AlannaTrebond
Fear the Fluff
Well, attempting to, anyway. It's a work in progress.
I moved into the apartment complex I live in now a year ago (more or less) and this apartment complex has a pool. Nice, right? Well, when my roommate decided that she wanted to go swimming, I went along because I like to be in water- to an extent, at least. You see, when the water gets up to my shoulders, or about that height, I get nervous. I could say that it's because I can't swim, but that isn't necessarily true. I have a fear of deeper water- and by deeper I mean about five feet. It was so bad that once I had a panic attack while going down a water slide a few years ago. That was when I realized that it wasn't just nervousness, but real fear.
Anyway, so this past week, my roommate has been going to the complex's pool, and after the first day where she just hung out with me at the shallow end, she tried to get me to the deeper part. She told me that she wanted to teach me how to swim, and that it might help my hydrophobia. Since she was there for my 'water slide panic attack', I decided that I could make an attempt. Mostly because I knew that she wouldn't leave me alone, but... yeah.
As we went through it, I surprised myself a bit- I was actively trying to overcome my fear, while most people don't. I was also trying to learn to swim as a twenty-two year old woman. I was told that I was doing pretty good considering, as well, and that made me feel better. Having her there helped a lot.
Yesterday was particularly bad, though. There were way more people than normal, jumping in the pool at the most random times. I kept expecting someone to swim by while I practiced going across and bumping into them, getting surprised, and drowning. I have the basic skills for swimming now, but I had paranoid thoughts about how I was doomed to drown that day. Still, I practiced for three hours with her, then we went back to the apartment.
I don't know why I'm sharing this, really. I guess to keep track of my progress, or to share this with others. Although... now that I'm thinking of it, does anyone have any tips for calming down if you feel like you're about to panic?
Also, my roommate is on here, too. I wonder if she'll see this.
Sorry
if I'm saying this oddly. I'm not used to sharing. >.<
I moved into the apartment complex I live in now a year ago (more or less) and this apartment complex has a pool. Nice, right? Well, when my roommate decided that she wanted to go swimming, I went along because I like to be in water- to an extent, at least. You see, when the water gets up to my shoulders, or about that height, I get nervous. I could say that it's because I can't swim, but that isn't necessarily true. I have a fear of deeper water- and by deeper I mean about five feet. It was so bad that once I had a panic attack while going down a water slide a few years ago. That was when I realized that it wasn't just nervousness, but real fear.
Anyway, so this past week, my roommate has been going to the complex's pool, and after the first day where she just hung out with me at the shallow end, she tried to get me to the deeper part. She told me that she wanted to teach me how to swim, and that it might help my hydrophobia. Since she was there for my 'water slide panic attack', I decided that I could make an attempt. Mostly because I knew that she wouldn't leave me alone, but... yeah.
As we went through it, I surprised myself a bit- I was actively trying to overcome my fear, while most people don't. I was also trying to learn to swim as a twenty-two year old woman. I was told that I was doing pretty good considering, as well, and that made me feel better. Having her there helped a lot.
Yesterday was particularly bad, though. There were way more people than normal, jumping in the pool at the most random times. I kept expecting someone to swim by while I practiced going across and bumping into them, getting surprised, and drowning. I have the basic skills for swimming now, but I had paranoid thoughts about how I was doomed to drown that day. Still, I practiced for three hours with her, then we went back to the apartment.
I don't know why I'm sharing this, really. I guess to keep track of my progress, or to share this with others. Although... now that I'm thinking of it, does anyone have any tips for calming down if you feel like you're about to panic?
Also, my roommate is on here, too. I wonder if she'll see this.
Sorry
if I'm saying this oddly. I'm not used to sharing. >.<
