TheHufflepuffRabbit
Weird Bunny Lurker
Between the three of them, roleplay, acting, and anime have all saved my life. Had I never discovered them, I wouldn't even be here.
By the time I was ten, my mother was just beginning her second marriage with a guy named Bob (name changed for personal reasons). Things were looking up for me. Finally, I would have a father figure to look up to, to talk to about....just about everything. However, after six months, things....changed. The two of them fought nonstop about anything and everything. You name it, they probably fought about it at one point. Sometimes, I had to walk in on their arguments to tell them to do things that parents should do, like make their kids dinner, or wish them a good night. Nothing was right. Unless, of course, they went hiking. Bob and Mom loved the outdoors. I hated it.
I had been acting for a while through all of this, so I decided to continue acting. It gave me two hours away from the fight, two hours to be a normal person. I was one of the best people for supporting roles, and soon, I graduated to lead roles. I was so happy to be able to be free. It felt nice pretending to be someone like Rumpelstiltskin, or Cinderella. I also had something to focus on besides staying away from family issues.
However, when rehearsals ended, all went downhill. My mother would show up pissed off. The car ride home was often deadly silent. When we got home, I would grab some leftovers and heat them up. Mom and Bob would fight.
So, anyways, skipping ahead to age twelve. I was ecstatic when I received an iPod Touch for my birthday, courtesy of my father. I now was able to plug the earbuds in and turn it up. Loud. That's when I discovered the amazing anime OSTs. One of them, my all-time favorite, was this one:
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I went out back, playing that song, swinging back and forth from the enormous willow tree, unable to hear the fighting, and only went inside when it got dark. Somehow, neither of the adults noticed. I then started watching anime, my first one being Fruits Basket. I fell in love with the characters and began watching more and more.
Then, still going on with the acting, I discovered roleplay. I was still a little young, so I went onto one of the mildest forums I could find, and wrote my heart out.
One day, though, the fighting had gotten louder and louder, so loud that none of my songs could block it out. We were supposed to go to a festival that day. When my mom finally left the room, angry once again, I finally confronted her. Two years of bottled-up anger and sadness came rushing out, all at once. I called her a bitch. That was the first time I had ever said a curse word stronger than "crap". She burst into tears. I didn't pity her, and I still don't. I'm sorry, but after all I had gone through, I wasn't able to find it in my heart to care. She told me that she and Bob were getting divorced. I walked away. The last thing I said before I left was, "fuck this family".
That night, I stayed up late writing. Roleplaying. It relaxed me and I made it through the night without a tear shed.
Now, a few years later, I'm not even living with my mom. I'm in a safe place with other family and little to no conflict. I still watch anime, I still write, and I still act. I'm part of the Thespians Society and I fit in there. I roleplay almost daily. I consider myself an otaku. But most importantly, I'm happy. I can't say that my family troubles are over, but they're getting better. And I'm proud of that.
~Thank you for all the likes and follows, it means a lot to me~
By the time I was ten, my mother was just beginning her second marriage with a guy named Bob (name changed for personal reasons). Things were looking up for me. Finally, I would have a father figure to look up to, to talk to about....just about everything. However, after six months, things....changed. The two of them fought nonstop about anything and everything. You name it, they probably fought about it at one point. Sometimes, I had to walk in on their arguments to tell them to do things that parents should do, like make their kids dinner, or wish them a good night. Nothing was right. Unless, of course, they went hiking. Bob and Mom loved the outdoors. I hated it.
I had been acting for a while through all of this, so I decided to continue acting. It gave me two hours away from the fight, two hours to be a normal person. I was one of the best people for supporting roles, and soon, I graduated to lead roles. I was so happy to be able to be free. It felt nice pretending to be someone like Rumpelstiltskin, or Cinderella. I also had something to focus on besides staying away from family issues.
However, when rehearsals ended, all went downhill. My mother would show up pissed off. The car ride home was often deadly silent. When we got home, I would grab some leftovers and heat them up. Mom and Bob would fight.
So, anyways, skipping ahead to age twelve. I was ecstatic when I received an iPod Touch for my birthday, courtesy of my father. I now was able to plug the earbuds in and turn it up. Loud. That's when I discovered the amazing anime OSTs. One of them, my all-time favorite, was this one:
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I went out back, playing that song, swinging back and forth from the enormous willow tree, unable to hear the fighting, and only went inside when it got dark. Somehow, neither of the adults noticed. I then started watching anime, my first one being Fruits Basket. I fell in love with the characters and began watching more and more.
Then, still going on with the acting, I discovered roleplay. I was still a little young, so I went onto one of the mildest forums I could find, and wrote my heart out.
One day, though, the fighting had gotten louder and louder, so loud that none of my songs could block it out. We were supposed to go to a festival that day. When my mom finally left the room, angry once again, I finally confronted her. Two years of bottled-up anger and sadness came rushing out, all at once. I called her a bitch. That was the first time I had ever said a curse word stronger than "crap". She burst into tears. I didn't pity her, and I still don't. I'm sorry, but after all I had gone through, I wasn't able to find it in my heart to care. She told me that she and Bob were getting divorced. I walked away. The last thing I said before I left was, "fuck this family".
That night, I stayed up late writing. Roleplaying. It relaxed me and I made it through the night without a tear shed.
Now, a few years later, I'm not even living with my mom. I'm in a safe place with other family and little to no conflict. I still watch anime, I still write, and I still act. I'm part of the Thespians Society and I fit in there. I roleplay almost daily. I consider myself an otaku. But most importantly, I'm happy. I can't say that my family troubles are over, but they're getting better. And I'm proud of that.
~Thank you for all the likes and follows, it means a lot to me~
