apolla
❛ it's only love, nobody dies ❜
mood:
envious / terrified
location:
back outside
Cameron Hale
Had Cameron been a little quicker to understand what was going on in Caleb's mind, she would have tried to stop him while they still stood on the back deck together. The hum of the bubbles in the hot tub reminded Cameron of her brief time in there with Jace, but looking over and seeing him entwined in a hug with Evie awoke the green monster within her. But apparently, she wasn't the only one who felt the effects of the jealousy monster, because before she knew what was happening, Caleb was cursing Jace and then running towards the pair. Cameron called out to him and even reached for him, but her hands found nothing but air as he shot off down the steps.
Cameron lacked confidence in some areas of her life, she always had. She'd never really doubted her intelligence, but when it came to her self esteem and her love life and even her friendship group, she'd always struggled. Anna really made her feel like she belonged, and Cameron suspected she wasn't the only one. Anna had a way of making everyone feel special just for being themselves; it was her gift, and not only to her friends, but to everyone she came across. If the brunette was here, Cam knew that she would have seen this coming and likely deescalated the situation before it got to this point. Or at least been there for the aftermath. But Cameron had to remind herself that it was because Anna wasn't here that the eight of them were.
Despite Jace's alcohol laced words in the hot tub, Cameron believed him. She believed that he had feelings for her, or at least, she wanted to. Her confidence had grown in the last five years, but for some reason, being around Jace and the others was reminding her that she'd always just been the little goodie 2 shoes who never ventured outside of that box. She never got drunk, she never smoked or snuck out after curfew. Her parents watched her like a hawk back then, never wanting to relinquish that control they had over her. Even after high school, their iron grip remained the same. Until recently, when they'd basically disowned her. And they didn't even know the whole truth. What would her friends think?
These thoughts echoed over and over in her mind, keeping her from telling Jace the truth in the hot tub herself. About how she'd really been, about how she'd missed him and how hurt she'd been by his actions. The goodie 2 shoes from high school didn't make waves, she didn't tell people how their actions affected her. She was always there for everyone else, even as her own happiness took a backseat. And now, watching Caleb punch Jace square in the jaw, things seemed like they were going to be the same. Cameron's feet carried her towards the fight, where she and Evie seemed to have the same idea about stopping it. But Jace shrugged Evie off, and another idea popped into Cameron's mind. Before she could think about the consequences of her action, she did it. She stepped between Caleb and Jace.
BAM.
The hit rocked her world, sending her flying back into Jace. Her lip split in two and she saw stars, but through the colorful objects she could see how pale Caleb had gotten. And then he was gone from her vision, though she could feel Jace's arms as they wrapped protectively around her. She automatically leaned into him, closing her eyes. That made the world spin, though, and she quickly reopened them to try and fight the sudden wave of nausea that hit her. She could hear Caleb's voice, apologizing, but her whispered 'it's okay' was drowned out by Jace's harsh words. Cameron frowned, turning her head a fraction to see Evie start to help Caleb towards the house.
Her whole face hurt, even though Caleb had only gotten her in the lip. She winced slightly as Jace gripped her chin to lift her head, inspecting her lip. The stars were starting to subside now, and she could clearly see his swollen eye and bruises beginning to form. Tears immediately pricked her eyes but he just placed a hand on the small of her back, gently leading her towards the house as well. They arrived in the kitchen and he motioned for her to sit, so she did, her entire body trembling as she pulled herself onto the barstool. A moment later Jace was handing her a towel filled with ice cubes, though she didn't lift it to her face, still a little starstruck at what had happened.
Her eyes flicked towards the mug when he commented on it, a soft scoff/laugh escaping her. Hearing that familiar nickname for her, though, her eyes lifted up to his, her own still filled with unshed tears. He took the towel from her, placing it gently against her lip. Maybe it was the way he gently held the towel there, or maybe it was the concern in his voice, but she couldn't stop the tears anymore. She leaned forward, placing her face in her hands as the tears started to fall, leaving wet trails down her cheeks. "All I wanted was for the fighting to stop!" She cried, her voice soft and very sad as she spoke through her hands. She felt him move a strand of hair out of her face and looked up, her eyes now red and slightly puffy too.
“I did mean what I said back in the tub you know. All of it… Why did you run away from me though? Am I…Is it too late for us?” Her breathing hitched as he uttered those words, another wave of tears falling from her eyes. Sniffling, she slid forward, off of the barstool, not answering him right away. She gently took the rag filled with melting ice from his hand, lifting it up to press on the swollen area under his eye. "I'm not the same girl anymore, Jace." She told him sadly, honestly afraid that if he knew the truth he wouldn't even want her anymore. "Even if you did have feelings for me back then, I'm different. I never wanted to run from you. But you... you made a choice back then." Her voice broke, but she didn't drop her hand or the rag from his face. "And I thought you didn't want me." That was what she'd been living with, and she didn't want to blame him or make him feel bad, but if he didn't want her then, why would he want her now?
