Attempts at Poetry

[ErikaRaven]

I KEEP UP THIS WAIT


I'm sitting at the study table,


My heart is still unstable,


I wonder if this voice that is so feeble,


Will ever be, to you, reachable,


I keep up this wait,


But my heart is shattering like a plate,


Where are you mate?

I bring my pen near my lips,


Looking at the paper in front of me,


That is covered with these scripts,


Was that what I think it was? A rip?


From the depths of this heart,


Why do these seconds take so long to pass?


Why is my heart as weak as a glass shard?


Why do these feelings not come to pass?


Why do I miss you so damn much?


Where are you, my friend?


Why do I want to feel that warm touch?


Why can't these feelings of mine budge?


I keep up this wait,


But I can hear my heart shattering like a plate,


Where are you mate?


I feel so damn alone,


Why is this voice still unknown?


I just want to run,


Why can't you be forgotten?


Come and ease this restlessness of mine,


Come and ease this uneasiness of mine,


It gets too painful to endure from time to time.


{Dedicated to my dear friends who have all suddenly gotten too busy


Sincerely,


Erika}

 

[ErikaRaven]

STAY WITH ME





These feelings that get too much of a burden to bare,


I try to ignore them, to be stubborn and not care,


But it isn't possible to ignore air,


Why do I still want you here when I don't deserve you?


You are a magnet and near you I feel like a metal,


You pull me closer, that side of you that is so gentle,


Why is it that when you are around it rains petals?


Why do you stay with me? You deserve better,

This heart of mine wants you,


But I'm aware I can never be good enough for you,


My failed tries to distance myself from you,


Getting drawn towards you over and over again,


To be able to stand beside you, Can I someday be able to attain that?


Tears rolled down my cheeks as I on that cliff sat,


Can I hold onto your warmth with these bruised hands?


How can you hold onto someone that causes you only pain?


Why are my tries to distance myself from you in vain?


Why do you stay? Do you really love me?


Why did you fall for someone like me?


Why does my heart want you when you deserve better?


Why, oh why are you taking the rain and being my shelter?


Except sadness I have given you nothing, ever,


Is it so I won't be sad that you stay?


Why oh why do you hold onto these hands of mine that are bruised?


Is it so my hands won't get more bruises?


Am I selfish to want you to stay with me?


My heart wants you to stay with me,


But please don't stay if you don't have any feelings for me.


(Dedicated to Zero)