TryingToFindHope
New Member
Who I am
You may call me Fae! Well into my twenties and always looking for new people to join me.
I go by any gender-neutral pronouns and writing has been my hobby for over twelve years now.
I prefer to RP on Discord, I simply enjoy making servers to keep everything neat and organized.
But I am also done to RPing on this website!
I go by any gender-neutral pronouns and writing has been my hobby for over twelve years now.
I prefer to RP on Discord, I simply enjoy making servers to keep everything neat and organized.
But I am also done to RPing on this website!
What I offer
“Novella”
I always break the Discord Limit (without Nitro) and my messages can range from 400 to 2.000 words, depending on what you give me to work with
“LGBTQIA+ friendly”
I am part of it myself and many of my OCs will be part of that community in some way
“Diversity”
My OCs will be of various ethnicities, some of them will have disabilities, and many of them will not fit the social beauty standards
“Maturity”
I am well into my twenties and I will treat people as they treat me, if you are respectful, so will I be and I certainly would like to make new friends
“Regularity”
Sadly, I work 40 hours a week and cannot write as much as I´d like but you can be certain I will try to write at least one RP message every day, if not more
“OOC friendly”
I am not comfortable telling you about my problems immediately but I would love to gush about our OCs and story from the beginning to build a connection
I always break the Discord Limit (without Nitro) and my messages can range from 400 to 2.000 words, depending on what you give me to work with
“LGBTQIA+ friendly”
I am part of it myself and many of my OCs will be part of that community in some way
“Diversity”
My OCs will be of various ethnicities, some of them will have disabilities, and many of them will not fit the social beauty standards
“Maturity”
I am well into my twenties and I will treat people as they treat me, if you are respectful, so will I be and I certainly would like to make new friends
“Regularity”
Sadly, I work 40 hours a week and cannot write as much as I´d like but you can be certain I will try to write at least one RP message every day, if not more
“OOC friendly”
I am not comfortable telling you about my problems immediately but I would love to gush about our OCs and story from the beginning to build a connection
What I expect
“Literate”
I do not need you to write 2.000 words each time but your average messages should be at least around 400 words, though more is always welcomed, less not so much. Please do not waste both of our time if you already know you cannot match that.
“LGBTQIA+ friendly”
I do not expect you to be part of it, nor do you need to play OCs who are part of that community but I will not tolerate any slander of it
“Accepting of Diversity”
Once again, I do not expect your OCs to be the same, but I will not RP with Fatphobes, Racist, Sexists, Disabilists… etc
“Maturity”
Please be at least 20+. I just cannot RP with teens anymore, even those in their late teens. I am too old for that. I will not RP teens in a romantic setting either.
“Regularity”
Life sucks, I do not expect you to be online 24/7 but I would like a partner who can write an RP message every 1-2 days, otherwise, I sadly lose interest quickly. Please do not reach out to me if you know already now you can only respond once a week.
“OOC friendly”
I do not expect you to become best buddies with me immediately, we can focus on our RP at first and befriend each other that way
I do not need you to write 2.000 words each time but your average messages should be at least around 400 words, though more is always welcomed, less not so much. Please do not waste both of our time if you already know you cannot match that.
“LGBTQIA+ friendly”
I do not expect you to be part of it, nor do you need to play OCs who are part of that community but I will not tolerate any slander of it
“Accepting of Diversity”
Once again, I do not expect your OCs to be the same, but I will not RP with Fatphobes, Racist, Sexists, Disabilists… etc
“Maturity”
Please be at least 20+. I just cannot RP with teens anymore, even those in their late teens. I am too old for that. I will not RP teens in a romantic setting either.
“Regularity”
Life sucks, I do not expect you to be online 24/7 but I would like a partner who can write an RP message every 1-2 days, otherwise, I sadly lose interest quickly. Please do not reach out to me if you know already now you can only respond once a week.
