DemonKitten
Handler of Souls, Destroyer of Hearts
High and mighty
Proud to a T
But struck with a truth
Can I not be free
From the agonizing pain
That boils in my chest
Like spouts of lava
It overflows in a mess
A mess of emotions
I lack control
To feel such hatred
I loathe
If only myself
I hate my own weakness
But my body betrays me
Shakes and convulses
Desire for closure
But the door was slammed shut
I knocked for hours
Without any luck
Turned away in the rain
To suffer in agony
For a weak minded fool
That can’t even say why to me
The mind craves a reason
Detailed and true
The heart craves an apology
Heartfelt and pure
If only this was received
This one thing is all I need
So my life can move on
As if your just a shadow in the masses
But these emotions swell inside me
Bursting at the seams
Triggered by a mere image
Or words spoken in writing
Acidic, vile feelings that burn through my heart
I know it’s because I cared too much
I know it’s because I hurt
Even though I know the truth
Logic is pushed aside
Because the only solution is to talk
And I’ve tried and tried and tried
My pride is already broken
My heart, never repaired
So instead I’ll burn in rage
Every time you appear
Shall I hold my tongue
I always do
And smile to all but you
Until one day
You’re brave enough
To face the fear you grew