Celestial Speck
I'm not a bad guy, I swear!
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When he came to be, all memories of the past hour had been nothing but dreams inside his head.
Hiru's eyes opened from his bed. Their usually tired and half-open appearance seemed different today, and the boy couldn't place his finger on it. Was it perhaps that he surprisingly didn't feel the morning sensation of still being asleep? The strange feeling of surfing between the realm of unconsciousness and consciousness like he always does? No, no. While it was rare, he could feel surprisingly awake at times, yes. So what~ RRRRRRRR~ could~ RRRRRRRRR~ it be~
The sound of the alarm clock ringing next to his ear didn't seem to bother him. As the boy simply stood there, looking up at the ceiling like some sort of coma patient who had just woken up. The noise meant to wake him up that should last only a few seconds before he turned it off seemed to last longer than necessary. Soon, the sound of the alarm clock ringing all over the Namaya household could be heard, as Hiru simply stood there.
"Hiru-? Hiru!" A muffled voice from downstairs called him, seemingly going up the stairs. That caused a reaction. His eyes blinked, as he turned to look at the door of his room. Ah, right, it's...
From the door, came a middle aged- maybe a bit older- man. His grey hair reached his shoulders, and a large portion of it was kept in a ponytail. His face showed that age got to him, but it didn't make him feel old as hell, or with his skin hanging by a thread. It seemed to accentuate a healthy lifestyle with constant aging. A familiar figure, yet as Hiru looked at him as he sat on his bed, he tilted his head. The alarm clock was still ringing.
"Hiru! Why aren't you downstairs? I thought you managed to fall asleep to the sound of the alarm clock, jeez..."
...Kiryu Namaya. Hiru's grandfather and guardian. Now he remembered it. His memory seemed so fuzzy all of a sudden...
Offering a smile that seemed a bit too wide, Hiru put his hands on his mouth and chuckled. "Hehehehe...Sorry, grandpa~ I just woke up...I was going to turn off the alarm clock right now..."
The man raised an eyebrow, before crossing his arms and sighing, adjusting the glasses on his face. "...It's been 3 minutes that your alarm clock has been ringing nonstop, kiddo. I feel like you wouldn't have moved an inch if I didn't come here. Seriously, do you want me to start screaming to the neighborhood?" Despite his tone, there was no malice in his words. Yet, his comment only made Hiru tilt his head. 3 minutes...? It felt less than 1...Wasn't there a term for that? .flow? No, that's a videogame...Flow. A state where the body goes on autopilot, or just--
"Hiru. Hiru. You're spacing out again."
The boy blinked, scratching the back of his head with a chuckle. "Hahaha...Sorry, gramps...This feels so weird...It feels like I've woken up from a dream...I never felt so refreshed..."
The man snorted and offered his grandchild a smile. "If you're like this when you're refreshed, then I don't want to see you when you're completely exhausted." With a nod to his head gesturing to outside the boy's room, Kiryu started to walk downstairs. "C'mon. Breakfast is ready. You gotta go to school today. It ain't Saturday yet."
Ah, right-! School! Despite Hiru's smile not faltering, he couldn't help but remember strange flashes inside his head. A school bus...A cop...A dark mine...A nightmare...A terrible nightmare...
...Ugh, his head hurt just thinking about it. He shouldn't focus too much on that...He'll space out again and make grandpa angry...With relatively quicker speeds to his usual self, Hiru quickly changed from his long pajamas to his usual uniform. A long jacket that covered his hands, (a gift from someone) the usual uniform underneath, eye covers, his phone, his headphones...His bag, his stuff, ahh...Is that all? It should be, it should be...He promised gramps he wouldn't forget anything anymore, and to make gramps happy, he's gotta be determined! With puffed cheeks and a smile, Hiru essentially slid downstairs with notable energy.
It was the usual scene. A little ritual he went through. Grandpa on the table, reading the news on his phone and the local news on his newspaper (somehow), and they chatted for a bit before Hiru went to school, or rather, his grandpa led him there. Despite it being not too far away from his household, Kiryu just felt more comfortable driving Hiru there.
