Other Tell me what's on your mind, stranger!

Hi friends, use this as a place to let go of some of those troubling or not-so-troubling thoughts! I'd love to hear you out and discuss.
Hi strangers. Dinner is on my mind and also how I'm going to share my next fanfic, as a college grad and no longer just a silly college student. A silly college graduate lol. The turmoil of the inner child and the pragmatic adult always in a dual mentally, it seems... I hope you're doing alright, though.
 
Hi strangers. Dinner is on my mind and also how I'm going to share my next fanfic, as a college grad and no longer just a silly college student. A silly college graduate lol. The turmoil of the inner child and the pragmatic adult always in a dual mentally, it seems... I hope you're doing alright, though.
Hello, fellow college-aged individual who writes fanfiction. Congratulations on your graduation.
 
What is on my mind is my impending doom, for I fear that the double shift at work that I'm having today will be the death of me. It is my third one this week and I expect the same on Saturday and Sunday. It's Friday, I'm not in love, I am knee deep in sorrow
 
So i’m curently drowning in an essay and a buttload of work, in the middle of moving houses, just got a girlfriend who i am still getting accustomed to texting constantly, break is next week but with my luck I’ll be using the whole week to work. The work never ends man. It begins at 5:30, is supposed to end at 9, but here i am sitting up at 1:00 am trying to get some work done for tomorrow. I come back do laundry, pack stuff up, move and it’s just so much. I’m tired. I just wanna sit down for 30 minutes and wear my B.K. crown man without having to worry about this being due today, an essay I haven’t started on tomorrow, a major test that could very well determine my grade for English for the rest of the semester if i fail (I have yet to study or even pull up the content it will be on). I was literally sleeping in my social studies class bro, i am NOT surviving tomorrow. I told myself I’d turn in at 1:30, but im scared it’ll drag on to 2:00
 
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Eager to get some 1x1s started. Also excited to flesh out some plots/character arcs for some group RPs.
 
I’m craving a certain pairing that a partner and I were RPing into the thick of it. Haven’t seen them since 😭
 
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I am craving a Zombie! Ghost rp or even an Alone Blackcell one, that skin is so marvelous, the details and all....Wonderful <3
 
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I've been triple-ghosted in 1x1s.

I hold no grudges and I would welcome the resume of these RPs if my partners returned, but it still burns my pancake.
 
Tonight, my knee hurts and I feel anxious.
 
I'm just going to put this in spoilers because it touches on some non-specific politics outside of the you-know-whats're-happening but I want to vent about.

Finding myself thinking about Eastern Anarchism, or the philosophical and politically developed mode of Anarchism that developed in Asia vs "just your normal ass, general rural collective survival universal among small non-industrial communities" sort of 'sociological' anarchism I shall say.

But I find a lot of young Anarchists approach Anarchism in the East along the same "uwu liberation ideology" that's the core of modern western Anarchism, but with an added benefit of de-colonialism they want to seek out. Instead, what they don't expect to find is Anarchism deeply in love with race-war, imperialism as praxis, "Anarchism is just being what the French/British/Americans are actually", and any combination of that. Especially since the sort of decolonial messages the common-place uwu anarchist seeks out informs some incredibly intense early nationalist tendencies in East Asia (Korean Anarchism in particular being particular infamous if the twilight of the 19th century and dawn of the 20th being hyper into Darwin notions of war against all because Korean political survival was and would be all-out war vs the Japanese as a nation and as people).

anyways if you want to be normal about things in Asia writ-large just be like, "Zhou Enlai is pretty cool as a guy, I guess" because the Anarchists in East Asia are the most miserable of an already miserable lot of tragic romantics
 
Thinking about how It's insanely hard to not go off on idiots on twitter/the internet. Maga-T's/Hateful people, Flat Earthers, Transphobes/Homophobes/Racists, etc. It just makes me even angrier when I say shit. And it's never gonna help cuz most of these people aren't open to being open-minded or open to change or to other opinions, scientific facts, not being a dick to people for something they can't even control and for who they want to love as long as it hurts no one, etc.

I just can't understand how humans can be so vile and evil and think they're not. Or maybe they do realize theyre bad but dont care? Like, do trumpers watch Star Wars and go 'Ykno that Emperor... He's got some good ideas..' Like I'm actually curious if they empathize with villains.

It just sucks. I'm privileged, white, cisgendered, straight, etc and yet im not a fucking idiot and I actually know how to research things and accept facts, even if my feelings on smth are strong and i turn out to be wrong. I have friends who are afraid of going outside depending on how the election goes. It's horrifying.

Like if you have to explain or justify smth hateful, it's just hateful there's no way around it, it's not gray. I have friends who havent even told their parents who they really are because they are afraid of the consequences. That is not the mark of a good person. It's fucking disgusting.

I just hope that these horrible mindsets die out soon. I hope that people with these horrible ideals die out soon as well. It takes 0 effort to be kind, even if you dont understand smth or someones lifestyle. But it takes so much effort to be cruel.
 
Hip started hurting last night but seems okay now, that being said I'm really hoping it doesn't have to be replaced like the other one, cause there's a good chance it will.
Also hoping that the upcoming MRI doesn't show any iron gathered around my liver.
I guess you're never too young for this garbage lol.
 
Elder Scrolls Online is taking forever to download. It is not halfway to completion yet and the estimated finish is a whopping 66 hours.

Imagine that... I am tolerating it all because I love the game. I used to play it a lot.
 
Elder Scrolls Online is taking forever to download. It is not halfway to completion yet and the estimated finish is a whopping 66 hours.

Imagine that... I am tolerating it all because I love the game. I used to play it a lot.
I used to play that so much too! I miss it tbh, but none of my friends I used to play with play it anymore. We had such good fun and characters. But yeah the launcher download is. Ouch. And I have really good internet.

Anyways. What's on my mind?
Well thinking about how i didn't complete my therapy hw this week and my appointment is this afternoon. And my school hw I really should do before last minute AGAIN but I can't get myself to do it.
Also thinking about my demigod (Greek mythology) oc for a rp idea I had but can't seem to get it out into words or get help with the world building to make it possible to rp. *sigh*
 

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