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bloodless
Zareth |
the discomfort of his own flesh being burnt was one not unfamiliar to him, brief flashes of memories reminding him, yet never had he felt one so pleasant and short-lasting. As the discomfort faded from Zareth's body, light took his senses, filling the area around him and his own heart. His eyes strained against the light, squinting until it became manageable again. As his sight returned to him, he was met with a beautiful woman before him.
as Zareth took in her, all he could think was how he seemed to know her. An elf's life was long, he had seen many faces in his time, but never had he felt such a strong sense of knowing someone without even a fraction of a memory. His brows furrowed as he tried to pull the strings of the memory to him, only for them to be torn from his grasp. No matter how hard he searched, he could not find the fragments of knowledge in his own head.
it was only then that the touch on his cheek bought his attention, his gaze quickly falling to the hand that held him. Without warning his own body tensed, panic flowing through him as his gaze flicked up to her face rapidly, trying to see a sign of aggression. Her words soothed him, but his body stayed taught as he watched her. Her words tore through him harder than any blade ever could. A woman he could not even remember brought a sob from deep inside him. Disblief replaced his apprehension. So desperate for the words to mean something, he fell into the soft tone, needing them to mean something.
he wanted nothing more than to be enough, for everything he did to be worth something. All the sacrifices he put in, his entire life he wasted to be what he was meant to be. A life wasted on the magic he claimed to love, so many times he wondered if he ever did. He had not heard sweet words since before his heart had stopped for the first time and many years before that. How long had he gone without a caring touch like this? His entire life it felt, maybe it truly had been. He was left bare before this woman as he shook with rapid tears.
"please..." his tone begged out pathetically. He begged for so many things at this moment. For her words to be true. For the power she promised. For this moment of tenderness to never end. How was he to return to the bitter cold of himself after feeling the light? To be destined for anything at all, how could he ever ask for more? To finally be destined for more than rotting in the earth, without a soul to mourn him. He needed this power more than anything. To be enough. To be strong enough that people would look at him. Worthy enough not to be forgotten. So he raised his gaze to her tender eyes, diluted with fat tears as he spoke, "take anything from me you require. Just please allow me this, this power. To be worthy of the destiny you say I have. To be worthy of this second chance of life. Please."
and so he grasped at the power offered to him however he could. To be something more when he opened his eyes tomorrow. To be anything more than nothing. Even if this tender moment wasn't real, even if it was all in his head. He needed it to be real for him now, this power, this love. Things he had never gotten, concepts he had never deserved. He was nothing in the face of her, and yet she still offered him this. He did not know how he would handle it if he woke up tomorrow and it was nothing more than a dream, but right now, he couldn't think of that. All he needed was to feel that it was real, in whatever way it was.
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Mallory |
amazement fluttered across Mallory's face as he stood atop the water, pointing the camera at it as he went to speak, only for his words to get caught in his throat. He began to struggle to grasp a breath, his face turning panicked. Shame flooded through him for a moment, stemming from the feeling of disappointment shoved onto him from the star. Memories of faces with that expression flooded his mind as he was finally able to tear a gasp out of his lungs. Relief flooded through him as he spoke with a shaky breath to the camera he had dropped.
"almost had me... scared for a sec there chat..." he strained out a laugh, moving to pick the camera up again only for him to be plunged into the achingly cold water. Mallory began to swim immediately, only to be plunged deeper into the abyss. A scream slipped from his throat but did not penetrate the darkness. In response, he breathed in the liquid deeply, expecting to be met with liquid in his lungs. Images flashed through him of his death, of claws having torn through his throat. For only a thought, he saw himself there again, only to be met with air.
he sunk deeper into the water, forgotten even by the stars that disappeared. The voice spoke inside his head as he curled into himself, alone without even his camera to keep him safe. Embraced in the water, he felt safe but never more scared. That he would stay here in safety forever, alone and forgotten, only known by the bubbles that floated around him. As the voice spoke to him, he spoke back.
"I don't know," he spoke honestly, his mask being forced away by the safe around him. "I watched. I recorded. I was helpless. I just did what they told me to, I just followed Orin's orders. I didn't even survive it; all I did was hold that damn camera." he laughed bitterly for a moment, "I watched them all die, oh god... I watched John, Daniella, Sussie. I did what Orin asked. I followed the orders, but we were dead the moment we decided to go to that abandoned fucking building. If only it had been some homeless people like I had joked." he swallowed thickly for a moment, "but I didn't survive. If I did, I wouldn't be here, would I? But I still have that fucking camera, don't I? So maybe that all was just my lore..."
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