Mugen.
the accursed.
I’ve decided to depart for a while but all of you have been so kind to me that I’ve decided to write one last poem. Just to give context, this poem is about my former lover again. This month marks what would have been a year since we first met. What started off as something positive turned into a tumultuous relationship involving deceit, lies, manipulation, paranoia, and various other aspects that consist of a tragic romance. I’m sharing too much at this point but I I need you, the reader, to imagine us, for we don't really exist if you don't. Ultimately I wish things would have ended differently but there is only so much one can take before breaking. I welcomed her back in and she deceived met yet again. I lost myself loving her but I hope to find myself in my solitude. Regardless, I hope everyone enjoys this last peace. It’s a closing of a chapter. I hope you all enjoy.
"And the rest is rust and stardust..."
A year ago, a month before our meet.
Encountered each other, we spoke of the sea;
You were perfect, with words so serene,
I kept to myself, for history did impede --
A forlorn soul aspiring to be the moon --
You opened my eyes, saved me from my doom.
Causalities of Cupid, our desires did spend.
Unbeknownst to me, your affection did Rend.
Once my star, now pilfered from the heavens.
Careening through memories, in mere seconds.
Marred and confused, you said you’d never depart.
Lost within your soul, your foolish notion for a fresh start.
Barren and used, my vessel beats no longer.
Squandered by her touch, who’s next? I wonder.
Even in the void, I cling to those recollections.
Awaiting for our loves, multiple resurrections.
Exhausted I am, no longer can I go.
Deceived me yet again, how stupid -- I know.
Libras you did love, but you threw me in the abyss.
A lioness whose deceived, scoprios in the midst.
I gave you my all, invested my well being.
You sucked me right in, left me without seeing.
And while you laugh, as if I do not exist.
I sit here lifeless, my pain persists...
Akin to snowflakes, old stars descend.
Trying to hold on, but they disappear in the end..
Will you still come back? I cannot contend.
No longer will I wait evermore, this is the end.
Gone within seconds, their residues remain
Emotional lacerations, my skin did stain.
Like my beating muscle, yet not as decayed.
No more old stars, you lead me astray.
Swallowed in earth, there is no catharsis for me.
I hurt, this hurts, will I ever be free?
A year ago, a month before our meet.
Encountered each other, we spoke of the sea;
You were perfect, with words so serene,
I kept to myself, for history did impede --
A forlorn soul aspiring to be the moon --
You opened my eyes, saved me from my doom.
Causalities of Cupid, our desires did spend.
Unbeknownst to me, your affection did Rend.
Once my star, now pilfered from the heavens.
Careening through memories, in mere seconds.
Marred and confused, you said you’d never depart.
Lost within your soul, your foolish notion for a fresh start.
Barren and used, my vessel beats no longer.
Squandered by her touch, who’s next? I wonder.
Even in the void, I cling to those recollections.
Awaiting for our loves, multiple resurrections.
Exhausted I am, no longer can I go.
Deceived me yet again, how stupid -- I know.
Libras you did love, but you threw me in the abyss.
A lioness whose deceived, scoprios in the midst.
I gave you my all, invested my well being.
You sucked me right in, left me without seeing.
And while you laugh, as if I do not exist.
I sit here lifeless, my pain persists...
Akin to snowflakes, old stars descend.
Trying to hold on, but they disappear in the end..
Will you still come back? I cannot contend.
No longer will I wait evermore, this is the end.
Gone within seconds, their residues remain
Emotional lacerations, my skin did stain.
Like my beating muscle, yet not as decayed.
No more old stars, you lead me astray.
Swallowed in earth, there is no catharsis for me.
I hurt, this hurts, will I ever be free?
