STEELHEART
you want battle? i'll give you war.
No one that I personally know (as in real friends; people I see face to face) know that I enjoy roleplaying. I find it relaxing and letting myself get lost in the words and in my own imagination, drifting around from Fandom to Fandom, talking about this, writing about that, it gives me an escape from it all. Books, in my opinion, are just better. Movies and shows? They can't let you down. Sure you'll feel heartbreak from time to time when a series ends or a character dies, but in the end, you can remind yourself that they aren't real.
Life, unfortunately does not work like that. If you have something going on in your life, you can't just skip a few pages (or in my case, a few chapters) and continue with your story. You can't close the book, decide you don't want to read this specific novel anymore, and find a new one that's similar. Sure, skimming through a book isn't the best idea, but at least I can ask someone else about the major plot changes and won't have to deal with all the painful little details.
Roleplaying lets me pretend to be someone else, the person I always wanted to be. I could be going on romantic dates with my comfort characters, taking part in epic battles of life and death with my friends, or just having the time of my life. None of it's real, and it's the most disapointing feeling in the WORLD to realize mid-roleplay that these are just words on a screen. In a hundred years, this won't matter. Life matters. My friends and family matter. My future matters. I'm approaching high-school much faster than I would like, and I want to flip back a few pages to elementary, where all I cared about was spending recess outside on the swings, reading The Prisoner of Azkaban for the fifth time or talking to my friends about the newest Marvel movie. I don't want to grow up. I don't want to. I don't.
Life, unfortunately does not work like that. If you have something going on in your life, you can't just skip a few pages (or in my case, a few chapters) and continue with your story. You can't close the book, decide you don't want to read this specific novel anymore, and find a new one that's similar. Sure, skimming through a book isn't the best idea, but at least I can ask someone else about the major plot changes and won't have to deal with all the painful little details.
Roleplaying lets me pretend to be someone else, the person I always wanted to be. I could be going on romantic dates with my comfort characters, taking part in epic battles of life and death with my friends, or just having the time of my life. None of it's real, and it's the most disapointing feeling in the WORLD to realize mid-roleplay that these are just words on a screen. In a hundred years, this won't matter. Life matters. My friends and family matter. My future matters. I'm approaching high-school much faster than I would like, and I want to flip back a few pages to elementary, where all I cared about was spending recess outside on the swings, reading The Prisoner of Azkaban for the fifth time or talking to my friends about the newest Marvel movie. I don't want to grow up. I don't want to. I don't.
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