Cameron lacked confidence in some areas of her life, she always had. She'd never really doubted her intelligence, but when it came to her self esteem and her love life and even her friendship group, she'd always struggled. Anna really made her feel like she belonged, and Cameron suspected she wasn't the only one. Anna had a way of making everyone feel special just for being themselves; it was her gift, and not only to her friends, but to everyone she came across. If the brunette was here, Cam knew that she would have seen this coming and likely deescalated the situation before it got to this point. Or at least been there for the aftermath. But Cameron had to remind herself that it was because Anna wasn't here that the eight of them were.
Despite Jace's alcohol laced words in the hot tub, Cameron believed him. She believed that he had feelings for her, or at least, she wanted to. Her confidence had grown in the last five years, but for some reason, being around Jace and the others was reminding her that she'd always just been the little goodie 2 shoes who never ventured outside of that box. She never got drunk, she never smoked or snuck out after curfew. Her parents watched her like a hawk back then, never wanting to relinquish that control they had over her. Even after high school, their iron grip remained the same. Until recently, when they'd basically disowned her. And they didn't even know the whole truth. What would her friends think?
These thoughts echoed over and over in her mind, keeping her from telling Jace the truth in the hot tub herself. About how she'd really been, about how she'd missed him and how hurt she'd been by his actions. The goodie 2 shoes from high school didn't make waves, she didn't tell people how their actions affected her. She was always there for everyone else, even as her own happiness took a backseat. And now, watching Caleb punch Jace square in the jaw, things seemed like they were going to be the same. Cameron's feet carried her towards the fight, where she and Evie seemed to have the same idea about stopping it. But Jace shrugged Evie off, and another idea popped into Cameron's mind. Before she could think about the consequences of her action, she did it. She stepped between Caleb and Jace.
BAM.
The hit rocked her world, sending her flying back into Jace. Her lip split in two and she saw stars, but through the colorful objects she could see how pale Caleb had gotten. And then he was gone from her vision, though she could feel Jace's arms as they wrapped protectively around her. She automatically leaned into him, closing her eyes. That made the world spin, though, and she quickly reopened them to try and fight the sudden wave of nausea that hit her. She could hear Caleb's voice, apologizing, but her whispered 'it's okay' was drowned out by Jace's harsh words. Cameron frowned, turning her head a fraction to see Evie start to help Caleb towards the house.
Her whole face hurt, even though Caleb had only gotten her in the lip. She winced slightly as Jace gripped her chin to lift her head, inspecting her lip. The stars were starting to subside now, and she could clearly see his swollen eye and bruises beginning to form. Tears immediately pricked her eyes but he just placed a hand on the small of her back, gently leading her towards the house as well. They arrived in the kitchen and he motioned for her to sit, so she did, her entire body trembling as she pulled herself onto the barstool. A moment later Jace was handing her a towel filled with ice cubes, though she didn't lift it to her face, still a little starstruck at what had happened.
Her eyes flicked towards the mug when he commented on it, a soft scoff/laugh escaping her. Hearing that familiar nickname for her, though, her eyes lifted up to his, her own still filled with unshed tears. He took the towel from her, placing it gently against her lip. Maybe it was the way he gently held the towel there, or maybe it was the concern in his voice, but she couldn't stop the tears anymore. She leaned forward, placing her face in her hands as the tears started to fall, leaving wet trails down her cheeks. "All I wanted was for the fighting to stop!" She cried, her voice soft and very sad as she spoke through her hands. She felt him move a strand of hair out of her face and looked up, her eyes now red and slightly puffy too.
“I did mean what I said back in the tub you know. All of it… Why did you run away from me though? Am I…Is it too late for us?” Her breathing hitched as he uttered those words, another wave of tears falling from her eyes. Sniffling, she slid forward, off of the barstool, not answering him right away. She gently took the rag filled with melting ice from his hand, lifting it up to press on the swollen area under his eye. "I'm not the same girl anymore, Jace." She told him sadly, honestly afraid that if he knew the truth he wouldn't even want her anymore. "Even if you did have feelings for me back then, I'm different. I never wanted to run from you. But you... you made a choice back then." Her voice broke, but she didn't drop her hand or the rag from his face. "And I thought you didn't want me." That was what she'd been living with, and she didn't want to blame him or make him feel bad, but if he didn't want her then, why would he want her now?
I wanna feel the pain
I wanna see the light
I wanna see the light
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