Pilgrim59
Bellua 1-4
Her eyebrows parted from her gleaming scarlet eyes. A soft chuckle escaped her fair lips, as the Raven's rosy cheeks gave heed to its frivolous counterpart, glowing most wonderfully beneath the absent sun. She was glad that, despite the blood on his apparatus, and the tremors of his firm hands, she was able to persuade the weary mender to conjure a smile. Yet, beneath her cheerful façade, a part of Sigrid made her wary of the sage's lost eyes. Neither by Hakan's outward deformity nor the belligerence of his perfect mien, but by how he could perceivably look beyond the veils of the Raven's youthful front. She was afraid that her own truths would inevitably be at cross with her own companions. They needed a figure to inspire them and to give them a purpose, not a mad woman with a vague dream. As such, Sigrid could only be what she is now - no more perfect, but no less unrefined. Alas, with Hakan, she was always enthusiastic to seek an answer, even if she must swallow her artificial pride.
Reminded of Hakan's rumors of distant kingdoms and barbarian lands, Sigrid raised a brow as he referred to the afterlife as 'Valhalla', curious as to what other names he would call upon in the stead of Solsgard. It amazed her, for her intrigues seem to perpetuate around the particular details of casting her gaze upon foreign lands. She became obsessed with her dream ever since her arrival in Vaeborg, and such fiery compulsion only manifested fervently as she continued to find distance between her and the old frigid realm. While she was eager to learn, Sigrid knew it in her heart that it was nothing more but a distraction to keep her mind guarded from a preposterous desire to cross the wild sea.
Sigrid's hands held tightly onto Hakan's right hand, letting the man know of her appreciation of his efforts, despite her unspoken gratitude. She reflected on her own well-being, wondering why Aedayn has yet to grant her the slightest glimpse of Solsgard. Not in dreams, not in waking visions. All she found was the perpetual silence that haunted her waking hours and restless nights - all in the form of a voiceless raven. Despite her works, against beasts and men, she felt unsatisfied with the gods' reticence. It irked her, so much so that she was fully convinced that she had embarked upon this uncertain quest to test Aedayn's patience.
But at the end, the Raven was inclined to soak in the heavy vestige of her own warped mind. Her distant gaze upon the distant blue horizon was interrupted by Hakan's commensurate measure of concern as he tugged upon her fair hands with purpose. She gave him a half smile, before leaning in closer. "It would be unbecoming of me if I smelled like clovers and berries. Alas, I am renewed by your mere words, Hakan... " By instinct, she appropriated her response with a corresponding tone to hide her troubles - but to no avail. Her smile would dissipate, as she bit her lips with a grim expression. Knitting her eyebrows together, the Raven finally gave heed to her fluttering, disorganized thoughts, of which was quick to take hold of her words. Heeding the ghastly bird's trace, Sigrid inhaled deeply, before finally breaking out of her false façade. "... At least, that is what I tell myself."
"The Black Bird followed me, Hakan, and for the first time in my life, I am ... uncertain." She spoke, with her tone more reticent than it was before. As she professed her softened state, Sigrid held herself at contempt. It made her felt weak, while fulfilling the very thing that she had wished to avoid. But her late dreams have only stirred her heart more than it did her already-unsteady hands. After many years of fighting in Jarl Sten's wars, Sigrid had inadvertently adopted his mindset. While her hands and feet moved to secure her own vision, her mind has always been a prisoner to the Jarl's design. It irked her, to be in conflict of something she was so certain yet so uncertain of. She knew not why she had chosen to say what she did, but the Raven knew better than to disobey Aedayn's will.