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current season: leaf-fall
Perchstar
Waking up now was the hardest part. At one time, he had blamed it on his aging body, now ravaged by time's nonstop march. Now, the old tomcat blamed it on the hole that now ached without cease in his chest. It was only a few days since Mallowflower had passed away, and her cloying scent still lingered in his nest long after her body was set to rest among ScarletClan's other dead. Part of him wanted to believe that it was all a lie, that she hadn't passed away, but he knew that would only be a fool's folly. He missed her rough, awkward laughter, the imperfect lopsided smile, the way her eyes brightened up with affection when he drew near. He missed their nightly walks in the territory, the feeling of her tail curling around his own and the way she chided him to rest when he refused to heed it. Even now, he could swear he could see the faint outline of her shape everytime he closed her eyes, half expecting her to be there when he opened them and yet... she was not there.
The old cat curled around himself tighter in his nest, almost cursing StarClan for taking him from her. Though she lived a long life, it still felt unfair that she was to leave him when he still needed her. Did she not know how much his heart yearned for her now? It was immature, truly for him to think this way but grief made him as selfish as a kit.. ah, that was right. His son, not only his son, his clan needed him. Duty never failed to call to him, to force him to rise to his paws and face a new day. Slowly, bit by bit the old cat had stood to his feet, moving at first at a snail's pace out of the all too large nest, his green eyes settling on the first rays of morning light. It's getting too cold. The thought rang in silent complaint within his mind as the clan leader took his first steps out of his self imposed prison. It was time to face a new day.
Fluffywish & Sunnykite
The small pale tortie was one who started her day out with inspecting the herb storage to see what she might need for the next moon. It was overwhelming to say the least when she had been welcomed in and placed in a position to be the clan's healer. Some days she wondered if she was somehow still dreaming in her barn, surrounded by her siblings. The thought for a second made her heart pang. Were they okay? Were they still getting enough food in their bellies? It was beginning to get chilly with the coming of leaf-fall, with the leaves turning colors and the frigid air it was hard for her not to consider the probability of scarcity when it came to prey in colder weather. Though, it wasn't like she had to be a mouser anymore-
"Well hello there lil' missy! Tell me, did those little ghosty-goos come haunt you again?" Her brother's boisterous meow made her fur fluff up in the beginnings of anger as she whipped her head around, blues meeting his taunting amber, "Bo- I mean, Sunnykite! For the last time, they're not 'ghosty-goos', they're spirits! Can you at least be a tiny bit more respectful?" She saw the tom's teasing smile and that obnoxious eye roll that he always did, "Well excuuuuse me, but that sounds like the same dang thing now does it?" Fluffywish's eyes narrow as she slowly drew in a breath through clenched teeth, raising a slender paw and promptly thwacking her brother on the forehead, "They. Are. Not. Why. Are. You. Such. A. Idiot!" The last thwack was a bit harder than the others, making her brother give a grunt of surprise, a large fluffy paw coming up to cradle the injury as he pouted mockingly, "That ain't nice of ya, miss medicine cat! I'm just curious... curious to see how much you're spending your time daydreamin- OW!" Another thwack came closely after that one on his nose this time and making the large cat flinch. As much as he hated to admit it, Fluffywish had a mean hit.
His sister turned away, lashing her tail in irritation, "I don't have time to play your little games. Unlike you, I actually take my duties seriously and I have a lot to check and get through so if you don't mind, go bother someone else." Sunnykite huffed in disbelief, it was barely even three moons and Fluffywish was already caught up in all this StarClan nonsense. Though he had to admit, she seemed more lively than she ever had been in the barn, despite being so prickly when it came to her precious little ghosts... the little spark in her eyes made him crack a smile even at her bristled back. "Uh-huh, so you're playin' with a bunch of weeds, gotcha!" The glare he received made a chuckle leave his maw as she shot back, "Go away! You're being a nuisance! Plus Maplepaw is still asleep, I don't want you to wake her up with stupidity!" The tom felt a tad bit of guilt as he looked over to the sight of the young blind cat's ginger shape. Ah. Yeah he felt a tiny bit bad about that. "Mm right, right. Fine I'll get out of your fur." The large tom gently flicked his sister's ear with his tail as he grinned at her, "Stay feisty fuzzball."
