CrazyNotChaotic
Lovable Nuisance
Love is . . .complicated, and messy. It's unique, and defined by the people involved. It's scary and big and really fragile sometimes. I know all of this, but still, I don't know what love is. When I think of love I want rich memories, beautiful feelings, I want something that will last, none of that fluffy high school stuff, but if I don't have that, will I be able to have what I want? Do I have to start with something weak to aim for something strong? Will I have to submit myself to a casual thing, that I know won't last, to bother building something that will not only last but exist for an eternity. I want love that shines so strong people look at us and just feel the connection between us. I don't want it to be something annoying, too much PDA and cuddling in public. I want just to be able to walk side by side, shoulders barely touching, just talking and laughing like any person would with another, yet when people look at us, they sense a strong love. They sense something unique, something private, something beautiful. Can I have this? It's a scary thought, to have to start little and go big, of course I don't want to jump in headfirst and proclaim my undying love, I want simple beginnings that grow and strengthen into something stronger. I want the falling in love slowly, steadily. I guess all I'm doing here is writing down my fears about love, because what if I can't find that small beginning that grows, because I won't settle or even start to look at anything that looks fluffy and immature. What if I'm just not open to love?
(Ugh, well, sorry ^^", please don't mind my . . . well whatever this is. If you have any thoughts or want to talk about this sort of thingy, that'd be nice. I'm in a thinking mood, so yeah. Anyway, thanks!)
(Ugh, well, sorry ^^", please don't mind my . . . well whatever this is. If you have any thoughts or want to talk about this sort of thingy, that'd be nice. I'm in a thinking mood, so yeah. Anyway, thanks!)