“OOC friendly”
I do not expect you to become best buddies with me immediately, we can focus on our RP at first and befriend each other that way
Who I write
Only looking for doubling here,
Double-up means we have two main couples, we both get exactly what we want.
I can play your favourite canon character and you play mine. I scratch my back, you scratch mine kinda deal.
No one has to neglect their own desires or needs for this.
I also love having a large main cast interacting with one another.
But I am also willing to just have two separate fandoms for us both.
I am personally looking for OC x CC for my side, but I am also willing to do CC x CC or whatever else you desire for your side.
I am capable of playing almost every CC for you and will do my best to make your dreams come true if you do the same for me.
Below you will see the Fandoms I am into, including which CC I am looking for.
Double-up means we have two main couples, we both get exactly what we want.
I can play your favourite canon character and you play mine. I scratch my back, you scratch mine kinda deal.
No one has to neglect their own desires or needs for this.
I also love having a large main cast interacting with one another.
But I am also willing to just have two separate fandoms for us both.
I am personally looking for OC x CC for my side, but I am also willing to do CC x CC or whatever else you desire for your side.
I am capable of playing almost every CC for you and will do my best to make your dreams come true if you do the same for me.
Below you will see the Fandoms I am into, including which CC I am looking for.
Animes
Hellsing Ultimate/Gonzo
Alucard
Black Butler
Undertaker
Beastars
Ogma or Gohin
Inuyasha
Sesshomaru
Demonslayer
Sakonji
Tokyo Ghoul
Yoshimura
Ancient Magus Bride
Elias
Alucard
Black Butler
Undertaker
Beastars
Ogma or Gohin
Inuyasha
Sesshomaru
Demonslayer
Sakonji
Tokyo Ghoul
Yoshimura
Ancient Magus Bride
Elias
Series and Movies
ATLA
Iroh
Avatar - James Cameron
Miles Quaritch
Star Wars (All Movies + Mandalorian)
Din, Boba or Darth Vader
Star Trek (TOS and TNG)
Spock, Data or Q
Iroh
Avatar - James Cameron
Miles Quaritch
Star Wars (All Movies + Mandalorian)
Din, Boba or Darth Vader
Star Trek (TOS and TNG)
Spock, Data or Q
Videogames
The Legend of Zelda
Ganondorf, Revali, Sidon or Yuga
Baldurs Gate 3
Raphael
Demonheart
Brash
The Witcher 3
Geralt, Avallac´h, Ge´els, Emhyr, Gaunter, or Morvas
God of War (2018 and Ragnarok)
Kratos
Metroid
Samus
Final Fantasy X
Auron
Pentiment
Vácslav, Adam Köhler, Doctor Werner or Endris Schmidt
Until Dawn
Flamethrower Guy
Dead by Daylight
Trapper, Oni, Deathslinger, Doctor, Myers, or Dracula
The Quarry
Travis
Fire Emblem Fates
Jakob, Shura, Ryoma, Saizo, Xander or Gunter
Fire Emblem Awakening
Frederick, Lonqu, Gregor, Gangrel, Walhart or Yen´fay
Pokemon
Cyrus, Giovanni or Lysandre
The Arcana
Lucio or Muriel
Resident Evil
Heisenberg
FNAF
Glamrock Freddy or Montgomery Gator
Skyrim
Alduin or Paarthurnax
Ganondorf, Revali, Sidon or Yuga
Baldurs Gate 3
Raphael
Demonheart
Brash
The Witcher 3
Geralt, Avallac´h, Ge´els, Emhyr, Gaunter, or Morvas
God of War (2018 and Ragnarok)
Kratos
Metroid
Samus
Final Fantasy X
Auron
Pentiment
Vácslav, Adam Köhler, Doctor Werner or Endris Schmidt
Until Dawn
Flamethrower Guy
Dead by Daylight
Trapper, Oni, Deathslinger, Doctor, Myers, or Dracula
The Quarry
Travis
Fire Emblem Fates
Jakob, Shura, Ryoma, Saizo, Xander or Gunter
Fire Emblem Awakening
Frederick, Lonqu, Gregor, Gangrel, Walhart or Yen´fay
Pokemon
Cyrus, Giovanni or Lysandre
The Arcana
Lucio or Muriel
Resident Evil
Heisenberg
FNAF
Glamrock Freddy or Montgomery Gator
Skyrim
Alduin or Paarthurnax
Writing Sample
That was one of the last things she expected to happen. It was such a beautiful night. The full moon stood high. It was not too cool, not too warm. One might even say it was the perfect night to die. Normally she would laugh at such dark humor. Yet right now she did not feel like giggling at all. Not only was she out of breath but she was also afraid.
