilman"; I do (here it comes...) feel quite devilish!  :Horns:  Or impish, if you prefer... 

Okay, so some good news on my free time front... I have a Norton Anthology book and earlier this evening, I found out that Charles Boudelaire's "Flowers of Evil" poem is in it! I'm very happy about it, considering two years ago I saw an anime with the same name based loosely off of his work... Now I can read the source material and compare it cynically to the high school based anime lol!   :Horns:

Sorry to anyone I'm conversing with, my computer is evil... I can't wait to get my new one, soon! But on the upside, I'm rewatching "Dance with Devils". So many waifus, on that show  ! If you want to find out what I mean, YouTube or Hulu it... Especially for my female friends. 

I'm sorry to all of my friends who I hurt with one of my recent posts, I just haven't been well tonight and I need some kindness, hugs and more food... Lots of brokenhearted, platonic  <x3 ! And thank you to everyone who has been so kind in their replies to my posts. 

So I decided to break my own heart tonight and I don't completely regret it... Right now, my emotions are too fresh to really understand everything yet.  

I honestly feel like no-one cares about me, even if it's not true... I feel like I'm always the one who comforts everyone else and while I usually don't mind; I just wish someone would be willing to listen to me rant and rave; and complain and be depressed. I'm always the superheroine, always helping everyone else. But what I don't think most people realize is that like Spider-Man did (Spider-Man 2, Raimi's cut), I need to be rescued too... 

I think I'm going to break my own heart, in a few minutes... It's going to hurt, but since I've already been hurting -- What's the big deal? 

On the upside, the brownie bowl dessert I made is really delicious... 


Ingredients: Chocolate brownies, peanut butter, marshmallows, nutella and caramel syrup. 


How to Make It: 1. Take three small chocolate brownies, take a table spoon of peanut butter and spread it on the brownies. 2. Take a table spoon of nutella and spread it on the brownies; don't be afraid to blend the peanut butter and nutella. 3. Then put three or four small marshmallows around the brownies. 4. Heat in the microwave for 37 seconds, but check at 27 seconds and stop at 7 seconds when if you can smell the brownies. 5. Drizzle caramel syrup all over the heated brownie bowl 6. Get a spoon 7. Enjoy! 


Free Recipe courtesy of Sukai! 

It's always on my worst days, people start trying me... Why can't I just sulk and post depressing things; just like everyone else on this site does sometimes? Do I need to spell it out for people?? I'm NOT always happy, sometimes I post deep crap and other times I just want to be upset! It's called being human, damn it... 

Eating chocolate brownies and being depressed; today is definitely the worst day of my life so far... I kind of wish I could die or at least go to sleep and never wake up. Sorry for the dark post. God forbid anything good happen to me... Ever! 

Okay here's some food for thought: Why are people so adamant on hating each-other and pointing fingers? I know there is so much corruption in the world, I know there are so many horrendous things happening to all kinds of innocent people. And I know one movement is not going to solve the problem all together... But why can't we all just love? Like love and accept each-other. Why can't we all embrace each-other, unconditionally? And just see our similarities as gifts and our differences as strengths. Why is everyone so up against each-other in this world? I honestly wonder... If some kind of Utopian world exists, will any of us in this world ever make it there? That's the greatest unknown for me... But anyway. I can't be the only one, who wonders about this stuff right? And I'm not talking about one specific political occurrence or human rights movement. This is an overall set of questions. And to be clear, I'm not trying to spread more hatred or create more division between people. I just want to know... Why? 

*Sings loudly, off-key* BABY, YOU'RE A FIIIIIIIIIIIIREWORK, COME ON, SHOW EM' WHAT YOU'RE WORTH! MAKE EM' GO AH-AH-AH, AS YOU SHOOT ACROSS THE SKY-I-I-I... BABY, YOU'RE A FIIIIIIIIIIREWORK, COME ON LET YOUR COLORS BURST; MAKE EM' GO AH-AH-AH, YOU'RE GONNA LEAVE EM' GOIN' AH-AH-AHAAAAAAHHH! *Strings end the song* 


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 Random post finished! 

It's still cold, in here somber lolzness! 

It's oh so cold, it's oh so freezing... It's oh so cold in here, it's oh so still and so peaceful until... 

New 1-on-1 RP search up, feel free to check it out and join if you'd like!:  


https://www.rpnation.com/topic/295929-children-who-chase-lost-voices-crossover/

That moment when you can't tell if someone is joking or not... Well there's no point in wondering about it, I need to have some fun! So if you haven't checked it out, check this out!: https://www.rpnation.com/topic/295483-sailor-ghoul/#comment-7451741


My homework is finished for the night, so if anyone has the audacity to join me; prove it... 

Was the movie "Fun Size", any good? I'm thinking of watching it online, at some point lol... 

If that jerk from KamiCon really thinks I'll accept his friend request under a new name, he needs to reevaluate his life and if he should keep living it... I swear creeps need to die or at the very least, be hit with chairs, multiple times... In a very brutal, hard mannerism! Rant over... For now. 

Watching Pati's Mexican Table, it's such a great show! And in a few minutes, I'm going to enjoy some nacho chips and Queso. Great Thursday meal lolz...  

Also heads up, I'm getting bolder in my opinions so if I offend you then ignore me... I just don't think that what I went through is right and it's not the first time, I've been bullied and harassed on an RP site. People must really believe I'm weak, but the problem is I'm not. If you don't like me, that's fine but if you think I'm going to tolerate BS... Think again. I'll handle idiots, somehow. I don't put up with bullies, creeps and people without compassion. I make it known and I'm not the type to leave because of fear... People need to stop underestimating me, that's all I can say. 

Although I really like the ignore button, I still think there needs to be a better way to stop harassment on this website. Especially with people who are relentless and feel the twisted emotional drive to bully people; they should be banned from the site and told to take their nonsense somewhere else. I don't see how it's fair that I can post cute updates that have nothing to do with negativity; and people are allowed to harass me then try to victimize themselves when I call them out on it. It's stupid... I think bullies should be reported (as I've done), blocked (or ignored in this case) and best case scenario kicked off of this site. No-one should be able to get away with making other people miserable, just because they have literally no life outside of the internet. I hope the administrators hear me out on this one. It's more than just me, I'm sure of that... 

Kind of want to talk to someone, I don't talk to much on this website... But I'm scared it will be the end of my late night fun lol. And the irony is, I kinda hope the person I'm referring to doesn't see this post and get the wrong idea. I'm not crushing, I just want to get out of my comfort zone lol! 

Katy Perry's older hit "Wide Awake" is becoming more and more prevalent in my life, for some reason. I haven't been completely depressed but I haven't been completely chipper lately either, so I guess I'm finding the balance in experiencing all emotions again. I used to be numb to happiness to be honest, all I could feel on a daily basis was hatred, rage, sorrow and vengefulness. Now I'm learning to feel again... It's quite frightening, but I'm glad it didn't take ten years. Well that's my spiritual, emotional and psychological update for you guys! Hopefully someone gets it lol.  <x3

I know it's lame to be sad over a C grade on a test, but I'm extremely hard on myself and I think I could do better than a C. It's partly perfectionism and partially wanting to succeed in school; and having the rewarding feeling of doing better on a test than I thought I could. So if anyone was wondering why I used a sad face, now you know. I hope this post is somewhat relatable...