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sara alcott
That an object can be moved, changed, or affected
Without being touched
Without physically being touched
Without being touched
Without physically being touched
An hour had passed since the two dweebs had begun their valiant fight against the tent skeleton, and still they were no closer than when they'd started. In a frustrated huff, Sara had snatched the instruction manual from Finn, something she wasn't even sure why she did. It wasn't as if she had any more ability to decipher it than her friend. Still, it was the closest thing she had to some semblance of control over a frustrating situation, so here she was, slumped on a lawn chair that a fellow festivalgoer had loaned her, furiously squinting at the accursed bit of paper.
"I'm fine." She snapped at Finn, her gaze not moving from the paper. A beat of silence. At Finn's next tenative remark, her head whips over to him at breakneck speed. "Tense? Tense?" She abruptly rose from the chair, a hand pressed against her hip as she harshly repeated his words. "You think I'm tense?"
She wasn't fully aware why his words affected her the way they did, but regardless it stung. He was right of course, she was tense. Not being able to speak her mind was entirely against Sara's nature, the recent fiasco at the wine festival adding a layer of complication to their typically easy dynamic that left her unsure of how to proceed. But she'd been praying he wouldn't notice.
It really was aggravating that Finn was acutely aware of when she was "off" but what could she expect? He probably knew her better than anybody else did. Her hope of living in denial was so against her usual blunt nature that it would be impossible for anybody who knew her to claim otherwise.
She let out a sigh, one hand clutching the manual so tightly a small rip formed in between her nails. Her mouth moved before her mind could process it."Are you crazy? Of course I'm tense! Why wouldn't I be tense? Are you just trying to rub it in?" The words spilled out in a jumbled mess that resembled a shriek.
Seeing no way out, she kept going, partially motivated by her own desperation to get her feelings off her chest. "I just.....I feel weird. We haven't talked in weeks and then all of a sudden you wanna go to Burning Woman? I spent all day trying to be normal and not make you feel uncomfortable or like I was gonna be some weirdo who comes onto you and make you stop talking to me again." Her eyes hesitantly met his, the unflinching grey stare seemingly piercing through her and forcing her to spill her guts. "I didn't wanna act like it happened, but it did and I feel like shit about it."
She looked away, diverting her gaze to the ground."So yeah, I'm really sorry about trying to kiss you. I hate that I did that, because now everything's weird and it was like we weren't even friends anymore. I can't go to your house for movie nights anymore, I can't bug you after work and tell you which of Alexei's foods gave me terrible bowel movement even though they tasted amazing, I can't even cuddle you or you might think I'm trying to be a creep and force myself on you!" She blurted out, the pain in her voice particularly evident as she lamented the loss of their cuddle sessions.
"I just....I miss you so much it's killing me, and I don't wanna fuck things up and lose you again. Not that it matters because no matter how hard I try, you'll always notice when I'm feeling off, so why even bother hiding it?".Wiping several beads of sweat trickling down her forehead, she took a deep breath. "And now I've made things even weirder, right? Maybe I'm going nuts, cause of the stupid tent, or missing you, or the festival energy, but I'm definitely going nuts." She informed him, plopping down on the groundcloth in frustration.
Pulling her legs to her chest, she found the courage to gaze over at Finn. Not the eyes, but the general face area seemed like a safe place to direct her gaze. "I'm not going to say it again, you don't have to worry. But you should probably know." She placed a hand on her heart as if steadying herself to drop the bombshell.
"I like you. A lot. And not in a friendly way."
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