No matter how hard she tried her steps were not silent at all. Her cloak long abandoned, was left on the very bush it got stuck on. She darted between the trees, feeling the weight of the hunter's pursuit. She could hear them approach from the distance, drawing closer with each moment.
Her heart pounded in her chest as she raced through the darkness. Her magic previously crackled around her but at this time it was no longer humming with power. The barriers of root and thorns she had cast before in the hope of slowing her pursuers down had certainly done their job. Sadly, it was not enough. Fear and superstition certainly could feel people's confidence. But she was not going to give up either. She fled deeper into the heart of the forest, through the tangled maze of trees.
At this point, she was pushing herself to the limits of her endurance. Her body was already bearing the scars of those hunter's weapons. Blood stained her black robe, a grim testament to the violence that she had endured already.
Pain laced through her side, the bleeding wounds were only one of her issues. She clutched her side tightly while stumbling further onward. Somehow she managed to disappear into the shadows. Out of sight but sadly not out of mind. Hidden well enough to escape the witch hunters view just for a moment. Yet that was very much enough for her to find something important. Apparently, some kind of deity had finally mercy upon her. An abandoned manor. Looming above her with its crumbling facade.
With no other choice, she hurried inside. The front door was unlocked and she hoped that was no bad omen. Hopefully, no one else was waiting inside for her and it was just some lucky coincidence. She could see no light burning inside, so she could only hope for the best. Her breath came in ragged gasps as she sought sanctuary within its walls.
The air was heavy with the scent of decay and neglect. Dust motes danced in the moonlight that filtered through broken windows. Normally she would delight in such a scene. She would find the eerie shadows pleasant but the urgency of her situation forced her to think quickly.
Why had she never developed a talent for illusion magic? She could see a tucked-away alcove in the shadows of the manor, she could hide there and use an illusion to stay hidden but no. That was not within her abilities. She would need to find another way. So she hurried into the next best room, hoping that no droplets of blood would reveal her presence to her hunters.
Amidst the pain and uncertainty, there was a flicker in her eyes. She refused to be cowed by those maniacs. She would not allow them to erase her from existence like a forgotten memory. Fear and hatred would not be her end. There was one way out of this. A chance she really did not want to take but she knew it was the only chance left to survive. A risky gambit. Summoning a demon was nothing she had ever done before. However, she would rather go through this than perish.
With trembling hands, she set about preparing for the ritual that would determine her fate. Her heart was heavy with desperation but the pain shooting through her side was a constant reminder of what was to come.
Quickly she cleared space on the ground of the room she was in before pulling out her chalk. She drew a pentacle on the ground before shrugging off her backpack. How good that she had only lost her cape and not her belongings. Without any care, she dragged out some candles and placed them on the tips of the star. With a wave of her hand, she lightened up all those candles with magic.
She started to mumble incantations she had learned with the hope of never having to use them. All the while she pulled out a bundle of dried herbs and held the tip of the candle to make them burn and smoke. As the scent of incense filled the air, she dropped the herbs on the ground and stepped onto them. The last she needed was to burn this manor down.
At the center of the circle, she fell to her knees, her vision slowly blurrying. She pressed her bloody hand down on the ground, leaving a bloody handprint. The witch closed her eyes and began to whisper the last part of the summoning spell. her words echoed through the chamber like a haunting melody. With each repetition, the air grew thicker with anticipation.
