Lixy
In Denial That I Have an Internet Addiction
Let's Talk!
My name is Infactuated, and I'd like to talk a little about me.
Those of you who know me would have noticed my changing pronouns, back and forth between male and female (with help from the mood system) and that I am listed as "fluid" under my gender on my profile. What a lot of you also know, is that I don't talk about it a lot. This isn't anything like me being shy, or embarrassed, but just, well, that I forget that what I experience, who I am, could be considered strange or unconventional to some people.
So, I thought I might tell my story, maybe answer some questions, have a discussion with you all, you curious roleplayers and forum goers.
So first, me.
Of course my experiences don't represent every person, and in fact, I'm sometimes considered an aberrant to my own community, being fluid between demigirl and -boy, but that's not the point. What I'm trying to say is, my experiences are mine alone, even if others had the same or similar, I can't and wont speak for all genderfluid people.
Maybe some history would be interesting?
Well, I was around 11, discovering the intricacies of human sexuality, when I started to wonder if I was trans. It was a confusing and awful time, to be completely honest, not the liberating and enlightening experience I wish it had been. I thought maybe I'm not cis, and maybe this maybe that, maybe I'm gay? Maybe I'm ace? It was really had, being confused about your gender and sexuality at the same time is the worst. I basically, put it to the side for almost four years, before reigniting my curiosity on Tumblr, surrounded by people like me, now that was a much better experience.
The thing is, since I'm fluid, I spend a long time between, "No, I'm definitely trans!" and "Well, no, maybe I'm not," and it just went on and on until it finally clicked that being both was this thing. I figured out my sexuality 'round about at 15, and then around 16/17 I was like "Oh, fluidity is a thing, yeah,"
There's not much else to it, I guess, except all the other stuff that happened in between and all that awful stuff. But no, I'm hear to answer all your dirty questions to the best of my ability. If you don't want to ask publicly, message me and I'll post your question and answer it.
On with the questions! Go ahead, don't be shy. Ask about me, about gender, about sexuality, about sex, I'm here to help, and I have lots to say.
Have fun!