Fluffywish snorted, annoyance in her chest as she watched him step out of the medicine cat den and leaving her in peace. Unbelievable..
Buzzardstrike
Leaf-fall was when things changed, whether it was for better or for worse he had yet to know. All he did know was that he felt slighted. Each night was spent fitful with resentment, and each morning it just made him reminded of the failures his father had made. The tom gazed out at his father as the elderly cat emerged from the leader's den, slow and weak. It made him sick. His father used to be strong, to want to hold ScarletClan's strength at its prime and now what was he doing? Spending most of his days sleeping in his nest and clinging to a nest that he once shared with Mallowflower.. what a joke. The green eyes of the tom turned to the warrior's den, looking at the slumbering shapes still inside. He saw familiar shapes, but worse of all was the tom his father had chosen to be his deputy; Cedarnose. An eyesore, obnoxious and irritating. It should have been him! Didn't Perchstar say he was destined to become great? What other great honor was there than leadership? What about him wasn't seen as worthy? The rage pooled deep in his gut, making him choke on it.
Ospreyleap, as pathetic as she was had also found him not worthy. Why? Who was she to turn tail and treat him that way, with a rogue of all things, a filthy, honorless rogue. He took in a deep breath and closed his eyes, his heartbeat slowing as he exhaled and brought the usual smile to his face. No need to concern himself on the stupidity of the lesser, yes, as long as he still had breath in his lungs he could and would show his father he had made too many mistakes. Standing to his paws, he trotted over to Perchstar, gently resting his tail with practiced affection on his father's broad shoulder, pressing his nose to his cheek as he spoke gently, "Good morning, how are you feeling today? Any better?" His father's gaze met his own, the cat's gray muzzle twitching up in the faintest of smiles. It was not a genuine smile, heavy with grief, "Ah, Buzzardstrike. Yes. Yes I'm well enough. No need to worry about me." A practiced frown crossed the warrior's muzzle in response, "But Perchstar, you've been cooped up in your nest for so long.. are you sure you're feeling alright enough to be moving about?"
He eyed his father's posture as the tom sat. Even in his later moons, the solid muscle honed by moons of fights and battles had left its mark on the leader. Even though he was weaker, there was still strength there and power. He would not be an easy target, that was for certain. Buzzardstrike's attention was grabbed as Perchstar chuckled, "There's no need to fret too much, Buzzardstrike! Truly, I am well. But thank you." His father smiled a bit brighter, a tenderness to his gaze that was so similar to the pride he never ceased to show for his son, "Truly, StarClan had blessed me with you. Mallowflower is so proud of you even now." He fought the urge to scowl, swallowing back the angry torrent trying to swell in his chest. Then why did you not choose me to succeed you?!
Rootkit
The little tom was curled up to his siblings' side, contented with the warmth of the nursery. He was locked in a dream, dreaming that he was finally able to trot around the forest with the warriors of the clan. In the dream he was much bigger than he was now, walking with confidence in every paw and heartily sharing battle stories with his fellows as the patrol explored his forest home. He could have sworn he could feel the soft feeling of leaves and earth under his paws, the wind that whistled through the trees on his fur and the sounds of bird songs overhead. Freedom it felt like, freedom and not underneath the watch or his mother telling him 'no', that it was dangerous in the woods, or the occasional warrior saying that battle was not something he should be so eager to participate in. After all, he was just a kit... just a kit? The thought made his eyes slowly open, sleepily mumbling in the middle of half dreaming and the waking world, "I wanna be a warrior already.."