The summoning of a demon was her last desperate bid for survival. She stood up again and stumbled out of the summing circle, making space for the otherwordly creature who would hopefully arrive soon. As the final syllable left her lips, a sudden gust of wind swept through the chamber, extinguishing the candles and plunging the room into darkness.
No matter how hard she tried her steps were not silent at all. Her cloak long abandoned, was left on the very bush it got stuck on. She darted between the trees, feeling the weight of the hunter's pursuit. She could hear them approach from the distance, drawing closer with each moment.
Her heart pounded in her chest as she raced through the darkness. Her magic previously crackled around her but at this time it was no longer humming with power. The barriers of root and thorns she had cast before in the hope of slowing her pursuers down had certainly done their job. Sadly, it was not enough. Fear and superstition certainly could feel people's confidence. But she was not going to give up either. She fled deeper into the heart of the forest, through the tangled maze of trees.
At this point, she was pushing herself to the limits of her endurance. Her body was already bearing the scars of those hunter's weapons. Blood stained her black robe, a grim testament to the violence that she had endured already.
Pain laced through her side, the bleeding wounds were only one of her issues. She clutched her side tightly while stumbling further onward. Somehow she managed to disappear into the shadows. Out of sight but sadly not out of mind. Hidden well enough to escape the witch hunters view just for a moment. Yet that was very much enough for her to find something important. Apparently, some kind of deity had finally mercy upon her. An abandoned manor. Looming above her with its crumbling facade.
With no other choice, she hurried inside. The front door was unlocked and she hoped that was no bad omen. Hopefully, no one else was waiting inside for her and it was just some lucky coincidence. She could see no light burning inside, so she could only hope for the best. Her breath came in ragged gasps as she sought sanctuary within its walls.
The air was heavy with the scent of decay and neglect. Dust motes danced in the moonlight that filtered through broken windows. Normally she would delight in such a scene. She would find the eerie shadows pleasant but the urgency of her situation forced her to think quickly.
Why had she never developed a talent for illusion magic? She could see a tucked-away alcove in the shadows of the manor, she could hide there and use an illusion to stay hidden but no. That was not within her abilities. She would need to find another way. So she hurried into the next best room, hoping that no droplets of blood would reveal her presence to her hunters.
Amidst the pain and uncertainty, there was a flicker in her eyes. She refused to be cowed by those maniacs. She would not allow them to erase her from existence like a forgotten memory. Fear and hatred would not be her end. There was one way out of this. A chance she really did not want to take but she knew it was the only chance left to survive. A risky gambit. Summoning a demon was nothing she had ever done before. However, she would rather go through this than perish.
With trembling hands, she set about preparing for the ritual that would determine her fate. Her heart was heavy with desperation but the pain shooting through her side was a constant reminder of what was to come.
Quickly she cleared space on the ground of the room she was in before pulling out her chalk. She drew a pentacle on the ground before shrugging off her backpack. How good that she had only lost her cape and not her belongings. Without any care, she dragged out some candles and placed them on the tips of the star. With a wave of her hand, she lightened up all those candles with magic.
She started to mumble incantations she had learned with the hope of never having to use them. All the while she pulled out a bundle of dried herbs and held the tip of the candle to make them burn and smoke. As the scent of incense filled the air, she dropped the herbs on the ground and stepped onto them. The last she needed was to burn this manor down.
At the center of the circle, she fell to her knees, her vision slowly blurrying. She pressed her bloody hand down on the ground, leaving a bloody handprint. The witch closed her eyes and began to whisper the last part of the summoning spell. her words echoed through the chamber like a haunting melody. With each repetition, the air grew thicker with anticipation.
The summoning of a demon was her last desperate bid for survival. She stood up again and stumbled out of the summing circle, making space for the otherwordly creature who would hopefully arrive soon. As the final syllable left her lips, a sudden gust of wind swept through the chamber, extinguishing the candles and plunging the room into darkness.