Hiru smiled. "Good morning, grandpa~" The boy said in a drowsy tone, his smile still on his face, as his hands popped out of his jacket like Bobbit worms to snatch some food. Hmmm...Toast...Not the best, but not the worst... "How are you feeling today, grandpa? Are you happy? I hope you're happy today...I'm feeling really fine myself today, y'know!" His voice was filled with energy. Something that Kiryu was not used to. The man blinked and stared at Hiru like he was some sort of alien.
"...You sure you're Hiru? I never saw you speak so loudly before, kiddo." A sip from his coffee, and analytical eyes. It was clear he was trying to figure out what has gotten Hiru, resident narcoleptic in such a strange mood today. But, the boy just chuckled.
"Sorry, gramps! I just feel...Energized today. Like a weight was lifted from my shoulders, I dunno why! It just feels...I dunno, I just feel comfortable today."
The face of Kiryu seemed like a mix. A part of him was eyeing Hiru with suspicion, the other seemed pleased with the fact the boy seemingly felt 'happy' today. Although, he gave an occasional glance at his newspaper, before going back at Hiru, almost as if reading something. Soon, closing it, a smile came from his lips as he gave the boy a pat on the head, messing up his already messy hair even further. "Well, I'm glad you feel that way, Hiru. Any reason as to why?"
"Ah, well, I dunno...I just had a strange dream today, but that's all, really."
"A dream?" Kiryu asked, raising an eyebrow. He had a feeling he's had this conversation with Hiru before. The boy wasn't one to talk about his dreams or his sleep so freely. "...Well, you mind tellin' you old fart 'bout it? Must'a been one hell of a dream if it managed to get you in this mood."
"Hmmm~ Maybe later. I still have to go to school today, don't I? I don't wanna be late~"
Kiryu's other brow was raised, now making his face form a look of genuine surprise. The words 'I don't want to be late' were never muttered by Hiru before. At least not in such a serious tone before. After all, it was Hiru. If he gained a 1000 Yen every time he fell asleep or overslept, he wouldn't have a lot but it would still be weird. But...Regardless of that... "...Mrghm-" He cleared his throat, and at the same time, his surprise.
"...Right. About that. Hiru, you mind walkin' to school by yourself today? I gotta pick up a friend from work and I feel like we'd take too much time if I'd be bringing you as well. I don't mind, I just feel like you'd end up late, aye? You don't want to end up in detention, do you?"
The boy blinked. His smile was gone for a moment, as he tilted his head. "Detention? Didn't I..."
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"...Hmm~ Nevermind~! It's no problems, gramps! I remember the way to school...I'll arrive there in no time, I promise you!"
"You sure? I don't want you gettin' lost, kiddo. I don't want to end up havin' to drag your butt from the Red Light District." Kiryu insisted on the fact it wasn't a good idea, despite being the one who suggested it in the first place. A part of him regretted telling Hiru that.
"I'll be fine, don't worry! I know I sleep in the car a lot...But believe in me, gramps!" With a strangely enthusiastic smile, Hiru offered a grin, and a thumbs up, as eating his last piece of toast, he got up from his chair, putting his backpack on. "Now, go on, gramps! I probably took too much of our time with my spacing out. We better get going! I love you!" With a hug towards Kiryu, who seemed surprised yet again by this gesture, Hiru made his way towards the door.
"Ah, Hiru, wait!"
The boy did so. Midway through opening the door to the outside, he looked back at Kiryu, a confused expression on his face, as he awaited his grandfather to tell him what was wrong.
Kiryu seemed to struggle with the correct words to say for a moment, before sighing, shaking his head. Soon, a smile was given towards his grandson, doing its best to have the same level of energy as Hiru, despite the muscles on his face growing old. "...Stay safe, alright? And don't feel afraid to call gramps if something goes wrong. I'll come over no matter what."
Hiru smiled, and with a nod, he made his way outside.
That day, things felt awfully different for me.
Maybe it was the crayon-colored sky.
Maybe the clouds that looked like I could touch them if I tiptoed enough.
Or maybe the warm and comfortable sun in the sky that I could look at without burning my eyes.
I never felt happier. But deep down, I knew something felt odd.
I didn't lie to gramps. I was happy because it felt like something was weighted from my shoulders.
Something that I loved deeply.
Something I promised to remember.
Even that beautiful dream, where it felt like I could do anything, lacked that.
I realized too late I wasn't happy. I never had felt so...
Hollow.