Life of TeaMMatE11

[TeaMMatE11]

I decided to start up a journal. This is mostly for my rap lines that I like to write. This is mostly going to be freestyle lines, but not limited to just rap lines. I'll post regular posts as well.


While I am doing this, I am not looking for attention, but a place to share my thoughts and feelings. All are welcome to post, as long it's not negative.


Another disclaimer: once I start writing lines, there will be swearing. If you are offended, I apologize in advance.


This is my introduction. Thank you for reding this thread.

 

[TeaMMatE11]

Oh boy, what a time to be alive. Senior in high school, about to graduate. Mother has skin cancer, and the household is falling apart. There's nowhere to run or hide. I'm just trying my best to survive and make it on the other side, but I see no light at the end of the tunnel. All I see is darkness, with no way out. What happened to my simple life, where everything was just fine? And why, when I type, speak in rhymes? What is my life worth now?


I feel like I stumbled into a mess that I just can't get out of. When will this end? When will I finally be free of this? I am on the verge of breaking, and I just don't know what to do anymore.

 

[TeaMMatE11]

Well...things have gotten a little better, and a little more stressful.


I have 2 AP tests next week, in a row. Plus, on the 11th (afternoon AP test) I also have to be in my symphonic band in order to play for the concert. Ugh. Rip me.


So yeah. I'll keep updating in small chunks.

 

[TeaMMatE11]

I haven't been keeping up with this. I apologize to whoever reads this.


Honestly though, my house is filled with drama. I don't know how much more of this shit I can take. It's not just bad; it's terrible. I'm still stuck in the position, of what the f do I do? I'm stuck.


You know one of those puzzle games that get really difficult, and you don't know how to solve it for days, or possibly weeks on end? Yup. Imagine feeling that way in real life, piled on top of that, your grades suck, and you're a second semester senior in high school. Grades are dropping, and your parents nag you about every little slip up because...of my brother.


So...essentially, I have to stick through this for another 2 weeks. Finals...yuck.